It's been two days and ....counting...since I decided to go home for some much over due housecleaning, weeding and talking with my daughter Jill.
ALL need to be addressed, but I can't seem to bring myself to leave the sanctuary of Eds.
I could be in a good place in my life IF I didn't have the above dragging me down.
Yesterday....all I wanted to do was sleep all day and be damned if I didn't doze and nap off and on all day and slept the entire night from 9p.m to 5:30 a.m.without waking. Yeah...I was surprised myself.
Have no ambition. Zip/Nadda! Having SHIT on your mind can truly drag your ass down. My problems seem un- surmountable to me. The light at the end of the tunnel, isn't present in my mind.
Tick, Tick, Tick.....it's nearing noon.
I'm fairly certain that IF I do go home...I will DO SQUAT! There seems no place to start and I can't envision the Finish Line.
I have no energy for the motor home, Ed's house or my own.
I get tired.... just thinking about the mess I've made for myself. Leaving "the chicken coop" unprotected from "the wolf" wasn't bright! I shit you not!
(((hugs)))
That's All Folks!
I AM WOMAN! Hear me ROAR! February 2012
WARNING !! Not for those with a short attention span. ; 0 )
Our bodies tell us what we need. Sounds to me like you need some much needed rest about now. And stop thinking that YOU made that mess. You didn't. We all have choices in life. Jill has made her choices. If anything, you have given her every chance to turn her life around but she chose not to. You must stop blaming yourself. This is on Jill, not you, my friend.
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I agree with Mary. No advice,just love and hugs from me.
ReplyDeleteI feel the "love." Thank you my friends. (((hugs)))
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