D D Day 39 and news and thoughts

My DIL Kim IM'd me last night to tell me my son looks 100 % better and is sleeping good. :0)
Still asking for smokes and trying to make compromises like a drug addict or alkie. :0(

   Ginger wasn't feeling good at all yesterday.
Those Rabies shots knock the Hell out of small dogs.
Ohhhhhhh and I forgot to mention that when she was put on the scale her weight was 13.4 pounds.
I believe when she had her vaccinations in July she was in the 15 pound range.
Picking up her Eucanuba before bedtime seems to be getting some weight off her. :0)
Carrying her around is cumbersome and in this carryon case ( soft or not ) she is what she is. HEAVY!
  Son Randy called me to ask if my computer was still working and I was happy to report it was.
Thanked him and he said " You're welcome....any time."
   Another thing I forgot in my last entry was that I almost slipped in front of Tracie to the length of time I will be in Florida.
A pamphlet came in the mail and I was reading about classes being taught in a JoAnnes Fabric store in another town.
 A sewing class and you bring your own sewing machine to familiarize yourself with it's features.
Blurted out that I would love to attend those classes , but I wouldn't be here for March 15th. when they began.
The panicked look that came in Tracie's eyes as she said, but you will be back the first of the month I thought you said.
Told her with this cruise and all I wasn't sure of dates now.
Long face on Tracie. :0(
    Still haven't told my daughter Cheryl that I will be going away to Florida.
While she will say that she is happy for me, I know she will be sad.
There are moments in her life where she needs to reach out to me and long distance calls she can't afford. sigh!
I feel torn in so many directions. I shit you not!
Doesn't help the fact that I like being in my own home where what I need....when I need it... is where I put it.
Haven't told Jill or hubby either.  I think it's just my oldest son's wife Kim that I have told.
She and I use to IM each other when she was caught up on her work before she lost her job after twenty years and I confided in her. Not sure but I think her job was accounts payable back then.
Then she took out a student loan to take a course on hospital and insurance billing codes and the likes to find other employment. Has only found one temp job through an agency and in four months or so that company was caught up on it's work and she wasn't needed any longer. sigh!
It was good having Kim to talk to about what was going on in my life. THX Kim.

Just noticed it was just Jill that was eating leftover Chinese.
When I commented on just her eating, he said he wasn't in the mood for it.
That must mean he still must have some money to feed his face a different meal.

Hubby found his Simvastin  ( spelled wrong?)( cholestrol med ) that I have been calling the V.A. Pharmacy about.  Hubby has been speculating that W.B. took it out of the mail.  I'm like why just one RX when you got five RX's in a mailing bag just days before this one was due.
I mean ....WB may be a looser, but he isn't taking med's out of our mail box. 
Hubby went into his nightstand and this pill bottle fell out. He read the label and asked how it got up there.
Beats moi.  I hand him all his RX's that are mailed to him and let him open them up.
Glad I didn't have to call and critique the V.A.'s mailing service on Monday. I was not a Happy Camper every day when I checked the mail for those particular med's.  I shit you not!
Now he knows......WB did not steal them.
   Asked him just now when he is going to put all his tools and things neatly on his new shelving so I can put his clothes back in there.  Heard him say ," Gimmee a break ma."  CAN DO!
Think I will look online and see if I can shop for this trip for summery colored long sleeved pullover shirts for him that have a collar and neck opening.  He has two light colored long sleeved , button down the front shirts that always need an ironing touch up and I want tumble dry. ;0)
Ah ha... he says I can start putting his stuff on his shelves.  In time....in time.... ;0)



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Now for today.
Nothing got put up into the attic yesterday.  I had asked Jill again yesterday  morning.
She didn't come home last night. W.B.'s truck is still in the driveway. They used hers which is cheaper on gas.
He was supposed to work today at the firestation beginning at 8 a.m. and was talking of taking four hours off to plow in the morning.
Well he must have made that call last night to the fire station and the snow didn't materialize.
Now he's lost four hours of vacation time he uses in the winter to plow.  Not my problem.
What is....IS............ he can afford to eat out and drink on payday, but not the entire week after he is paid.
The money burns a hole in his pocket so to speak. All $175 of it.
That's sick that a fireman of 22 years only takes home that much after child support, health and dental insurance and other related to the job expenses are taken out.
It's the LOANS he had taken out that come out of his paycheck automatically that are even sicker.
HE PRAYS FOR SNOW to make himself some money plowing.  ohhhhhhhhhhh well!
Those teeny tiny flakes I saw floating in the air last night ended almost as soon as they began. :0)
   Speak of the .......................... They are here. Came in and I didn't hear them.
As I  went for a refill on coffee I spoke out loud. " No work?"
Oh ...yesterday I took the day off thinking there would be 3 to 6 inches of snow on the ground for me to plow, he said.  I'm going in tonight and working 8p.m. to 8a.m.
    I see those teeny tiny flakes beginning to swirl through the air now.
 Looks like we MIGHT get some snow from the second storm that was forecast. The first one skipped us.

Have been thinking that I best make an appointment at the vets for Lady to get her rabies vaccine.
Her last Rabies shot was three years ago this March just like Gingers and where I won't be home I best get her that shot before I leave. If I don't, she would have to begin the series over instead of getting this shot every three years like it is now. 
Scratch one thing off the TO DO LIST and add another. sigh!

Tomorrow would have been Jill and Sonny's fathers 74th birthday.
Think it's been seventeen years that he has been gone. Now it's another day for her to drink. sigh!

I hear pans rattling. HE must be hungry. :0(
I'm thinking of making some turkey soup with some of the leftover turkey.
It's just A THOUGHT now.
Would be a good day to make soup for hubby and I.  The sky is gray and outdoors looks dreary.
   Just snooped in the kitchen. Jill is heating up their leftover Chinese food and a bag of boil in the bag rice.
It's 10 a.m.  Brunch?????????????????????????

My neighbors next door Jane and Art's 31 year old grandson had colon cancer surgery yesterday.
I sent her an email letting know I was thinking of them last night.
This morning there were no lights on in the house. The lights come on at 6 a.m. like clockwork when they are home. 7:05 a.m. and the house was dark. Hope he is alright.
I know she said a few months back they were trying to shrink the tumor as the area it was in might cause him to have to wear a bag for the rest of his life.
   Just read my emails and saw Jane had answered my email. Phase 1 is over she said.
Grandson Ed came through the surgery and his surgeon is hopeful that with further chemo and surgery  he will beat this. :0)
They slept late due to being up late.
There was a time I was up way, way before the birds and knew when every neighbor within my vision got up and when they left for work.
Hopefully those days are gone and except for the pain in those nerves I mentioned waking me up, I have now been able to sleep without Tylenol P.M.

I made hubby and myself a chicken sandwich for lunch out of the roasted chicken son Randy gave us and decided to make a chicken soup out of the legs, etc. instead of turkey soup.
Doorbell rang and Jill got up and went to answer it. It was David my neighbor Mary's son and he handed Jill the $20 bill I gave/lent to his mom.
I never expected it back.
Jill asked him how he was doing and he shrugged his shoulders. She told him he better be good as he don't want her to kick his ass.
Good for Mary to send David around with monies she borrowed from us her neighbors due to his drug habit and stealing from her.

W.B. has been on the parlor computer and Jill has been watching TV in her room.
Ahhhhhh yes....those things that are not in W.B.'s house.  Sleeping there when Logan is at his dads is one thing....living without TV and a computer during the morning hours is another.
Nice that someone pays their bills and doesn't just think of themselves.
Bars are open now...................................no doubt in my mind that the conversation she says she goes to bars for will be calling them soon.
She ate only a small portion of what she had cooked earlier and just now reheated it .
Could be that her stomach isn't feeling so good after a day and night of drinking. :0)
I feel for her. NOT!!!!!

That's All Folks!

D D Day 38 and trying to make some headway.

Called my son Randy last night and he said he would come in the morning to help me out with the desktop problem.:0)
Was sitting at the kitchen table with Tracie and he came through the door about an hour later.
My heart jumped..:0) 
:0( Was here to gather up the parlor tower and my desktop tower and bring them back to his house to clean them out.
He was IN and OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Is bringing them back this morning. Told me to call and cancel my ISP service repair technician and I did.
   Tracie called and asked if I wanted to go make my purchase returns and I put it off to next week.
Asked if we still had leftover ham and could she come here with some bread and make herself sandwiches to eat. It's her second favorite sandwich she said. 
Sure.......come along.
Hubby's sister Ann had called him and it's not often that they talk so he was on the phone most of Tracie's visit . :0)
After she left and I was at the table on the laptop , I heard him say to his sister." I think they left me all alone."
So I spoke up.  He thought I went off somewhere with Tracie.
I never leave the house without first kissing him goodbye, but I guess there could be a First Time.

Wrote out checks this morning. Always a fun thing to do. NOT!
House taxes up another $50 a Quarter and my house is worth less than it was a few years ago. Sigh!
No social security increase, but a $200 house tax increase this year and there was an increase last year too.
Water bill was $307. Think that our water is billed twice a year. Liked it better when we had a septic tank.
Now we pay the same amount for incoming water as outgoing water. Sigh!
Water bills increased too.   What doesn't!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Began to straighten up and clean my bureau top.
Noticed the bag of Rose Hips that I bought at one of the Christmas Fairs that Tracie and I went to.
Love that smell, so I discreetly emptied them in a flower vase and will feign DUMB if hubby smells anything.
The vase is placed up high.
   He has two of his three closet shelves up and I'm hoping number three gets put up today and maybe he can get his SHIT back up on his shelves and I can finally empty his hated chair.
I had to make a corner of the chair bare so that Ginger can jump up first on the chair and then onto the bed. :0)
The clutter in our bedroom is adding to whatever ails me. 
Asked Jill again this morning if she can get up into the attic and put my new Christmas decorations away up there.  
I myself need to climb up those folding stairs to the top where a box of pictures is located next to the edge of the opening and see if I can find a picture of DIL Deb with son Terry taken on their wedding.
I am bad about writing dates on pictures, BUT here's hoping.

No one could have imagined the scene in my house when son Randy came. NO ONE! I shit you not!
He brought with him an air ?????????
Will go look at box in hubbys closet before I post....unless I forget.
He decided hubby needs this to clean out our computer towers and such, so he proceeded to give him a lesson on how to use it and to maintain it so vapor doesn't rust the inside out.
See, I even got educated. ;0) From another room even.
At one time hubby made a break away and said something about his prediciment and I said, " better you, than me."  ;0)
He had this ( I think it's an air compressor ) not small like ones hubby has owned to blow up pool tubes and the likes though RUNNING IN THE KITCHEN.
Any idea of how loud these things are????????????????
Meantime I'm thinking.......bring in my tower and hook it up and let's see if it works again.
Can't look a gift horse in the mouth....sigh!  So after hubby got educated and they stored that item in hubby's closet, Randy hooked up the parlor tower.......well No. He asked W.B. to hook all the wires back on it and then WB said it wasn't recognizing the keyboard in there.
Leave a boy to do a man's job.............sigh.......... Randy went and did it over and it worked fine.
The W.B. had plugged plugs in while the computer was on and YOU CAN'T DO THAT.
I didn't know that either, but I never said I was computer savy. ;0)
Finally it was time for my tower. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I had made things n i c e.... Took a warm damp cloth and cleaned all the dust on my desktop table and vacuumed all around it. :0)
Looks good today....tomorrow there will be more dust. :0(
Glad to say I have an operational desktop computer thanks to my son.  :0) :0) :0)
He took pictures with his camera of the dust inside of the parlor desktop tower. UGLY ! Take my word for it!
He had cleaned mine out maybe 6 months ago and it wasn't too bad.
Logans had never been cleaned since I bought it. YUCK!
He still doesn't know why mine was doing what it did.......

Before he left hubby asked him to mark the wall in his closet so he could put the last shelf up.
As he was doing that I turned the heating pad on and placed it on the side of my right leg
I piled up three pillows behind my head and sat back to watch  court trial. ( The nerve that runs along the outside of my right arm and leg have been waking me at night with pain and I haven't made time to go to the chiropractors last week or this week.) sigh!
Wouldn't you know it...I dozed off and slept a good two hours and my neck ended up hurting from the position I was in.
Randy had put the last shelf up and had left. Later I looked at the shelf he put up. It was nice and even.
( Do remember hearing a hammer and the likes ) :0)
The one below it that hubby put up is higher in the front than towards the back.  Uneven isn't even the word.
Oh well... as long as he did it and is happy with it...what do I care.

I swear...................I'm busy trying to get this posted and Tracie comes.
Wanted to know if I wanted to go to the OutBack with her. 
Told her I had just put that last rounded tablespoon of tuna on a bun and ate that for supper.
Offered her some of the turkey we still had plenty of slices of and she made herself two sandwiches.
After almost two hours of idle chat and me fidgeting to get back to my computer I told her I needed to do some things in preperation for the end of the night and she left.  It was 6 p.m. sigh!
She's across the street at her parents now. I can see the TV screen light through the picture window.
She has a good heart and does for others. Needs her cable service in her apartment hooked up and a cell phone.
Has one that tax payers pay for, but all she gets on it is an hour a month.

Hubbys cholestrol med still didn't arrive in the mail. V.A. won't be open again until Monday.
8 a.m. to 4 p.m. weekdays are the hours they are open. . Looks like the government gives themselves a paid lunch hour too.

Oh and Mack and Myre have been gone since noon.
He went home to change out of his uniform and shower.  Hopefully he fed and watered his ferret like Jill reminded him to.
Came back and I heard her telling him as I walked near her room that she had purchased $100 worth of groceries the other day and I think....not sure though...I heard her say he needed to pitch in for groceries.
I'm willing to bet they have been someplace nice to eat and are now having a grand old time with their cohorts at the Moose Hall making CONVERSATION. 
All week no money to go out for CONVERSATION and as soon as it's payday........he pisses it away.

While it is quiet here and I'm glad he isn't here.........I'm still PISSED OFF!
I need to find my voice tomorrow and speak up. Not loud enough for hubby to add to it, but speak my mind as to where his money goes.
If I can eat DIL Kim's pinto beans she brought to me to try and a slice of ham and hubby had a ham and mustard sandwich for his supper last night and tonight he asked for wheaties and I had tuna W.B. can eat leftovers too. 
He gets a dime in his pocket and he has to spend it. 
We have PLENTY of leftovers . Turkey from Randy, more ham and today Randy brought a fully cooked Sams whole chicken untouched.
When he bought it he was hungry and when it was time to eat he lost his appetite. 
Right away I wonder what is up with his appetite.  Three slices off a whole turkey. None of the chicken eaten.  Almost all of his pu pu platter given to me last week.
Gave Tracie the egg rolls for a snack tonight.  No sense in this good food going to waste .

Ventured outside to plug in those roof ice melters and sweep up birdseed and refill feeders.
All set for the snow now. Teeny tiny flakes are floating down as I type.

Time I got this posted and read some blogs.

That's All Folks!











 

D D Day 37 and Me Stressed????

LIKE SHIT I'M NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Does a rug lie?????????????????????????????????????????

Still Wednesday.
Just as I got down on my knees to find my sandals and the like under my bed and get ready to push a vacuum under there, hubby comes out of the bathroom and asks me to take all of his clothes out of his closet so he can work in there putting up  wire shelving.

Yuh...I know. He has been working on this awhile now and your guess is as good as mine when he will finish  it with his eyes being so bad and having to prop himself up to stand to use his arms.
Everytime I turn around he is asking where his legs are. He sets the Canadian crutches outside his closet in a corner before he goes inside and holds onto the other shelving that has been installed to balance himself.  Then he's inside looking for them in there when he needs to come out to find them.  sigh!
If my bedroom wasn't a disaster area as it was ............I now have clothes piled up,up,up on his hated chair.

   The son Randy came to get Jill to go to Sams Club with him as she is the one with the Membership Card.
While waiting for her....the first thing he did was ask where my laptop was.
Insisted he show me more things and how to burn a CD.
Don't get your fingers on the bottom of the CD, this is where you insert it, don't write on it as the ink stuff will end up getting inside your computer, there are sticker tapes for that, I will get you some sleeves for them, muttering to self each time he incurs a problem. What's this, why did this come up.
Asked if I can go rest . He points to a kitchen chair beside him. Says I need to watch him so I could learn.  On and on and onnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
I'm thinking ........son I appreciate what you are trying to do and while I may have never burned a CD, MY FIRST computer was a laptop. I know where to insert the disk.
When he opened my main Tower or whatchamacallit to insert the disc after he burned it to show me....wow what a bunch of dust is in here and I cleaned it for you a few months ago, he said.
I said, what do you expect with a dirt cellar and forced hot air heating. sigh!
Hubby was in and out of his closet. Back and forth to sit on the edge of the bed. Measuring shelving and re-measuring it.
Then he hunts up his thermal top under that pile of clothes and decides he will go out to saw it with his/mine electric jig saw??? or whatever it's called.
Had to help him out and bring a chair for him to sit out.  The one he uses at the table as others outside will freeze his ass. 

In all of this Randy and Jill and W.B.Maybe take off. My computer is sitting on the table and I gues it's up to me to log off and save my battery. 
In hubby comes for a better blade to cut the metal rack and he has two more to do after he gets this one cut and up on his closet wall. 
He will not ask W.B. or Randy for help.  Always wants to do things himself no matter at how much of a disadvantage he is at in ability to do anything. 
I just put a hat on his head. :0)

Meantime I know Tracie will be calling me to see if I am ready to go do my exchanges.
This is my side of the bed where I began my futile attempt.

Pinned the bed ruffle up so I could see under the bed.
 Bird seed in milk jugs at the ready to toss out to the birds. ;0)
    No sooner typed that line and DIL Kim came to visit and tell us what is going on with her husband, MY SON Jay.
The day he left the hospital ( Monday) he left his house keys in the car saying to her he wouldn't be needing them anymore as he can't go anywhere with this oxygen.
In the hospital it went from living under the Plain St. Bridge to jumping off it. sigh!
She didn't get much sleep Monday night. A little more last night.
   Hubby gave up trying to saw that piece of metal shelving with this doozey of a cordless saw he bought me to cut crap outdoors and I've been telling him it sucked.....he now knows that it does. ;0)
I use clippers to prune the Roase of Sharons back the first of April and he thought this saw would make it easier for me and had Jill pick it up as a gift to me last Christmas. 
Tracie called while Kim was here and I told her maybe tomorrow I would take her up on her offer of ferrying me around and apologized.
She asked if she could call back to see what I was doing about supper and I told her, "sure."
Just as Kim was leaving Logan came through the door.  1:55 p.m. Just like cloclwork.
I gave Jill a check to pay for a couple of after school programs he wants to do. 
Monday and Wednesday Old Classics and New Movies with popcorn served.
Tuesday and Thursday some sort of gym things. Nana has a CRS thing going on at the moment.
C an't R emember S hit!
Those days Jill will have to go pick him up from school .
   Hubby is using a hacksaw while sitting on his side of the bed to cut that metal shelving. sigh!.
"Don't worry, we can vacuum up the metal chips", he says to me.
Translated.....you can vacuum.
Jill was back home before Kim left and she just made up tuna fish for sandwiches.
Yelled to W.B. to come make himself one. 
Hubby wanted oatmeal so I made that and fed him his lunch.
I heated up leftover American Chop Suey for my lunch before Kim came and while hubby was just outside the sliding door in our room. 
Looks like we are all a happy FED bunch.  For now anyway.  W.B.'s appetite is bigger and more often than any of ours.
 Logan is going through the growing stage and seems to always be hungry, but he doesn't eat alot in one sitting.
Last night Jill made a baked whole ham, boiled cabbage, carrots and mashed potatoes.
Ate my share...I shit you not!  
I loaded up  DIL Kim with turkey before she left and she remarked that it made her supper meal easy. :0)
Jill and I love boiled cabbage.  Hubby so so.  He never would eat it before he met me. I make it using brown sugar along with the cider vinegar and dry mustard in my boiled N.E. dinner.
He has no problem eating the stuffed cabbage I make either.

It was the cabbage. eeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

Hairdresser coming tomorrow at noon to cut our hair.

Logan said he didn't want his hair cut cause dad says it looks like she puts a bowl on it.

IT DOES NOT!

What the efffffff is he telling Logan that for. I pay the tab!

I came this close to telling Logan his dad looked like he shaved his ass and balls and looked like he was walking backwards.

Ugly S.O.B!  I shit you not!

He shaves what little hair he has on his head OFF.

If I don't have enough to gripe and complain about ....invariably I find something. sigh!

Noticed three empty cans of tunafish in the recycle box.

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jill eats but ONE SANDWICH.

How the Hell thick did W.B. make his sandwiches and HOW MANY?

I'm getting loaded for BEAR.

Tomorrow I'll tell her he can put some money towards our groceries and stay the Hell out of the bar when he gets paid.

For supper she was fixing the two of them hamburger patties piled with sliced onions and ? with a packaged Macaroni dish with portabello mushrooms. 

After writing that line, I walked to her room.

W.B. was gone!

Asked her how many sandwiches the S.O.B. made.  A triple decker she said.

I can't afford him I said and furthermore I'm not getting laid by him either.The latter was said to be smart.

Told her needs to put some groceries in this house instead of his money in the bar.

He was whining to her before he left that he had no money for his meals while at work tomorrow or cigarettes.  She told him that she thought she had taken pretty good care of him the last four days.

Yuh, I know, but from now on I'm going to make sure I have money to last me through the week he told her.

To which she replied,  Butchie how many times have you told me this same thing.

TO WHICH I REPLIED,  I would have said: same song, second verse and made like I was playing a violin.

He left cause he told her she was getting grumpy and was acting tired. I am was what she replied.

Her exema has flared up and her skin is burning.

Heard her making an appointment with a dermatologist today.

   Tracie came after dark ( instead of calling).

I fed hubby and went to Good Tymes with her. Thought I would eat sensible and ordered the small portion of the baked haddock, mashed potatos and pickled beets.

Then visions of the grapenut pudding I have had there before danced through my head and my common sense went to Hell in a handbasket.  Whipped cream on top ..........ohhhhh yeah!

Her brother Lonnie was there eating.  Eats there often. He's divorced and I'm thinking he is around sixty now. He's the oldest of four and Tracie is the youngest at fourty nine.

She will turn fifty on September 2nd and Jill turns fifty September 10th this year.

Here I go with the ages again and wondering where the years have gone.

They have.............and all too fast. :0(

Thursday January 6th

Another day of madness.

Could not get my desktop to work this morning.

Called my provider and got disconnected a few times.

Sending someone out tomorrow to check out my modem, but where the parlor computer and the laptop get internet service I am thinking the problem is with my tower.

Son Randy did not come down from NH today. GO FIGURE!

He could have checked the wires , etc. for me.  sigh!

Called the vet and got in with Ginger 45 minutes later. Have med's....Will travel!

Was making phone calls concerning hubbys late med's , calling the vet, calling my IPS and in between all this our hairdresser came at 11.40a.m.

It's a wonder that I have any hair left to cut.  I'm always pulling and tugging on it.  I shit you not!

Of course this wasn't a day that hubby wanted to stay in bed either. sigh!

Needed help getting into his closet and a folding chair in there, tools, and and and.

This morning at 7:05 I headed to the kitchen to start the coffee and hear, " Good Morning ."

Whine Bucket came here before going to work for 8.

Wanted to say ,  IT WAS until I saw you here."  sigh!

Hoping the rest of the day is less confusing although there is plenty to do to keep me busy.

This morning when I woke I immediately remembered part of two of my dreams.

The last one I would have liked to linger and enjoy the pleasant feeling it brought me, but time and circumstances wouldn't allow. sigh!

I was pulling out of somewhere ( assume a house) and passed by a car parked at the curb just out front of it.

It was my dad and I saw his face as plain as day.

He looked just like I last saw him. His features is what I mean.

While dad was a good provider and I give him that credit, he was a nasty alcoholic and mean to my mom.

Would have rather have seen my mom, but I'll still take dad.

He gave me life. :0)

That's All Folks!

D D Day 36 and Happy Birthday Buddy

It's still Tuesday and this entire day appears to have been wasted. :0(
Son Randy came and got on the phone with his brother Sonny in Florida as to how to download or whatever it is he wanted to do in transferring SHIT from my desktop to my laptop.
I say SHIT because alot of it is SHIT and I don't want it in the laptop.
Hours on the phone with the brother that works on compters for an income.
Words flying on the speaker phone that I have never heard.
What the Hell is share/ware? 
Randy brought me a 16 Gbyte ? Put my pictures on that and downloaded the 3K into the laptop.
I would have deleted all the damned jokes, etc. at my leisure, but with Randy...things have to be done HERE AND NOW.
Sonny could not get through to him on some of the instructions he was giving him.....still the conversation went on and on.
In the background I am saying , " all I want is my pictures in it '"
Finally Randy had the good sense to tell his brother that and they ended their call almost two hours into it.
If I had known that's all you wanted he said, I could have done that without calling him. AMEN!
Now I have to go through the laptop and delete a pile of SHIT from pictures. sigh!
Told Randy to not bother going through how I set me bank account up. Sonny can do it when I am there.
I needed to lay down and rest my nerves and did so at 1:30 p.m.
"Sorry you're not feeling well mom", he says.
Slept til 3:30. Needed it, but still NOTHING IS DONE towards my leaving here.
   Tracie was trying to call in while Randy and Sonny were on the phone.
It was annoying Randy and he verbalized it. 
A dog that carries an envelope that I put up on my computer screen to notify me when I have new mail...annoys him.
Wish that was all that annoyed me. ;0)
   Tracie called again after I woke. She was at the Rockingham Mall and those boot slippers I wished I had bought were still there. She will buy them for me.
I needed to stay away from the stores.  I shit you not!

Wednesday January 5th

BUDDY

Grandson Jon aka Buddy was born on this day.............WAIT!!! Let me run to my date book.

NIX that. Should have said....let me find my datebook.

Buddy turned 29 today.

omg! Omg! OMG! These grands are making me old! I shit you not!

Can't remember if he was my fifth grand child or.........I need to save what brain cells I have left so I won't dwell on that issue.  ;0)

W.B. went home again last night. I checked. ;0)

Tracie came after our supper with the purchase she made for me.

Sat and chatted, sat and chatted.... finally I asked her to take me 9 blocks or so down to the conveniece store to purchase lottery tickets for hubby ( we didn't win a thing  :0(  ) just to get her voice out of hubby's ears and we said our goodbyes in her car. sigh!

Things have been good....no sense pushing it.  I shit you not!

W.B. still is not here, but I see his coffee cup with a coffee bag sitting in it.  Jill has it ready for him to add the hot water.

Again last night they stayed in. It can only be a money issue that keeps them in, but I'll take it.

Saw an empty rum bottle in the recycle box. :0( 

She got Logan ready and off to school which included putting his gloves and back pack on for him and went back to bed.

I know...I know.... eleven and she still does this for him.

I was the same kind of mother. Hubby put his foot down when I met him on me checking if my 13 year old had cleaned his ears and got the shampoo out of his hair.  Jay was 13 years old when we met.

tsk! tsk! tsk!

The W.B. raved about her cooking again last night.

He never had it so good!!!!  I KNOW SO!

It was 77 degrees in FL when my son was on the phone yesterday. He was in shorts.

Bought myself 3 pair of shorts on sale to take with me on vaca. $5, $5 ,$3   I'm a big spender on myself as you can see. ;0) Hoping to shed a few pounds down the road and won't mind seeing those go at that price.

There is a MOOD TO MY MADNESS!!!

When I asked DIL Deb in an email what I should bring for clothes, she said don't worry about it... we will shop for what you need. Now that's an incentive to lose some pounds if I ever saw one. :0)

Snow is a coming.....what day, I missed it....maybe 6 inches... I can handle that with a shovel. Driving NO!

Saw the whites of Jill's eyes and the empty coffee cup still sitting on the counter , so I quickly went to talk to her. 

Glad to see he has been going home at night...I said to her.

Yeah, me too, she replied back.

He's been being a baby about it.  I told him he is not going to cause more problems at my house.

Then I mentioned the newspaper and briefly told her about having a Panic Attack Sunday after I saw him with the newspaper.

She had brought it in and quickly read what she wanted to read. ( Hubby does not mind her reading the paper first).

She looked up and saw he had taken the crossword section out and was doing the puzzle.

Butchie, what the efff are you doing, she said the him.

What......( duh) and he got all pouty about being chastised and could not understand why just that one section of the Sunday paper mattered.

I didn't wrinkle it, he says to her.

I told her that the next time that she says she is DONE with him and we KNOW ABOUT IT because we hear it with our own ears it is going to have to mean DONE!

I can't deal with this anymore I told her.

Who shows up at that moment but Whine Bucket .  8:53 a.m. 

She had just complained about having to cook for him all day yesterday and waiting on him and was hoping he stayed HOME this morning and did something around his own place.

Me Too!!!!  sigh!

Tracie will be coming by this p.m. to take me to do a few returns.

The two round neck shirts that hubby refuses to wear.

I could mention his thermal underwear that he wears have round necks and start a WAR, but I won't.

I thought this Patriots long sleeved shirt would be cool in FL.

Hubby will not wear short sleeved shirts as he protects his arms from the sun where he constantly has to have things froze off with liquid nitrogen at the dermatologists.

He wears cotton long sleeved button down the front shirts outdoors in the summer and brown cotton gloves and a HAT( sometimes a BIG STRAW HAT.

 The kids use to want to die of embarrassment when their friends saw him when they were young.

 If the sun rays shine on him on his side of the bed which is a good ten feet away from the sliding glass door ...I either have to pull the blinds or he pulls his blanket up and holds it there to block the rays. sigh!

I can't persuade him that he is in no danger of  skin cancer from those rays. .

It falls on deaf ears. I shit you not!

Time I make an attempt at things that I ABSOLUTELY  MUST accomplish before February 1st. and there are sooooooooooooooooo many.

Snow coming Friday.

That's All Folks!

D D Day 35 and the Obama Youth Brigade March in Formation

I stole this from Carol over at Curly Willow Ranch.
Carol is retelling her mothers life in Germany during Hitler's regime. .
I won't say more............go read it and think long and hard.
Never say NEVER!

Still Monday January 3rd.

No sooner do I post and make an attempt at going through patterns I MIGHT want to make while I am away....son Randy comes with the new Hewlett Packard laptop.
Almsot a 17 inch screen.  He tells me the smaller the laptop the more money they cost.
I'm computer illiterate from the buying down to how to use all the features. sigh!
This was $449.99 at Radio Shack in NH. No sales tax there.
Looks like I misunderstood him when he called .Thought he said it was a Dell.
Dell. Sony, Compac, Acer....I know from nothing. :0(
It is now after 12:30 and he is still here.He's trying to be helpful .
Until now he was trying to show me the different features and how to use the new wireless mouse he gave me. Where to plug it in. That sort of thing.
I would step away while he was doing something to it, no sooner get myself in my walkin closet to look for my old laptop carrying case and I'd hear, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
I know he was trying to help me out, but all I saw was the clock ticking. sigh!
My carrying case is too small for this 16 some odd inch laptop. Another purchase.
I don't care that this laptop is larger. Weighs not quite 6 pounds.
Cheaper is better for my pocket book. :0)
As long as it's a name brand and has the features I want.and this IS and DOES.

  Next was trying to figure out how the new harnesses he bought me for my dogs works.
 Hubby and I had a Hell of a time figuring out how they went on the dog.
Ginger gags if she is on a leash with her regular collar. She pulls hard on the leash to walk.
Randy got in the act and until I printed out the directions and even then there was some confusion we got it on her. :0) Easy Peasy............ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm if you know what you're doing it is. :0)
Randy printed out the directions...in case we forget how to put it on between now and the time I will use it.
Meantime while all this was going on Tracie called to see if I had got to the Town Hall yet and said she will take me shortly so I ran and showered.
Somewhere in all this I figure out that W.B. was in Jill's bedroom. Whether he stayed all night or came this morning ......I don't know.
Know I haven't seen him use the bathroom which is right outside my bedroom door though.
She made them lunch.. Looks like he is spending the day with her. sighhhhhhhhhhhh
Should go home and do his laundry like she always tells him to, but no...he is more comfy here watching TV and using the internet in the parlor.
He has NEITHER.   Shut OFF due to non payment and now he says his laptop needs a new charger or battery.
Not my problem!
   Asked hubby what he wanted for lunch before I left and he said......" a corn muffin."
Easy enough.........after this one,  there are no more. sigh!
Maybe I'll fib and tell him I ate a few and they are all gone if he asks for another.
You know....I like to save the peace. When I can.
   Randy gave me all kinds of stuff for my laptop.
Gave me his laptop mouse and this thing is a sweetheart to use.
 He says he'll get another.( hope it isn't a five finger discount) sigh!!!!!!!!!!
CD's in a case.  Too lazy to go look at what else. Oh ..just remembered a wire that plugs into my laptop and then gets plugged into a TV to show my pictures.
I did get my receipt for my laptop.  Know that is on the UP and UP!
Every time he comes and goes to leave , I tell him that I worry and say " Be Good".
Enjoy what you have. Your cats need you.
I think it falls on deaf ears. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jill and the W.B. took off to get groceries for me at 1:50.
Logan and Tracie came through the door together at 1:55.
Kissed hubby goodbye and went to the Town Hall to the Notary.
After Tracie made a quick stop to her bank that is.
Then down the road to the vet's office. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!  I can't get a tranquiler for Ginger unless I pay for a full exam at $49.  
I could kill my old vet for dying on me. ;0)
He was much more reasonable in his prices.
Ginger had an exam when she got her shots and heartworm  test  back in July.
After a year of being closed the vet office called me and told me that they would open one Thursday a month and asked if I wanted an appointment.
Sure did and everything was done.
Only problem now is....they are not open one Thursday a month and I can't get ahold of them for the records. :0( 
Imagine that even if I could.... this vet would STILL WANT A CURRENT EXAM.
   Next we went to Walmart for odds and ends that add up. 
Once home Jill had cooked linguine and white clam sauce for us. She, W.B. and hubby were at the table eating. :0)
Hubby didn't seem the least uncomfortable sitting at the table with him.
Later he asked me if  I wanted to lie down for awhile and reminded me that The Bachelor airs tonight.
This was very nice of him.
This program is not his Cup Of Tea.
Don't know if I gave him a scare or not yesterday. Do know he needs someone to care for him as he could never manage his care on his own.
Can't see well....so therefore can't drive. Can barely get around on his Canadian crutches,
Shortness of breath due to the DX of bilat. ACUTE pulmanary fibrosis  ( worked across the street from a maker of asbestos)  He may end up on an oxygen machine and he is aware of that.
Forgive me......back when he would threaten to leave me and tell me to pack his bags, I wished back then that he one day would realize he NEEDED  ME. 
(Hubby is the type that would cut his nose off to spite his face.) I didn't mean it to be like this.
 Be careful for what you wish for .....I have heard said.
He has  snoozed away for a good hour already and has given me time to hunt and peck on this keyboard.
Haven't touched the new laptop yet.  One thing at a time.
   Almost eight and hubby is awake and turning the channel for me. Not looking a gift horse in the mouth.
Could watch it in the parlor, but I like the comfort of my room.
Will be back in the morning. 

Never thought it would be THIS EARLY in the morning that I would be sitting in front of a computer.
   Woke close to 1:30 ...used the bathroom, checked to see if W.B.'s truck was in the driveway ( it wasn't) and laid there for an hour  and couldn't fall back to sleep. sigh!
I've had a sleeping problem for many years. Wake after falling asleep for 2,3,4,5 hours and feel like I have slept all night............UNTIL sometime during the day that is.  Then it was Nap Time.
Finally out of exasperation I tried taking over the counter sleeping aids and have been taking 2 Tylenol P.M. for maybe 4 years. Was up front with my doctor when I first started to see her a little over 3 years ago.
My doctor told me at my last visit that I should stop taking it, so  I have been trying to wean myself off them.
Began taking just one and nights that I have tried taking NONE...this happens.   INSOMNIA
Same old, same old. Last night was one of them. sigh!
Two thirty I climbed out of bed, picked up the new laptop and headed into the parlor.
Soooooo I have the ferrets awake with the lights on and Ginger came to find me and is laying on the couch beside me. I can hear her stomach gurgling. Wonder what's up with that.  Not a costly vet bill again, I hope.
She has had intestinal problems in the past and been hospitalized a few times for it.
This FL Flea Market ( not cheap) pup has cost me a bundle beginning two days after I bought her. sigh!

While I laid in bed trying to fall back to sleep I thought of more things that I need to do before I leave here.
Birthday cards for February and March, addresses, phone numbers of our doctors and family members.
Heartguard for Ginger, a small ziplock bag of Eucanuba to feed her until I get out to Petco to buy a bag.
For sure, I will think of more.
Going to go back to bed and try to fall back to sleep or I will pay the Piper later today.
Started to write ...pay the Piper tomorrow and realized THIS IS TOMORROW. I shit you not!

Goody, goody.....slept til 8 with just a few moments of awakeness.
Heard Logan getting ready to be sent to school.
W.B. was NOT here during the night. Thought he may be working today, so that was why he left last night. Like needed a shower and uniform maybe.
Even played with the idea that I might have some moments alone with Jill to talk.
NOT HAPPENING! It's 9:30 a.m. and I spotted him at the parlor computer in one of my trips out of my room.  Don't know how long he has been here, but the driveway was empty of his truck when I looked out again after 8.
He has it sooooooooooooo easy here.  sigh!
He acts like a kid. Maybe that's why Logan gets along with him so well.
I will state it here and now.
If she breaks off with him again whether she is sober or drunk when she tells him to leave or she will call the cops AND HAS CALLED THE COPS HERE........................I AM DONE!
I don't care that she gets over dramatic on what has transpired between them.
Hubby does not have a legit reason to HATE HIM like he does.......but neither of us need this turmoil in our lives. 
Yes...........as she says, unfornunately she lives with us and we see too much because of it, but enough is ENOUGH!    I shit you not!
She tells him to stay away.... IT'S GOING TO MEAN ...........FOR GOOD!
In our talk.......when we get to talk...I will tell her so!
Son Randy just called. Coming down from NH to put the stuff I have on my main computer ( which by the way is a HP) just looked. :0)
Don't know even if I want all that shit on the laptop.  Somehow.........I don't think I do.
Oh well.   It won't be a trip for nothing for him. He baked a turkey yesterday and has lots of meat on it still for a meal or two.


That's All Folks!

P.S. Your comments were welcomed and comforting. You are all angels.

D D Day 34 and What the Hell happened to me????

I don't know what happened to me yesterday.
Was it a Melt Down?
Was it a Panic Attack?
Was I having a Mini Nervous Breakdown?
Around 4:30 a.m. yesterday morning I woke with dread. 
Dreading the fact that it would be another day with W.B. in the picture and wishing it would be Jill that said bye bye before hubby exploded. .
IT WAS  Jill WITH W.B. that came through the door just as I was ready to post.
Right away I started to panic waiting for the axe to fall.
Hubby did not realize that he was with her and he was in her bedroom watching TV .
Tried to keep myself busy doing a little bit of this and a little bit of that.
Went near Jill's room which is across from the stove to use the kitchen sink and saw the Sunday Paper in there.
Then I saw W.B. with the crossword puzzle section.
I began to panic and went to my pocket to get money for a newspaper and to tell either one of them to get their ass down to the convenience store to buy hubby one so that he wouldn't know W.B. had the paper first.
W.B. glanced up at me when I stepped inside with money in hand and said to me " you want this"?
I told him I did and that Mike did not like anyone touching his paper before he read it.
He won't know except for some writing in it , he quipts.
I'm thinking....you have no idea buddy, you have no idea!
This is going to be the Straw That Broke The Camels Back.
Then I start back to my room and I started to breathe short ( loud to my ears ) rapid breaths and I couldn't stop.
No pain. Just fast short rapid breaths.
I dropped the money on the table and made  it into my room  just feet from hubby and hubby is looking at me and asking what was the matter.
Finally I could get out "Butchie wrote in your paper."
What he screams..What did you say. I can't understand you.
I kept trying to talk better and repeating myself and he keeps asking me things like...was I just running, why can't you talk better, on and on.
Come lay down, he finally says. Tell me what you are trying to say.
The floodgates burst at that moment and I got out" Butchie had your paper and wrote in it. He doesn't know that you like to have your paper first."
I bawled and numbly went to my side of the bed. Laid down and bawled almost silently some more.
Finally I said through tears " this isn't even my fight, why do I always have to be in the middle?'
He says, " tell him to go the fuck home then."
More tears. . Not loud sobs....just heartsick crying and when I would stop I'd hear a song on tv ( Lets Fall To Pieces Together" ) the tears rolled down my face again.
One thing after another brought tears as I laid there.
Wondering why things had to be that way. Wondering why I let him get to me like that.
I have hardened myself so much over the years to keep myself from breaking down crying when hubby was in an  UGLY MOOD.
Gone were the days that I cried myself to sleep after years of verbal abuse.
No more swollen eyes from crying when he would yell, " pack my Fuckin bags".
Back then when I would try to talk to him about it he would tell me I was too thick headed to understand any other kind of language except the strong language he used.  
Wondering why I didn't assert myself from the very beginning and cut him loose before I married him.
Wondering  if it will always be like this. Wondering, wondering and each thing would bring fresh tears rolling down my face.
I was not liking myself or what I have become.
There will always be some love in my heart for him.
There was no holding me like I yearned for. Yet he stopped his mouth and continued on cleaning his electric razor.
Heavy hearted I did get up after awhile and make more attempts at organizing stuff I have let go.
Yarn and crochet hooks, needles, pins, yarn, change, store receipts and the like all piled on and in my nightstand.
How many pieces of clothing and what should I take with me to FL and just what.
Pants of hubbys that need hemming.
What crochet and knitting needles and all the other things related to crocheting and knitting including patterns do I take with me.
What reading books. What dog stuff. What computer stuff. What,what,what.
There is a lot to do that needs to be done before I leave for FL and thinking of my son Jay contributed to what ever happened to me.
I've been upset before in the past and cried. Nothing like this ever has happened to me and I think I have been through alot before. Two divorces, raising 7 kids, then nine.  Kids accidents. Kids divorces and problems.  Any parent knows what all that is like.
I've had guns held on me by someone that was supposed to love me.
Almost lost son Randy at 8 weeks old with a strangulated double hernia that wasn't diagnosed for weeks and he was very weak before the emergency surgery.
Son Jay was hit in the eye with a wire bristle from a street cleaning machine and almsot lost the sight in that eye. Was loosing the vetrious jelly behind the cornea.
Son Larry being hit by an ice cream truck and my screams had the driver stop just before he would have ran over his head.
Son Terry was minutes away from ending his life after his wife left him when the police located him .
Son Randy going to prison.
Heartaches and heartbreaks.
It is right here that I think to myself. You still have your children, grands and greats.
Think of the suffering those parents had in Germany when their children were torn from them and worst.
Stop this shit and smarten the hell up. 
So with that, I will stop moaning and whining.

On my nightstand under the scarf I keep on it...... once I cleaned and could see the scarf...I found $160 that I had stuffed there. :0)
For what ever reason....I can't think of now, but I am prone to do that if I can't get discreetly into my little metal lock box to lock it away out of sight..

Randy is bringing me my new Dell laptop today. He picked it up yesterday and is downloading what has to be downloaded to begin using it.. if I'm not mistaken I should do some sort of backup on a disc on this desktop too. Maybe not.  Randy will know so I'm not going to sweat it before he comes.
     Patriots almost skunked the Dolphins.  Sorry baby brother. 
Would have called him and razzed him, but wasn't in the mood.
    Asked hubby if he wanted to go to the OutBack yesterday and he answered in the affirmative. :0)
As he was dressing in the nice lined pants and sweatshirt I bought him for cold weather he complained they were so heavy they made him feel like he was going to fall down.
He had left them on his chair after he wore them the last cold day. Grabbed them and put them on.
When we left he could have worn jeans...it was that warm. 
When we got home it was 44 degress at 5:30.  Nice! 
Fog was not so much ...........nice. I shit you not!
Going in the daylight in the fog wasn't too bad....coming home in the dark....was.
Took him to a yard display on the way home that I have admired this Christmas Season a few streets and turns off our beaten path.  The home owners had begun to take it down.
He did say it was pretty, but I don't know how much he could really see. 
His field of vision is very limited.
These are pictures I took the night before when Tracie and I went out.

Click to enlarge.

The deer were put away last night.

    On the way to eat he began again about what or why I had behaved the way I did  and couldn't talk.
Tried to explain myself as to what transpired and how. 
He started to get loud and said he would never take the newspaper out of the newspaper box and go into someone elses house and read it .  Went on about W.B. not having a effin brain in his head.
Brought up him feeding the dogs at the table.  ( I and Jill haven't caught him doing it since he has been warned.) He HAS seen him he says.   Anxiety started to build in me. He did drop it and remain quiet on that issue the rest of the drive. 
He did give me a few starts when he would say something like... 'You missed your turn."
No that was a convenience /package store I told him.
Must admit I touched my brakes a few times more than I needed to on the way home.
Get blinded by oncoming cars and.................
Neither of us realized how late it was when we started out.
Great meal. Great service from Lydia. We both felt full after the Coconut Shrimp appetizer and the bread and salad.  Did manage to eat the steak and baked potatos.
I did not eat breakfast.  Had black coffee and read blogs.
 Nibbled on a package of cream cheese and chive filled crackers after 12 .
Think six come in a package. That was lunch/brunch.
Once home ( Logan was back home) school tomorrrow,( Jill and W.B. were missing) hubby undressed , put his pj bottom on and dozed off. 
   DIL Kim IM'd me.  Told her what went down with me today. She said it sounded like an anxiety attack.
Told me the good news first. Son Jay's weight was down to 267.That's 42 pounds of fluid out of him.:0)
When she went to visit him he asked her if she was taking him home.
She reminded him of what the doctor said.
He told her she could leave.
She told him she would leave after he ate as he had told her he wasn't going to eat.
She left and did not plan to go see him that night after those words were spoken to her.
He called her and told her she didn't need to come see him. A nurse took him outside for fresh air.
Told her it would probably be evening before he was discharged Monday and he didn't know where he was going. She told him to come home and think about it.  sigh!
If he goes to live with the homeless he will die. MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She told me he wasn't going anywhere.!!!!!!!!!!!!

   Jill and W.B . were not home when we returned.  There were alot of cars at the Moose when we drove by, but I didn't figure they would be there.
When we left she was making Sheppards Pie and fresh cormeal muffins. Not from a package. :0)
Kind of thought she would be staying in. Thought wrong....so what's new. NOTHING!
I just keep hoping.
Folding one load of  laundry and making them a meal must have made her mouth water for a drink.
Yeah, I'm being veciosious.
   They came home at 7:30... that's an improvement.
Hubby asked who came in. Told him Butch and Jill.  Waited for the onslaught...............he said, "what's he doing here. He's suppose to go home at night."
He did say a few weeks earlier that he didn't want him here overnight.
Don't know if he verbalized it to her..........or him.............but he did to me. sigh!
That I can understand.
I never wanted W.B. to get too cozy here.

Noticed when I showered that the lower part of my legs are swelling.
Only wear diabetic socks and they still leave imprints. sigh!
This was the one and only reason why I started to see a doctor three years ago.
While waiting for my first appointment I thought then about asking for Chantix when I went and I did. :0)
I take a pill for the excess water....seem to pee OFTENER than I would like to and still I have swelling.
Last visit the doctor didn't even look at my legs. When she does she doesn't notice it anymore. sigh!

Taken by me looking down at my feet.

Ugly hammer toe..Not a pretty sight.  Haven't shaved my legs since???????

Hubby woke in a good mood.

 Put his hand over mine and we laid there an extra minute before getting up. :0)

That little affection was appreciated.

Much to do today. Town Hall to Notary.

Load number one of laundry is doing it's thing.

Heard Jill get Logan off to school this morning and she is holded up in her room.

Sleeping? watching TV??

W.B.'s truck was in the driveway when I checked on Logan at 9:30 p.m. last night.

Logan was watching Tv and Nana told him the hour and we wished each other Sweet Dreams. :0)

Didn't bother to peek out front later.

The only remments of the meal Jill was making when I left for the OutBack yesterday was 2 cornmeal muffins.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I can safely assume that the big casserole dish of Sheppards Pie was taken to alkies DD and Tom's apartment to share by the four of them for their supper meal.

I do like Sheppards Pie...no leftovers. :0(

If hubby knew he was feeding those two alkies he would blow a fuse.

In the past five years they have eaten HERE and been around here more than hubby would have liked.

Ditto for me too! I shit you not!

The first three years they were like fixtures. Cookouts, parties, Holidays,suppers every so often.

Even Jill's oldest son Ryan wasn't happy about it and showed his distain.. 

My DIL Kim and son Jay would go home when they showed up.

Jill must have discouraged them coming so often or they got the message through people's actions because they don't come around often now and I think they only used the pool twice this summer.

The first three years they were hanging around the pool, drinking, swimming and in general enjoying themselves and the snacks.

Tom ...in and out to get ice and make fresh drinks. Jill's company. sigh

Bet they took their new bottle of rum with them and BET Tom helped them drink it.:0)

He likes his drinks STRONG. Especially when someone else paid for the bottle of booze.

 Mooching looser!

Dee Dee drinks vodka.

Hubby does have a good reason for some of his gripes.

When and IF he finds out the Jones' were fed with his dollar he won't be happy and I will be the recipient of his anger. sigh!!!!!!!

Last night he asked for a cornmeal muffin and after I handed it to him he asked me why I wasn't eating one too.

Told him I wasn't hungry when in reality I KNEW that the two I saw with my eyes were the ONLY TWO in the house.  Had not put two and two together about where the rest of the muffins were, but my inner self KNEW!

He knows we usually have to throw one or two away from a batch Jill makes up that go stale.

Hoping after he eats the second muffin he doesn't ask for more.

ONE CAN DREAM CAN'T THEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's All Folks!

D D Day 33 the blahs and waiting for the AXE TO FALL

Jill and the W.B. spent the day together yesterday..........where I have no idea.
He was here a few hours in the morning. Left. Then she showered and dressed.
Next thing I saw when I looked out the front window was his truck here and her car gone.

Tracie called me sometime before Jill took off and I finally agreed at her insistance to got to Michaels Craft Store and Khols with her. She told me to call her when I was ready.  sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Bad me....noticed the ferrets needed a good cleaning and feeding, plus playtime out of their cage that has been lacking.
I got on a self imposed Guilt Trip and let them run while I cleaned their cage.
The three of them went Wild running everywhere and getting into everything and knocking stuff over or down.  I shit you not!
After a half hour of cleaning their cage, picking up after them and keeping a keen eye out for them chewing on wires.............. . I HAD ENOUGH!    I shit you not!
Then it was putter here there and everywhere making half assed attempts at finding a place to put things.
Son Randy came from NH with the leftovers from his PuPu Platter ( which was and always is CONSIDERABLE).
I had looked online and saw to my dismay that the Sony VAIO laptop computer I have had my eye on had went up $50. :0(
Of course I heard from him that I should have asked him to pick it up for me.
Yes, I probably should have.....I just don't like asking anyone for anything.
I told him that I been telling Jill that I needed to get to Best Buy and so far she hadn't offered to take me to NH.  Told him that I didn't support him. I supported her.  My message was received.
Still he offered again  and I took him up on it.
Mistake????????????????????????????????
First he said he would see if he could get it for the $599.99 price. Would call me on  my cell if I was out with Tracie. ( Think this is my third incoming call in the past twelve years of carrying a cell phone.
I always leave it off unless instructed to leave it on. ;0)
Call 1. Sony is not a good company. Toshiba is better. Will look at what they have in that price limit.
 That's what I have only a higher priced model than what you need.
Call 2.  Don't like Best Buy's policy. $15 restocking if reurned. Fifteen days to return.
Going to Walmart and Radio Shack to see if they have a better deal.
Walmart you can exchange within 30 days and no restocking charge.
Call 3. At Radio Shack and they have a Dell for $510. Asked about the weight and if same features .
Giggabytes and all that shit... Don't worry..cheap enough to add more. sigh!!!!!!
They will have it here tomorrow and I will bring it to you.
There was more ( so much more ) conversation in these phone calls ) and it always wears me out.( or he wears me down). sigh!
Fine, BUY IT! 
Don't know what the Hell I am getting or what I'm getting into.  I shit you not!
The son in FL said they are all made in another country when I last spoke to him.
He use to design computers and invented ? for the companies he has worked for.
Forget what fancy title he once held that allowed him to retire at age fourty.
The answer to that phrase " Money is the root of all evil"  is.......Love of money is the root of all evil.
He was willing to be a stay at home dad and work from home. DIL Deb pursued her careers and has been successful in all her chosen fields. RN, then took up hair dressing and owned her own salon, then Real Estate. All the while doing her RN work.
Which is where she is now only in a much less challenging position in the nursing field with better pay and a new car, the insurance and gas included and her hours visiting nursing homes to dress leg wounds that don't heal well are much less than fourty hours a week. :0)
She makes her own schedule.  Deb has always been a GO GETTER! 
While my son my have been successful ....................and I applaud him for all his accomplishments...none of my sons are prize packages.  Some are very hard workers. Some............
Let's just say that no one is perfect and I love them all.  Just wouldn't have married them.
They probably wouldn't have chosen me as their mother either. ;0)

After much dilly dallying I called Tracie. Then showered. Then helped her shovel her parents driveway once she showed up. There was just some cleaning up to do and with two working at it the job was done much faster. Sure she gave me Hell for crossing the street to grab a shovel, but I didn't let that stop me. :0)
Michaels Craft Store !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What can I say about Michaels Craft Store.
THE SALES ON CHRISTMAS ITEMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!  I need to take some pictures of my purchases. There are many. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
If hubby thought my $3 Polar Bear was a waste of money..............................that may be why I left some in Tracie's car for a time he is incapacitated or in the shower.
More lights at $3 something a box....we did need them....if  I say so myself. ;0)
If I can get my daughter to take this shit out of the attic next year it will be INDOOR EYE CANDY!
If I still have a home of my own that is! 

Khols ...what can I say about Khols..............SALES!!!!!!!! I shit you not!
Bought a few toys on sale for needy kids next year.  I'm real pleased with the wooden train purchase... made of blocks to take apart and put together.
Baby footed flannel jammas to put away.  :0) They are adorable prints.
I bought hubby a nice dressy winter cap in black that covers his ears and a nice black scarf to keep his neck warm. :0)
Know I am going to get some guff about those items. :0(
Just call me a glutton for punisment.
I spent $166 and my sales slip tells me I saved over $300. 
Isn't it horrid......the mark up on things?  :0(
Where to store all this shit ( good shit ) away is preying on my euphoria........................
Tight quarters getting even tighter. sigh!
If you haven't figured it out yet....I spend money when I am depressed.  That may be one reason I try not to go out the door.

Stopped to have pizza before we came home.
Called hubby to let him know where I was and what he would like me to bring him.
Made the BIG MISTAKE of asking him if Jill and W.B. were home.
He was here this morning ,  HE YELLED into my cell phone. 
When I told him he was after work this morning he went off on a tirade and said he never wanted him to set foot in here again.
Trying to reason with him ...........got me hung up on.  sigh!
There was very little in the way of words spoken once I got in the door and he never asked for food.
After eleven I crawled into bed and he did kiss me goodnight. :0)
An improvement over the old days.....................he would not kiss me goodnight :0( when he had a Hair Across His Ass.  I shit you not!

It's after ten. The lost is still lost. Dreading waiting for the AXE TO FALL when Jill comes home.
DIL Kim IM'd me earlier. Son Jay not quite as nasty to her.
His weight is down to 273.  Imagine...just imagine all that fluid in him pressing on his heart.
309 and now 273.
Doctor told him yesterday that he can't go home until an oxygen machine is in the house. NO PORTABLE.
He needs the BIG MACHINE and may never be able to go portable.
She says he still doesn't get it. sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I saw electronic cigarette sales people in the middle of the MALL floor the other day.
Never had heard of such a thing and it was explained to me by a nice lady.
$150 to $300 expense.  Read up on it and while it doesn't have all the crap cigarettes do....it still is smoking even if there is no lit end on it.
DIL Kim told me to save my money.  If it was good for him, I would buy it. sigh!
I know he looked forward to seeing his grandkids in Arkansas and that has him upset.
Will check out prices of those computer cameras when I am out near a store that sells them.
Know that Amber isn't financially well off......wait a minute........................she doesn't own a computer.
Where was my head. SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!
DIL Kim is laid off.   sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
The more I write............... the more I get depressed.

One bright thing.........the picture Tracie bought for my diningroom is up.
OutBack today ??????????????????? Maybe?????????????????

She/They?????????? just came in the front door.

That's All Folks!