My love life has improved immensely. Ed has learned just what I will and WILL NOT tolerate in a man and wants to keep me in his life. :0)
The situation at home puts me on a huge guilt trip. Knowing that I have allowed some in my family to feed at the trough and not contribute as thing to their care eats away at me. I see no end to it. Others see it differently.
Daughter Jill will be unemployable for at least six months. Twenty two year old g son Gil sits around most days playing Xbox and helps her when asked to lift Gavin up into his highchair or crib for her.
The Whine Bucket also is of help to her assisting with Gavin, aiding and abetting her drinking problem...while I foot the bill for his eats at the house...and so on and on it goes.
I pay everyone to live in my house. No one contributes a cent. I'm a sick puppy and I know it!
I've even thought that ...if the house burns down...that would be the answer to my problems.
Like I said...I'm a sick puppy. I shit you not!
So...while I should be RIDING HIGH, the situation at home weighs heavily on my mind. Apparently not enough to do anything about it though. Right away I think, where could my daughter go and hit a Road Block. She's now 51 and after thirteen years of living with me with an income of less than 4k a year.....I hit a stone wall. Then I think...if it were just her, I could live with it. I did not buy into her son moving back in at age 20 with a drug problem that has robbed me plenty, nor do I want her loser boyfriend there. When I asked her what he has contributed since he came back, her answer was...he plowed the driveway. My thoughts, big efffin deal! I don't live there anymore, I just visit there occasionally and pay the bills!
Ed tells me that i am more tolerant than he is. That's much nicer to hear than ...I am a sap.
(((hugs)))
That's All Folks!
I AM WOMAN! Hear me ROAR! February 2012
WARNING !! Not for those with a short attention span. ; 0 )
