D D I'll try to make this

  short .....I don't know about SWEET ;0)

I let Jill know how disparaged I was before I left for my chiro appt.
There were tears of futility on both our parts. She isn't opening up fully on what she knows about her son Gil's addiction, BUT she did say he needs a 90 day program and not a 30 day program.  sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I CAN NOT see myself paying for this.  That's THE WAY IT IS!
I have other kids and grands that RESENT what I have done for her and her sons going all the way back to 1982 after her first marriage broke up and she and Ryan age 30 now, moved in for the next 6,7 years.
Then......... again twelve years ago with three sons and here she remains, not helping herself out.
I FULLY understand where they are coming from.
She can Candy Coat it to them all she wants about being here to help us out. THEY are not buying it!

Yesterday I drove myself to Friends Lumbar in NH ...oh boy,oh joy. ;0)  Looked at all their kitchen displays. Drooled over most of them ;0)  Twenty years makes a HUGE DIFFERENCE in designs and styles WOW!   Took a brochure, drove myself right next door to McDonalds where I had passed the sign 2 Bacon Cheeseburgers for $3.33 , went through the drive thru , parked, shut the motor off and picked up my book and got LOST for awhile. ;0)  It was my intention to go to a one of a kind pizza specialty place a few miles from there and order a 1 person size pizza ( had it once ) and want that taste again. Convenience and HUNGER won out.  A super Walmart was right across the street....I had no desire to buy anything to ADD TO MY SHIT. My RX's are at a local Walmart...that's ALL I NEED at THIS TIME.
Came home at 2 p.m. to find Jill,Gil and Butch trying to make headway in the livingroom. :0)
While it isn't where it should be ...it is a hellofalot better than it was. Butch had put together the small student computer chair and we looked online for just the right sized computer table for that bedroom. Handed him $120. $100 for the table we saw at Walmart online, plus extra to cover the sales tax and he and Gil took off while Jill continued to try to make headway.  I got involved myself. 
Back they come EMPTY HANDED. NOT IN STOCK!  Always a Fly in the Ointment. sighhhhhhh

TODAY....is a NEW DAY!  Have measurements, MUST LOOK.

Okay . so this isn't going to be Short and SWEET. Sue me for false advertizing ;0)
When the WB left here this morning ( yeah...he's sleeping here since he slipped that ring on her finger) in passing he said he was off to 'live his other life."  When I inquired of Jill why he sounded BENT she filled MY EARS.  :0(  Promised his daughter Alex that he would take her to Build a Bear today. It's not like he hasn't taken her there a half dozen times or more. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, it's what she wants to do and her mother and future step father have MONEY and they take her here there and everywhere, even to Jamaica next month and he feels he has to do something with her to prove he loves her???? just as much as they do????  Letting her play with her Christmas presents while he paints his bedroom, etc. ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH!  ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He asked her what she wanted to do and that is what she wanted to do. HE CAN NEVER JUST STAY AT HIS PLACE WITH HER, NEVER!
SHE GETS TOO BORED!
TOMORROW....it's off to American Girl Doll to buy matching outfits for her and her doll. 
While that sounds ALL WELL AND GOOD....His landlord keeps asking him for this months rent and HE DOESN'T HAVE IT!
Where the efff is this man/boys head???????
I RE-ITERATED to Jill...he is not moving in here , engaged, married or otherwise.
She accepts that....or so she says. She can not talk to him and make him see reason about him trying to keep up with THE JONES'. THEY ( mother of his child and her fiance ) HAVE MONEY....U DO NOT!
Apparently they used their paychecks more wisely and are now to where they can indulge in the finer things in life. PLAYING KENO ( $50 at a time) buying scratch lottery scratch tickets and drinking at the Moose and dining out ( like you are a banker ) the largest cut of prime rib, etc. isn't condusive to having money to even pay the rent on time; has been his lifestyle. I'd like to go out to eat a prime rib myself!
Then I think...I can dine out twice with that money INSTEAD OF ONCE!

Daughter Michelle came for a few hours last night to spend quality time with her dad. :0)
Tracie had called me earlier and I told her I did not want to go out shopping with her. We left it with her saying she might stop by later. She didn't.  Michelle was stopping at McDonalds to indulge her craving of a long time ( a Big Mac ) and I asked her to get that deal I had. One for dad and one for Gil.
 Mikey LIKED IT!!!!! ;0)
Nuked myself leftover American Chop Suey and read the newspaper at the table without interruptions.:0)

Again...son Randy was gone by the time I got back home.  Didn't do much of anything that I can see.
Plans changed for son Michael to come do more electric work  This p.m. ??? His kids won't need these Columbia winter coats, the gloves and hats if he waits much longer. SPRING arrives March 21st/22.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  

  ..................and my sitting here at my laptop isn't going to get me anywhere soon on the load of work before me. I shit you not!


UPDATE:  
I've been plugging away in my kitchen all afternoon. making decisions on what needed TO GO and what I wanted to keep of old silverware and dishes and mugs. Arranging and re-arranging. sighhhhhhhhhh
Jill and Gil had work today. A wedding in Beverly,MA ...one of the many towns I lived in in my youth.
They left at two. Son Randy came somewhere around noon to be of help to son Michael when he came to do some wiring. He's more of a HINDRANCE to Michael. :0(  Lots of loud voices back and forth on what's legal by code and what's not and Randy is NOT the electrician. MICHAEL IS!  Michael came with his wife Sally and two kids.  Someone handed them their presents from me and until I asked...I NEVER HEARD A BOO.  Guess they like their coats. When asked...they said they do. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  Last new coats bought for them were two years ago...by me.  James is in the 10th grade now. Got his highschool ring already. WOW...liked I've said, time is flying by.
Tracie called during all this and i declined to go shopping and out to eat today. THINGS TO DO! She said she'd stop by later. eek...did that just slip out of me.
When I asked what she did last night she told me she went to see an old elderly friend.   I hope she visits him/her more. Did I just say that ;0) ?
   DIL Kim came just before Randy and visited a short while. :0)  I had something for her to hand deliver to a mutual friend of ours.
Four twenty comes and everyone has LEFT. :0)
Ding dong........I get up to answer the door and it's my old neighbor Mary. The one that drives all over Hells Creation every day and can hardly turn around in her house. What she is living in is a detrement to her well being from the way she describes it. Two bedrooms she can't even enter. From the front doorway in... there is only a narrow path. When she kept telling me that my house is NOT CLUTTERED I knew then and there she has a problem. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  I haven't been to her house in years. We stopped being friends before the year 1984 and it was only maybe six years ago that I went out of my way to go into her doll house shop , browse around and chat.  After that hubby and I visited her husband when he was in a rehab, went to his funeral and that was pretty much that.
We were friends...never close ( even if she and her hubby stood up for hubby and I when we married. )
She is amazingly like my daughter Cheryl in that you can't so much as  get a word in edgewise. sighhhhhh
Me,me,me, me.  I,I,I,I.
Now she drops in OUT OF THE BLUE, asks how hubby and I are, relates a few things ....like...she got kicked out of the Elks Bingo FOR GOOD. Told a couple complaining to shut the fuck up and soon had two policemen standing behind her asking her to leave quietly. Mary always had a MOUTH ON HER, BUT Hell, what happened to Freedom of Speech????   
I thought her speech sounded funny and she opened her mouth. Every other front top tooth was broken down almost to the gum. OMG! Talk about snaggle tooth. She gives it NEW MEANING. Was eating hard candy and noticed some of the candy wasn't chewable.  OMG. OMG. OMG. 
Almost as suddenly as she came, it was time to go.   Told her she was like a butterfly. Can't sit still long.
Stop by again, I said and she said " I will. "
    It's five twenty. Who will be through that front door next????? 
Me thinks me knows. You too! No Tracie two nights in a row would be some kind of miracle. I shit you not!



That's All Folks!

D D THIS is what I'm up against

He;s comfortable. Leave him the fuck alone!

 View 2 ..I've hogged the covers. ????

View 3  How is this possible ? I'm not in the efffin bed.

Viewc4

. See what I do with my covers when I manage to get my ass out of bed,  

On top of that he complains about being cold all day long and at night he removes his pj;s saying that they were soaked with sweat. One...CAN'T WIN! I shit you not!

My Kohls purchases . Just what everyone needs ;0) 

You call it what it is....a efffinb SHIT HOUSE is what I call it!

Would you feel like getting out of bed? 

I feel like taking a match to it! 

Instead.....I'll begin by measuring out that area in the diningroom and go see what I can get for cabinets to match the others that will go up high on the wall there and NOT be so low that you will hit your head on them when you rise from a kitchen chair.   AFTER I go to the chiropractor at 11:55.

Maybe Jill will find places in THAT ROOM for some of her sons STUFF...maybe,maybe.

What suggestions would you have for moi! naw,naw ...sticking it up my ass isn't an option! ;0)

No time to chat, rant and rave.

That's All Today Folks!

D D I'm feeling a little playful this a.m.

Got a little more sleep and hubby is still asleep at 8:38 a/m.
Will post pics of him taken last night and this morning. I'm a DEVIL! ;0)
 Did have some pain during the night. Mostly in my right arm and some burning in my neck. Hubby woke around 2:30 a.m. to pee, which took him forever to finish and get back into bed. Gave him his oxy and rolled over after close to ten minutes of fidgeting and moaning. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  Woke a few times after 6 a.m. hearing Logan shower and Jill made him pancakes before he wen to school. Managed to fall back to sleep until 7:30. :0)
    Tracie and I went out for a few hours last night, between 6 and 8. Michelle called earlier to say she was coming to sit with dad , sooooooooo as it ended up, dad was in good company. Jill had gone grocery shopping and she was making two different dishes when I left. Linguine with clam sauce and Chicken with brocolli and ziiti in an alfredo sauce. Butch was chowing down on the raspberry turnovers while relating to me he had the hungry horrors looking at the food in the pans. Michelle loves linguine with white clam sauce so she was delighted that she HIT IT RIGHT on the day to come over. :0)

I'm going to be skipping around here, Let's go back to yesterday morning before I went to the chiropractor.
Hubby handed me the tv remote to go get exchanged for a new one while I was out and about. Lowering and raising the audio has become a stressful feat. IT CAN BE DONE though.
Waited in line for my new remote, Got it home and it doesn't work AT ALL. I shit you not! :0(
    My old boss Sandy adjusted me ....yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :0)  Had said to hubby before I left that the new associated Lou wasn't hacking it with me. Never have I had a problem with getting adjusted by an associate.  Sandy sprang this on me. Lou QUIT! Sent him a text message telling him HE QUIT. Now how professional is that of a chiropractor????  LMAO He was employed all of maybe a month.
When I worked there we had front desk help persons quit in a day. One went to lunch and never came back. These persons must have thought that all a chiropractic assistant did was answer the phones and make appointments. NOT!!!!! Sheesh, just noticed I forgot to use the darker type this morning.
Lou won't be missed by moi. He couldn't adjust my neck. Tried to....and made things worst. sighhhhhhh
   From the chiro, i went to the cable company and from there to WallyWorld. headed straight to the pharmacy only to find out that my doctor hasn't renewed my meds. This every 3 month thing is one BIG PAIN IN THE ASS and when I got back home I LET THE ANSWERING MACHINE KNOW IT. I shit you not! Call came later that my meds have been called in. SRY for your inconvenience. Wasn't the front desk persons fault.  sighhhhhhhhhh
My patience is worn thin. That's the word I'm working on for 2012. Patience. So far... I've FAILED!
Shpped while I was there. :0) Picked myself up a calendar for 2012.A Maxine calendar.
January...she says. I'm filled with optimism for the NEW YEAR...I really need to find out what's in this PUNCH.
The picture depics her holding a glass and twirling her dog at the punch bowl table. :0)

Hubby is awake. 9:38 a.m.  Can't complain about that. ;0)
he stands up from his potty and says, "Help me. I can't move." He's totally nude. Twice during the night he took his t shirt off and tossed it on the floor saying that it was drenched . His pullup was around his ankles and he couldn't reach to pull it up. sighhhhhhhh
I painfully weight bear on my rt leg and make my way to him saying, do you think the two of us will be able to share a room in a rest home, If I was horse I fear I'd be sent to the glue factory. :0(
Better days are coming.....RIGHT????????????????????????????????????

Guess what I ordered to eat at a restaurant last night. Chicken, brocolli, ziti in a alfredo sauce and it was right here at home to partake of. Pulled out my book and tried to read over Tracie's chatter and managed to from time to time. HEY, RUDE OR NOT!  She is no better than hubby was when we dined out. I read a book with him too and he even talked LESS THAN TRACIE! ;0)

Tracie had a few returns at Kohls. I had nothing in mind to buy. :0: A FIRST!  Did manage to put two items in my cart for a total of $9.11.  Pics to follow when I download them before I post. 80% off. WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Don't ask me if I needed them. ;0(
Son randy came while I was out and left before i came home. Put the cable wire up through the floor of THAT ROOM for the grandsons TV. It was at this time Jill asked him about what was needed to use a computer in that room and told him I had given Logan my IMAC. Guess that didn't set well with him. He has one of his own, bought just a month maybe before he talked me into this one. WTF! he called me later....about the IMAC.... didn't I know that I could buy a program like i had in my HP and have it installed with my old data.  HELL NO....I DIDN'T!
Am I going to tell Logan that he can't have the IMAC now? HELL,NO! 
I'm using my laptop and am very happy with it. I SHIT YOU NOT!
When this goessssssssssssssssssssss I'll get another LAPTOP. Case Closed!
It does what I want it to do. MORE isn't always BETTER!
I'm more pissed off at myself that I let my son talk me into purchasing this IMAC than anything else. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Hubby took out some of his SAVED stuff and went down Memory Lane with daughter Michelle. Old paperwork such as the land purchase in NH he and her mother made when they were married. She chuckled to see written out.... Michael J. and Margaret T. B-----more so than the $350 sum total of that land that her brother has built a home on. It served us well when we camped on it with the kids. Most properties were woods and cottages back in 61.
Cards the grands made him when they were younger. :0)

Jill went back to bed after Logan left for school at 6:55 and she still isn't stirring. Gil is sleeping in THAT ROOM. Only hubby and I are awake and with seeing no energy around me...I say WTF and stay un=motivated.
I know that Jill is still not feeling herself since that nose bleed and the many meds she has to take now, BUT!  It doesn't help my mood. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
For my own good, I need to rise up off my ass and work some of these kinks out hopefully. BBL

Eleven fourty five finds that playfulness in me GONE SOUTH.
Randy came and headed straight to my Mac asking for my ID. YOU KNOW WHAT???I don'[t remember what I chose nor do I give a flying F. Asked him what that had to do with doing finishing touches in areas he has worked on.
It was about this time that Hubby decided to get into it again with me over the new remote not allowing us to turn the volume up and down because Gil had programmed the other remote for when we wanted to watch a DVD.
Hubby and I went head to head (verbally ) on that issue. Me claiming the other remote has nothing to do with the volume on this new remote. Him INSISTING that IT DID. Randy made a call to the cable company and once she accepted the fact that NOT ALL their remotes have Infinity written in white or black at the bottom of the thing ( ours was RED) she asked what tv we had, Samsung. Found the codes for Samsung tv's had Randy push this button down, do this and enter a five digit code she gave him. WALLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All during this call hubby was running off in the mouth like he and only he knew the probem ( the other remote ) and I was going head to head with him. Once he saw the results up on our tv screen, he still muttered he was correct and we were wrong
I wanted to stick that DVD remote UP HIS ASS. I shit you not! Instead I swallowed my meds, followed by a Zoloft.
What the fuck is Patience? It alludes moi!
Much more of this shit today....I'm driving off to ANYWHERE. One idea hit me. Take a book or two and go park by one of our rivers.
Make that 2 books, 2 Tabs, a pillow and a throw. Hubby DOES NOT know when to let go of an idea. :0( Keeps running his mouth and THAT in itself drives me insane. I need to get away when this happens again. sighhhhhhhhhh
I was shaking! Going to go try to lie down  try to calm down before I do anything rash.
BBL to hopefully post pics and tell you I am okay with the world.  Chip, cherrio and all that crap.
MAYBE my word for 2012 should have been " RESTRAINT." ;0)
   Except for going up to the town hall to leave that paper for needed sign off signatures, Randy HAS SPLIT for the day/.  :0)  He says that he and son Michael will be here tomorrow. He will work at home on my doll crib today he says.  FINE by me. I shit you not!

Strapped a few hot packs on the worst areas and managed to sleep a few hours. Unfortunately. nothing got done during those two hours. :0(  IT was all here before me. sighhhhhhhhhhh
At some point I stepped into THAT ROOM and moved beds and bureaus this way and THAT. Kept trying to see how we could utilize the space in there. Still haven't. sighhhhhhhhh
I want the shit out of my parlor so that I can begin to see a bare floor so i can call someone to install a hardwood floor. After that I will think of furniture. NOT BEFORE!
Got so frustrated trying to figure out in my minds eye what was needed for organization of the grandsons host of games, crafts,collectables, bric a brac, odds and ends that mean something only to tem ;0) and a host of other things that I took a shower and drove myself up to KMart .
Meantime Jill and Butch came back from where ever they had been and seen what I had done. Got a call asking me where I put the stuff that went under the bureaus and beds.
Came home to see that cabinet I had put in the diningroom cleaned out and in THAT ROOM. I've been bitching about that. I have to clean up the area where they dumped everything of mine now.
She ( Jill ) must have lit a match under Butchs; ass. He was putting the Pack n Play together. I'd been griping about that too. Now I just have to make a trip to Burlington Coat Factory where I purchased it to see where the two same length pipes that were left over go. Meantime it looks safe enough for Gavin to nap in when he's here...if any of us will lay him down.  :0)

Come 8:30 p.m. the ex SIL from hell called Logan as he has the three or four previous nights since he has been back in MS. NEVER has he called him this frequently in the past.  I did not like some of what I heard and went to Jill to inquire. It seems as though he is telling Logan that he doesn't want him to go to a tech school. He will never get anywhere in life. Uncle Michael is JUST an electrician and Uncle Sonny sells real estate.  For his fucking info... Uncle Sonny became a computer science ? Earned enough to retire at age fourty. Continues to work ( self employed ) in the computer field reprramming systems in buisnesses, etc, . went to real estate school to learn what he could about the business so that he would know the ins and outs of buying and selling . has made plenty and lost plenty in the stock market and has only sold ONE HOUSE to a friend on the Gulf of Mexico.
He goes to the meetings once a week to keep on top of things. It's a learning experience and gets him out and involved.
His wife became a nurse, then went to hair dresser school and opened her own shop and worked both jobs. She also went to real estate school and dabbled in it.
They paid CASH for their half a mil house and still have a tidy retirement amount.
Can you tell that I am pissed off.
He fills Logan's head with so much bull shit.
Why doesn't he get his son to a dentist. He grinds his teeth so bad at night . No small wonder with all the stress put on him. sigh
Jill found out that there is NO DENTAL COVERAGE through the plan her ex's wife carries through work.
What  a winner. Quits a high paying job with great insurance coverage just because she wanted to tag along after THE DEVIL to S.Korea and China, plus run off to MS when ever she wanted to ...to get laid.
Bottom line...I paid and won't get a cent back. Didn't think I would, so I didn't set myself up for a fall.
That chapter is over !!!

It's going on 9:30 p.m. I'm beat! 
Twice today the damned beagle managed to sneak behind me when I was at the front door and TAKE OFF. Oh MY NERVES, MT NERVES.... Gil and Logan caught him the first time. Gil and Butch the second time. Both times he almost got hit. : :0( He RUNS into the street, darts and turns ...never looking at where he he going. Just wants to RUN FREE and it's going to get him killed. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
He will not answer to your commands or his name.

I best get my pj's on and hit the hay. Lots on my plate to do tomorrow. My mind will be running amok as to where to start as I try to fall asleep. from the looks of it...there is no right place to begin and no end in sight.
I need to go to look at kitchen cabinets like mine and see what I can find to have installed on my diningroom wall. That would be a good place to start. Think Friends Lumbar in NH is where we purchased the ones in the kitchen in 93? Somewhere around that year.
My how time flies. TICK TICK TICK

You won't believe this! I can't find my camera. It must be under the pile of shit I piled on the kitchen table. So much for posting those pictures i promised at the beginning. If I do manage to locate it, I'll take some shots of the latest MESS. You won't believe it. I shit you not!




That's All Folks!

D D New Day begins

with more of the same shit. Thought I'd get a few moments of quiet time after I managed to get my aching body off the bed. The dogs wanted out. Lady commenced to her yip, yip, yipping at whatever out there and hubby woke. Between his bitching and complaining that he is cold or freezing he is CONSTANTLY moaning. If there was only a way to get sound added to these blogs.....OH IF EVER!
Ihe noises emitting from hubby arn't all moans and groans...  he also is constantly making ah ha sounds. Some ah has or uh huhs are more audible than others. It must be a freakin habit he has picked up in his later years. :0( Just heard a jeezus Christ coming from him.
Let me get up off my ass and turn the tv on and try to drown out this annoying shit!
What you say! Be glad I have him.  Maybe if I had some unbroken sleep free of pain, well just maybe I could be more humane and less a bitch.
With the other stress in my life I fully wear the title of BITCH!  Not proudly, but none the less, if I wasn't always a bitch, I am now!
Hubby saved me from getting up and turned the tv on. Volume is grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ( above what my ears find comfortable ) and hubby is now talking to the tv. Stopped long enough from his commenting to anchors giving the news to say he needs his second cup of coffee, made movements to get up and into his nightstand all the while making louder noises, dropped something and I hear an even louder. "oh shit." I'll BB
Coffee is served, space heater is turned on, new box of Lorna Doone cookies brought to his bedside and he did give me a thank you. :0) 
Mentally I'm chastizing myself.  IT IS WHAT IT IS!
That said,,,,I need to think beyond this hour to getting my ass showered and to the chiropractor for eleven fifteen.  Ah, but first Ill make and drink my second cup of coffee, BRB

I have a renewed  respect for Butchie, aka W.B.   It may only last a short time though.
He and his roofer friend spent at least 8 hours , two days in a row in frigid temps working up on my roof.  Cold to the bone weather. I shit you not!  27 is the expected high today and it's below 10 this morning. In the p.m. they will get back up there with a Heat Gun to heat together the overlapping rubber seams.  Times like this...I'm glad I wasn't born a male. I shit you not!
My daughter Jill , except for one setback seems to be working more with Butch than against him that has been her way.  I know in my heart that if she didn't have the "safety net" that I have provided her for more than ten years, she wouldn't have been so one sided and worked their issues out instead of things being a " One Way Street." She has pushed him to the limit many times and from now on...IF I SEE INJUSTICE....she will hear it from me. DON"T LIKE IT???? MOVE OUT!
I am going to take that man/boy aside and tell him if he continues to take her to bars he deserves everything he gets.  You get her drunk ...YOU SUFFER!

Son Randy called to apologize last night....over and over. He is just trying to rectify the wrong he did in talking me into hiring that asshole contracter and make things right, he says. He feels it's his responsibilty and he feels bad enough as it is and then Butch talks to him like he's some snot nosed kid that doesn't know what he is doing and blah,blah,blah. He didn't come yesterday to cause trouble he said, he even brought and gave new gloves  to Butchie before all hell broke loose.
Blah, blah,blah.  I'll say this much....Butchie held it together and showed restraint in my house yesterday . Randy was pushing his backwards with each foul utterance out of his mouth until he had him up against a piece of furniture. Butch is NO WIMP. Neither Is Randy!  I keep telling him that his temper is going to be his UNDOING! 

I've been eating and EATING and EATING :0(

MY DIL Deb in FL would be so disappointed if she could see me now from where I was when I left the end of last May. I was beginning to feel so good about myself back then.

       Ahha...I see on my puter that it's the 4th. The dogs day to get their heartworm med.  Make mental note to self to buy calendars.

Tracie came after dark last night. I begged off going shopping with her when she called a few hours before she came. I tried to play ?????? and told her that we both have the same problem. We buy...it makes us feel good at the time, but at the same time we don't need more shit and it's only a temporary bandaid.  Neither of us knows how to fix ourselves. IF I only had a three room apartment like she does, I too could have three or four storage units to pay for. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh  
It's not all my shit in this house, attic and sheds,,,,much of it is though, Too much!

I'm sitting here trying to convince hubby as he sits on his pot for the umpteenth time this morning to get a permenant cath put in. He claims they are painful. YET the pain in the area of his bladder is in  CONSTANT PAIN.  Okay....so maybe this isn't so much for him, BUT for me. no more trips to the bathroom to empty and sterilize it, no more disruptions waking me all during the night when he struggles to get out of bed, no more...no more. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I had a cath for twenty four hours after my dropped bladder surgery May 5th last year and only the packing was uncomfortable. Maybe longer term use is painful.... he had one for two/three? weeks last year. The nights sleep I got, hasn't been forgotten. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Two cups of coffee :0) and snowman sugar cookies :0( are in me. I've emptied that box in three days. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Time to get up off my hiney and MOTIVATE!  It's ten a.m. Dr Oz has Tony Horton the Ten Minute Miracle Man on.  The women just showed lost  unbelievable weight.  Let's see if he can transform my life in ten minutes a day. Move multiple body parts in a minute and stack them up for ten minutes. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm  ME thinks sitting in front of a computer and moving my eyes and fingers isn't part of this routine. ;0) 

Took my shower and missed that whole segment of Dr.Oz. Probably wouldn't have listened to it anyway. In one ear and out the other. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

It's almsot eleven. The magic hour of eleven fifteen is almost upon me.
Do I feel like going to Walmart afterwards and getting my refills on meds. Time will tell.

I can't remember the date that I bought my Toyota ( without digging out my sales receipt, but there are between 800 and 900 miles on it. A few of those miles were trips made into the Boston V.A. Hospital thirty miles or so each way.I know practically ZIP on the features I have in that car.
Start, heat, windshield wipers, how to turn on the radio and the heated seats is about it.
Programming music ( favorite channels ) I know zip about. I don't spend enough time in it to learn what's what.
11:02  Gotta run.


That's All Folks!

D D So much shit

that I don't want to even get out of bed.
I'm doing just what I have to! Feed hubby
Called and cancelled my 3 p.m. chiro appointment today. Re-scheduled for 11:15 tomorrow.
Today I just rather wallow in my self pity and SUFFER.
Son Randy got me severly pissed off today and I lit into him. He was interfering with the guy (Butch's friend.  working on the rubber roof and he and Butch got into it. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Caught grandson Gil snooping in my room when I tried to get some shut eye after hubby drove me up the wall and I wanted to make the world go away.
Went to my daughter and told her and she is NOW dealing with him.
He was looking for hubby;s oxycodone and she is pissed that her problem ( her son ) is now involving us.
She has told him in the past that he is NOT TO go into our bedroom unless he is invited.
Welllllllllllll  wish dealing with a heroin user was that easy. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Two days in the same pj's, no shower. I should be ashamed of myself, but I don't give a flying F.
I shit you not!
P.S, Was just informed by Jill that the interior of those skylights ( sheetrock and paint ....NOW are  in a efffin mess where they had to be re-installed. Couldn't be helped....Why isn't that comforting!  I GIVE UP!

That's All Folks!

D D Yesterday was MORE OF THE SAME

Old BULL SHIT ..... Same shit again today.

Well, half of that is right !

Son Randy decided this was the day to move the grandsons bedroom furniture into THAT room.  

From beginning to end...I wanted to tear my hair out and didn't know whether to Shit....or Go Blind!

Not taken into consideration was.................the opening to that room was NOT THE SAME and the heavy wood bunkbed ( seperated of course ) would not fit through that opening. Headboard width is 31 inches and door opening is 28 inches. The entryway into that room NOW has less space to manuever oversized furniture in at an angle. sighhhhhhhhhhhhh 

What? You say...no problem, just take them apart. HELL NO! Randy got the bright idea to take them in through the oversized ( fireman's up to code entry ) all the while trying to calm my nerves with his don't worries, no probelm...these windows just snap in and out easily and went about his task. Then he asked Jill to help carry one of the beds out to that side of the house...yeah, you guessed it. WOULDN'T FIT.  The neighbors must have loved THIS FREE SHOW! I shit you not!

Okay...no problem.  Go dig out the power tools to take one end of the bed off. More chaos and confusion. Randy in himself makes everyone around him a BASKET CASE!

Right away he wanted to know how we wanted things arranged. We have had plenty of time to think of this...blah,blah,blah.  I had my ideas...Jill had her own.  In the end it was Fuck It, just put them in here. Logan wants to be able to see out a skylight when he lays in bed. ( I didn't want skylights in that room. Randy said they add to the value of the house and I SHOULD HAVE THEM. )  Neither grandson wants the bunks STACKED. :0(  This enlarged room is looking smaller and smaller.  I shit you not!

I see nowhere on this Gods Green Earth that there will be room for a computer table and the newest g grands porta crib. :0(  For that matter....not even their personal belongings.

Logan has PLENTY of that. Arts and crafts, baseball gloves and bat, football, basketballs, video games up the ass, weights, the list goes on and on. Yeah and nana bought em all. So you say...SUFFER! ;0)

   The window wan't the snap that Randy claimed it was. Well...maybe to take out, BUT NOT to get back in.  He expected us to get every single one of the above mentioned items out of the livingroom ( and MORE )so that he could vacuum.  OH BOY! Vacuum. That opened a "kettle of worms."  He asked me where the new vacuum he bought for me ( with my money ) while I was in FL was.

Mine had shit the bed and of course he knew better than Jill what I would like. NOT!

He didn't want to use the small dog hair picker upper I had. HAD TO TELL him it WAS GONE. Which only led to more shit. Incredously he asked if I had given it away and to whommmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I wouldn't fess up ;0)  He proceeds to tell me he could have used a new vacuum if I was inclined to give them away. His is falling apart..... he could use a vacuum.  He could use a $300 vacuum as well as the next one, blah,blah,blah. SHIT...I thought that vac cost around $500 . Now I feel BETTER hahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I still think he is mistaken about what that Hoover cost. OH!!!!,.... so I found it hard to push? Well blow me over with a feather, he tells me there are adjustments to make to it and it WILL GLIDE across the floors. Self propelled and all that jazzzzzzzzzzzzz.

IT WAS BIG! I don't give a shit about GLIDE. I'm sorry if your vac is falling over and whacking you on the head because the thing to release it to use it is broken. Hmmmmm were you BS one day and stepped on that piece too hard and snapped it off ???

If Randy finds out I gave it to Sarah and Ryan that will be just one more reason he will be pissed at Jill. Her kids....HER KIDS

Quite simply....theirs broke and I had heard of it. Randy never told me his vac was broken.

I had bought myself another vac ...shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. A better one that picks up dog hair/no bagger and it too I found too cumbersome. Nephew Drew moved and asked to borrow a vac. Here you go Drew, my housewarming gift to you. Tested JUST ONCE! He has a black lab ( bless Samantha's ten year old heart. She's a very good dog.

Okay....sooool Randy has two cats. I'm feeling a few pangs of guilt. ;0)

A few of my kids think he is living better than they do on his social security and THEY WORK. They IMPLY ...he is getting help from someone or thieving or BOTH.

FUCK ME...Randy just came through the front door, gave a chuckle and spoke these words to no one. "No one did anything else in this room" with a sound of disgust in his voice.

( Hey...we are not suppose to look like we are occupying that room yet! )

Now he's asking Jill how to operate my new Keurig so he can get himself a cup of java.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooon he, Burchie and ? ( heard he graduated with my son that lives in FL ) will be up on that roof. Hubby woke at 6 , peed, complained about not being able to breathe and asked me what I did to his left leg ( it's in a lot of pain ) and went back to sleep. It's now 8:52 and I'm surprised the sound of Randy's voice didn't wake him.

I hearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr moannnnnnnnnnnnnnnning. Could this be? 

Tried to be CUTE when hubby asked me what I did to his left leg. Asked him what he did...to my right leg. ;0)

He is always efffin with the brace I bought him ( moving the velcro straps where they shouldn't be. Yesterday he was complaining that all the parts  ( straps ) are not here. THEY ARE. JUST TWO!

He claims he sees on the diagram MORE STRAPS.  Shaking my head here. no no no  NO NO.

Once AGAIN I placed the velcro where it should be and warned him to not take them off again. IN TURN...he took this warning as ( how I don't know ) LEAVE IT ON. So he wore it until I pointed out to him at ten p.m. that he had it on still and needed to remove it because it shouldn't be left on his leg that many hours. Just to walk.  "YOU told me NOT TO remove it." 

I GIVE!

Randy aka MOUTH ) is back in the door and I hear him commenting to Jill (  being cynical ) I see you did nothing more to that room since I left.

Hell I left a bottle of Tylenol on the kitchen table and more than a few people partook.

Ryan, Sarah and baby came to visit and we were all taking turns holding a sleeping baby. :0)

Fuck the livingroom! The rest of us don't have the syndromes he has ( one being Hyperactive) and by three p.m. our energy was SPENT. I shit you not! Just listening to Randy tires the BRAIN OUT. I shit you not!

A few of my kids have called to chat and say Happy New Year. Cheryl had to tell me All About her nice evening out. I love my kids...I DO, but some days there is even less hours to do what I have to do and chatting is a luxury.

I got a GIFT!  It's Nine fifteen and hubby still sleeps.  I envy him. I shit you not!

No pleasing me...so , YOU SAY! 

I must take a break to rise ( well try to rise ) if the right leg will allow me to and make myself a second cup of java and see what kind of trouble I can get into when I'm up and about.

Just breathing...gets me in trouble. ;0)

Dem bones ...dem right leg bones; soooooooooo much pain when I first try to weight bear. sigh!

The two grandsons are sound asleep with that racket going on above their heads. I ENVY THEM!

There was a " bright note " to my day yesterday. Tracie and I shopped .  :0)  We got LOST IN KMART. I shit you not!  :0) Kmart is the ONLY of the Marts in our town. Seldom do I go there, preferring the OTHER MADE IN CHINA mart as the less of the TWO EVILS.  Purchased more 70% off jewelry boxes amongst MORE STUFF and only have the attic to store this shit in....given there is a SPOT up there. It's a wonder that the ceiling doesn't fall in. ;0)

From there we went to the GREASY CHINESE BUFFET.  No fool like an OLD FOOL!

Tracie likes it and needs her physiche ( a good shit ) every once in awhile...while I being the older of the two of us, should have MORE SENSE.

FIRST we had to stop by my house. She left her wallet and license ( for the umpteenth time ) in her car and was driving my car.

Somebody had egged my house for the second night in a row. :0(  Jill called to report it and was told it was someone driving by in a car all over town. Tracie had  Silly String sprayed all over her car. I don't think these hoodlums were in a car. Hope they catch these bastards.  My "bright son" Randy installed a security light here, there and everywhere on my house. The front of the house wasn't on as someone shut the switch off. The others arn't hooked up yet. :0( He encouraged me to buy a security camera for my bedroom ( not cheap) and it's been in the box for a few months now. He keeps saying there is nothing to setting it up.....BUT SO FAR He hasn't!

I know nothing of electronics and I sure as Hell don't want anyone living in this house to KNOW IT'S THERE. That's the whole purpose of having one. To catch someone in the act of taking something. I shit you not!

Meantime...you can rob me blind. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

OH...... did I mention that Randy has ADD too. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He thought of it....told me it was something that I should buy....once it arrived.............( he never inquired as to if it had arrived )...it's put on the Back Burner!

Hurry up.....and WAIT!

   Must make myself rise again to test that leg out. Maybe in doing it more frequently, I'll have less pain.

Ten a.m. The grandsons are awake and...hubby sleeps on. I don't envy him.... I HATE HIM. ;0)

I want some of what he's taking................................ ;0)

Gil just asked me for ten bucks to get gas in mom's car so that he can get to his dads house. Certainly isn't to see dear ole ( cough,cough) dad, cause he's back in MS. Call me SUCKER! Handed him a five and five ones.

Why he needs to go there....I won't know until Jill gets out of the shower.

Today my plans ( one of them ) is to go out back and clean out the large outdoor storage chest and re-arrange all my bird seed jugs, etc, in it so that I can put my hands on everything when the snow flies and not have to DIG under a pile of crap and freeze my ass off to feed the birds ...would be FOR THE BIRDS. ;0)

Hubby is AWAKE and wants the HEAT TURNED UP. Lord, give me strength!

Not the house thermostat...the space heater aimed at him that causes my bedroom to FRY. Something tells me that I have a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Day ahead of me. I shit you not!

Some things just bite you in the ass.  Here I was hoping to have more room in my house AND MY OWN CLOSET to put things and then...GIL MOVES BACK IN!

He found out for himself today that...the locks to dads have been changed. The enclosed pool entrance has been boarded up. THE PRESSURE IS BEING APPLIED TO GIL. Will he BREAK and retract his twelve year old statement ( made at age nine to the DA ? All bets are OFF!

The pool he enclosed when he couldn't afford to pay child support along with many other home improvements such as all rooms had hardwood floors, central A/C installed and it didn't end there.  . The SOB. So much for the judge reprimanding him and telling him he could NOT make improvements on his home at the expense of NOT SUPPORTING his sons.

Laws are made to be broken. Well. that

is what he says and does.

Once son Terry cslled and Jill told him  what was going on today...he drove here from Kingston,NH to watch THE COMEDY SHOW and has been laughing his ass off. Wishes he had a truck to take away some of that particle board they tore off the roof. He could use it.

Randy has been on the War Path over missing tools of his. Now it's his $15 box cutter knife that he left on the shelf in the shed. before that is was a $28 paint roller extension, 2 Stanley tape measurers ( one was a 50 footer ) some other gadget/tool I forgot the name of. I'm ready to hand him $400. Three hundred  to buy himself a vac and the rest to replace his tools.

THE ROOM that was not suppose to be occupied and HE insisted on moving the beds and bureaus in there yesterday .....NOW THE SHIT FROM THE ROOF  IS..... all over the bed sitting under one of them  and on the floor. Skylights were removed to BE DONE RIGHT. Fuck me! This is truly like....Shoveling Shit Against The Tide!

 HAVE GPS and I can set that to take me as far away as I can get and if I GET LOST...IT'S Intentional. I shit you not !

Now...onward to take Dr.Phil's test today on whether I am an enabler or not. Like I need to take a test.  I try to do my best by all my kids. Some need more help than others. Some need no help. At what stage of my life are they going to do for me? Visit my grave and bring me flowers??? Not counting on that either.

I shit you not!

Bird seed storage box is cleaned out. How long it will stay that was.....is......

Work on the roof is still HAPPENING. Can I hear an AMEN!

That's All Folks!

D D TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE NEW YEARS

....and all through the house ; the daughter and her fiance were drunk as a louse. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
   They left to do some grocery shopping for me when it was still daylight. Didn't look at the clock, but I'm thinking between four and five p.m. and when they came back around NINE....SHE WAS WASTED. He can hold his drinks better , but none the less... he was legally drunk.
One word fell to another word between the two of them and he got pissed at her and LEFT, yelling out Happy Fuckin New Year Jill.
They did bring the groceries back with them. Whoopdeedo!
I couldn't be that lucky that he would stay away. He was back this morning before he had to be in work and gave me a bright Good Morning and a Happy New Year when he left.
Taking her to a bar.....you go boy!  He mustn't have a efffin brain cell left in your head. IDJUT!
   After he left this morning, she told me she needs to STOP at two drinks and that's her NY's Resolution.
WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL we both know how resolutions go. sighhhhhhhhhh
She is drinking some kind of liquor/vodka STRAIGHT now.
We were interrupted before I could say....how about chosing a word like, "sobriety." 
 I will throw that word OUT THERE. I shit you not!
   I heard Happy New Years after midnight coming from inside the house.
As for myself.....after Tracie left around ten, I HIT THE BED. Hubby woke me two minutes before midnight to watch the ball come down in Times Square. Never saw the ball, Only heard the countdown , yelled out to those in the house a Happy New Year , kissed hubby and went back to my fitfull nights sleep. Gave hubby is pain meds around 2 a.m. and tried to find a comfortable position ( with less pain ) until 6 a.m. when I arose from my bed, still, in moocho pain from the neck ( burning  neck pain ) down. Mostly all right sided PAIN, except for some slight sciatic in my left leg.  Mother NEVER told ne there'd be nights like this. ;0) Ahhhhhhhhh THE RUSTY YEARS!
  It's almost nine a.m. and hubby is still sleeping. Ahhhhhhhhha he is the one that stayed awake til midnight. Oopsie....The dogs just raced through our bedroom. Cash was chasing them and just disturbed hubby's sleep. The moans and groans are beginning. Damned dogs!

Tomorrow the roof work will resume. :0)
Jill is missing two of her Lorazapan's. :0( 
I spent a good hour or better writing out checks to pay bills while the lovers were out drinking. :0(
I didn't wake in a good mood; but then again...when do I. :0(
Jill is taking the ornaments off the two fake tree and readying them for the crawl space attic. :0)
Son Randy called. Jill spoke to him. He is coming in an hour or so. He has the stuff to put under the bed posts and bureaus to save the wood floor from scratches and will adhere it to those said items.:0)
Some of the furniture may even make its way into that bedroom. :0)
I need to empty the piss pail of it's overnights contents. PU! :0(
Dialed up my girlfriend Nancy in Alaska to with her a Happy New Year after 8 p.m. last night. :0) We talked until it was time for her to fix her hubby supper. Four hour time differencefrom here to there. :0(  They have snow and a 5 degree temp :0(. They can keep it! ;0)
No neighbors for miles. Just a mountain view from her livingroom window and woods and wildlife.
I HATE HER!  Noooooooo the correct words would be, I ENVY HER. I shit you not!
She has had some of her 8/9 kids move back in from time to time. Her latest house built just over a year ago was built with NO ROOM AT THE INN Plans.  HER BLUEPRINT . Every space has a specific purpose and it doesn't include for kids and grands moving back in. They came for Christmas Day , each arriving at different times and left that same day. She's ten days younger than myself and sooooooooooooooooooooo much smarter. ;0) 
   AH HA! I thought Jill was awake at midnight. Hubby just asked her if she watched the New Year in and she said that she passed out around ten....thankfully. Her word..."thankfully." 
It never fails to amaze me that she can FUNCTION after getting WASTED. I shit you not!
Maybe I really was LUCKY afterall.... in the fact that IF I drank too much , I wanted to die the next day and was unable to function, except to puke and piss and pray to die. :0( Wasn't worth getting drunk...IN MY OPINION! I shit you not!

Little IBU arrived yesterday from Ashton Drake.:0) MADE IN CHINA, :0(
I have NO EFFFIN IDEA as to where I am going to display her. For now she will remain in her box and I will post this ad that captivated my STUPIDITY. ;0)

While...she is cute, I'd have done better putting that money to getting an automatic car starter put in my car.

OH and HEY! She has sisters and brothers coming out....and the answer to your question of; am I efffin dumb enough to buy them....The answer is: YES!

Boxes store easily...in the attic.

There's NO FOOL like an OLD FOOL. I shit you not!

It's after ten a.m. Jill just headed out to buy the W.B. cigarettes and deliver them to the firestation . All is well in LOVE Land. While I know I am repeating some things....Last night she was sliding that engagement ring forward as to threaten him she was about to remove it. He took that signal and SPLIT. Smart move on his part!

 I'd like nothing better than seeing her move out ( with someone she loved).....he isn't going to be the one to convince her that he can provide for her and Logan.  SHE KNOWS IT!

You can't live on LOVE like I THINK he thinks they can.

Each time I rise from this computer chair I have a mellofatime rising. Stiffness and pain. :0(

Must get more active and that doesn't include MY FINGERS. ;0)  I WISH!

HAPPY NEW YEARS DAY

That's All Folks!