D D Trick or Treat

Tonight is THE NIGHT...Friday November 4th for our goblins to knock on the door. 

Let me fill you in on my YESTERDAY.......My son Randy INSISTED that I needed a new desktop computer, so up to NH we drove. (  Avoiding MA sales tax ;0)  ) and being that I am only 7 miles or so away from the NH state line...WHY NOT!

While I must admit my desktop did run slowwwww and I DO DISLIKE seeing WIRES GALORE he didn't have to twist my arm to buy a new Apple P.C. 

It's another purchase that I didn't get to take after paying for it. Two to three days , depending where I am inline to have what was in my tower downloaded into this new PC. Thankfully I have a laptop.

The only BRIGHT SPOT in a long while,  was that I got to use the GPS in my car and from there I went to see  my good friend Barb. It's been a year since we have met somewhere for lunch and I have been gathering up books for her to read ( ba ba black sheep have you any wool ....yes sir, yes sir 3 bags full :0)  ) Our visit was much too short. Randy was chomping at the bit to get back to the house and play FOREMAN to the workers at the house before they left for the day. After I dropped him off I ran to the Dollar Store for gift bags and came upon a bad accident at the lights of the shopping center. They were still not working and I heard there was a fatality. :0( Once back home there was much to do. Jill had worked her hiney off preparing the evening meal. Sarah and Ryan ( her oldest son ) were coming to eat with us and Tracie called to say "what's up" and then "is there enough supper for me to eat."  Well...you know me. 

She didn't leave til close to ten. :0( 

We all sang happy Birthday to Alex. :0)  Her ice cream cake was Yummy. Happy 8th. Birthday.

I can't remember mine. Maybe because it was in the 1940's. I'm OLD!

   Jill has homemade spaghetti sauce simmering on the stove already. :0)  Tonights meal. 

It's been a tough morning ( temper wise ). Everyone has had "short fuses." My son Terry called me and i can't even guess how many times that he said "I didn't call to upset you mom", but hey...he laid his problems out ....pissed off at this brother and that brother and his wife is driving him nuts again...bitch,bitch,bitch beginning from when she wakes to get ready for work. I know Nancy! I know how she is and she has driven him away before and then begged him to return.  Hello son..... News Flash!  I have my own set of problems!  I shit you not! And if her parents were alive she would be bitching about you to THEM!

You my son come with your own  set of baggage.

I have to laugh...he tells me he don't care if he sees half of his family again.....NEWSFLASH ..I'd like to get far away from mine too. If he wins the lottery he is coming for me and he and I are taking off...he tells me.  :0) Just give me my half and I'll head in a different direction from where you are heading. ;0)

FINALLY I got him off the phone and left it off the hook. That is until I had to call and make an urology appointment for hubby ( Dec 5th is the soonist ). My heart skipped a beat when I went to write it on the calendar. He has another appointment  Dec.5th . Thankfully..... it's the same place at a different hour.:0)

Dermatology 9:45 and now Urology 11:30.  PHEW!

Then it was a call to see if his pain meds were sent out or at the Lowell V.A. waiting to be picked up. Three different calls and I finally hear that the doctor did not sign for them.  Every month it is getting to be the same shit. He will claim he never got the message and they say they sent it over to his nurse.  Myself..I think he gets absent minded from things I've noticed. Either way...no pain meds. Had to call his nurse and she tells me that the number I dialed is just for the VNA nurses to use. OOPSIE!   BUT she will tell his doctor :0) and I can pick them up this p.m. Next call was to ask why I am still getting medical bills for hubby's nursing home care. The woman I spoke with was very nice....They exhaust all insurnce coverage and it's Medicare and the likes that take their time denying or paying before I finally get a bill. Then I wrote out checks for bills. . :0(  

Hubby had his sponge bath from Kathy his aide. Before that he had his cookies and two cups of coffee. I made the bed and ran the vac while he was getting washed up. After she left I hear him moaning. Going to pass out was what he was saying. Asked why... felt weak because he hadn't had cereal yet was his cry.  I fed the poor man. sighhhhhhhhhhhh

Myself...I didn't even get my two cups of coffee in me. Got tired of reheating them. Did put some no-no's in my mouth. Cookies. :0(  It's now noon. sighhhhhhhhhhhh

Butch is putting the dogs run posts into my front lawn.  That's going to look attractive, NOT!

Nowhere else to put it and my bird bath will probably be designated to another spot other than in the center of the front yard where I put it years ago. :0( sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Cash will continously wrap himself around it if it isn't moved. 

I am sitting feet away from the room that is being worked on. Saw and drill sounds are emitting through the closed doorway.
A neighbor down the street just came through the front door with Randy to visit hubby. It's been ages since Dick has visited. He must have stopped in to see if we hit the LOTTERY. :0) New addition, new car.

Twelve twentyfive and he left. Sat my ass down in front of this laptop and the phone rang. Jill's son Gil wanting to speak to his mom. She was napping.

Lately I have been fighting the urge to light up a cigarette. WHICH REMINDS ME, I forgot to call my own doctor to make an appointment to get myself something for anxiety or whatever the efff it is that makes me want to JUMP out of my own skin.    I'm on hold now.................Friday Nov 11th 11:30. Just heard hubby soubding in distress. Inquired...almost fell. He used his pot and tried to pull his Depend and pj bottom  up by himself. Oh myyyyyyyyyy...my heart just got another "jump start".

Back again. Somehow the clock is reading 3:50 p.m. sighhhhhh To be fair...I did get about an hour nap in.

I was ready ( in my coat ) in my pajamas to head out to the V.A. to pick up hubby's meds. They close at four. Randy stopped me ...well he offered to go for me and has gone. My clothes ( clean pj's are sitting waiting for me in the bathroom. Showering earlier wasn't one of my prioroties. 

It's been three days since I've touched that baby afghan and the 13th of November is rapidly approaching.

NEVER have I been this behind in doing things. I'm disgusted with myself. 

Oh well...tomorrow is another day. May or may not write tomorrow. Cutting myself some slack...so to speak.  Hopeful that I can read some of you .

Posts are up.  Cash keeps wrapping himself around them. It's a no-win situation. I shit you not!

That's All Folks!

D D Can today be....the day???

I'm not holding my breath! New car or no new car.  Cum si...Cum sa................ 

Hubby went to bed pantless last night as he claimed about his stomach being in serious pain and anything around his waist intensified his pain. :0(  Woke up sometime around 3 a.m. SOAKED in piss. I shit you not!
Bottom sheet, top sheet...you name it. He says he doesn't know how that happens as he woke feeling the urge to get up and use his urinal to pee and that's when he found himself lying in wetness. My guess he is in a DEEP SLEEP when the urine releases and is unaware it's happening.  Whatever the cause...more middle of the night work for me and then it's much harder to fall back to sleep again. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Did I mention yesterday that the visiting nurse that came here yesterday suggested Pyridium for this. Called and left a message with the Triage people in Boston last evening and his primary doctors nurse called me this morning and will run it past him. She asked me if hubby was 'irritable.: YOU BET!  For whatever that is worth! sighhhhh  I'm glad that I got a depend on him this morning. Lucy Goosey............. PU! 
He has had his cookies, two cups of coffee and meds and has fallen back to sleep. :0)  I'm still on my second cup.
   Jill seees her ENT this morning and is dreading it. Worried that whatever procedure he will do will start her bleeding again. She has alot of dried blood and scabbing up inside her nasal passage from the rough first nose packing she had done in the E.R. 

It's been a busy FULL day.  Got my car hours after I arrived in Danvers at Ira Toyota.  Good things come to those that wait AND WAIT .  Paperwork, paperwork,paperwork. .  Registering it and getting an Inspection Sticker took more time. So far...I know how to start it and turn the radio on. :0) 
While there I asked my son Randy to take my picture with my camera....oh no, he had to use his fancy dancy cell phone and told me he's put it on my computer. Yeah right...we were no sooner home at my house and he split for his house.  My intentions were good anyway. Was... going to post a pic. :0( 
Tomorrow is another day.
Drove my new car to the center of town to make a purchase at Burlington Coat Factory. Butchie's daughter Alex will be 8 tomorrow. It was CLOSED. Still no electricity and the intersection there had no working lights either. :0(   
   Hubby's doctor called me awhile ago. Pyridium is just a purple dye and won't help him at all he said.  He told me to call the urologist at the Boston V.A. and make an appointment.  All I keep getting is MIXED SIGNALS from medical people. The nurse that comes to the house told me it's for bladder spasms and has a numbing agent in it. I'll make that appointment for WHENEVER. Meantime, he asked me for his oxycodone and I gave it to him. Eight a day ....as long as he doesn't get confused is what it will be until he gets some other help for that pain. 

D D No Joke! Trick or Treat was cancelled!

It may be October 31st, but you wouldn't know it. My beautiful pink dogwood was destroyed and it wasn't any trickster that did it. It was Good Old Mother Nature that was being mean to me and a meanie to the little goblins.  Heavy wet snow broke my tree limbs, sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

To be truthful, I don't even know where to start and relate the nightmare of the past few days.

Maybe I should take a day to calm down. sighhhhhhhhhhhh

We were blessed in two ways. Our stove is NOT electric and we could light the burners for some heat anddddddddddddddddddd out water  heater is waterless and has a pilot light so we could shower and wash dishes.  :0) I forgot about that and daughter Jill reminded me.   Some people did not have it as good. I shit you not!  Just about every surrounding town was mainly without power.  Not that it makes you feel any better when you can't do the laundry, read or knit after dark, dry your hair....all those nicities that one takes for granted. 

Hubby woke freezing in the middle of the first night and I got up and put a thermal shirt and long johns on him.  That was one of the rare times I felt tenderness......other times I WANTED HIM TO SHUT HIS MOUTH!

My head and sensories have been sooooooooo bombarded and I SWEAR...just one more word. will put me over the edge. Funny Farm ...here I am!  He talks nonsense at times and you can not make him understand what you are explaining to him and you want it to END soooo badly.  Forget it...forget it, I'm yelling.  And he still has to get a word out here and there.   OMG! 

Take this one today for instance.  Out of the blue he says to me, " I can't understand why I haven't heard a thing on my police scanner if the police have power." Yep..he DID SAY THAT. I shit you not! 

It was at this time I was close to the end of my rope with all the other dumb shit and the general confusion with everyone else that lives here and some that do not.  Calmly, I said to him.." I can't believe you just said that" and he goes "why" and proceeds to go further than I care to listen to. " If every other city had efffin power and every household and business had power ,and WE did not have power YOU STILL WOULD NOT GET anything on that efffin police scanner", I yelled.

Middle of the night he begins to holler that I have all the covers. I had a corner of mine held to me so I would have a little cover.  It was HIM and always is HIM that rolls towards me and his legs end up holding the blanket down and his back gets exposed.  There is no way you can make him see the light. He will insist to the day he dies it is I that pull his covers off. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  So I get up and try to pull them out from under him and next thing I see...is his head on my pillow. HIM that gives me nothing but shit when I try to get him to lay his pillows down instead of sleeping sitting up with his neck hanging off. "I'm comfortable" is all I get out of him . Leave my pillows alone."  Sooooo I look at that scene and try to decide where I can lay my weary bones.  A picture of the empty parlor bunkbeds come into my mind. Logan ran to sleep with mom when the closest transformer blew KABANG!  I'm not scared, he told me. I just want to keep mommy company. :0)  Lucky her, with your grinding teeth that your dad never took you to a dentist to get a mouth guard when his wife had dental insuranc for five years.  I digress..I know.  It's constant grinding all night long and all morning until he wakes.  I'll digress some more. Love it when I hear him say often, " Mommy I love you."   Any wayyyyyyyyyyy as I was stoking my pipe and my stack was smoking....  I went out in the parlor and climbed in one of those beds. Two words kept appearing in my mind. SINGLE BEDS  We need SINGLE BEDS! He's still blame me when his covers didn't cover his back. sighhhhhhhhh Anddddddd then I listened and listened for hubby.  I was wide awake by this time. Maybe an hour later I heard him get up to use his pot and I laid there hoping he didn't take a fall.  Then an hour later he was freezing and you know what I did then. Back in the parlor and not too much later I hear stirring in the house. Called out... it was Jill. She peed and made her tea, I got up and made instant coffee and we sat at the table talking.  Around four hubby yells out; "Where the fuck is my coffee." I yelled back " go back to sleep, it's the middle of the night" Surprisingly he did.  Around 6 Jill and I decided bed and sleep sounded good and I got some shuteye. Hubby slept til ten. I failed to mention that he and I turned in at 8 due to no electric, no tv.

How did our ancestors make it without killing each other.... oops, I meant without heat and electricity. :0)

Just  about all my food stuff is ruined. Jill threw away bags of stuff she removed. Milk, cream cheese, hot dogs, bacon. The list goes on and on. I will inquire if I have coverage for food spoilage when i call my ins.co. about the fax coming in to them about that new car I think I am buying.  So far it has seemed like a bad omen with everything that has gone on and wrong. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  

So as I sit here tonight at ten p.m. trying to catch up reading your blogs and beginning mine before I forget half the shit that's gone on.... Tomorrow IF ALL GOES WELL...I will hit my bank and then go on to Danvers to do the paperwork and pay for my 2012 Toyota Camry XLE. Silver with gray leather interior and All I will need to do is TAKE A COURSE on all the features. :0) I wish I was kidding. I'll probably never realize some of the features I could have used before I OR THAT CAR buy the farm. ;0)

I was shown my Cruise Control but I never bother looking up. Told him my previous cars had Cruise Control and I never used it. Same with high beams.

Never felt the need to is my guess. Or had to???

Personally my thought process should have been on buying a generator when I heard that this FREAK STORM was coming. I shit you not!

A new day......maybe my mood will get better. It's Tuesday the 1st of Novemeber.

Happy 48th Birthday to daughter Michelle. 

Much happened yesterday. Some of it... is best to omit. I shit you not!

Nerves were frayed....you know what it's like.

This day is bringing it's own set of eff ups and stress. No workers. Yesterday the excuse was kids at home without heat...needed their generator for themselves. Okay...I can reason with that. Now today???

The boss did tell my son Randy that they would be here working and it's after eleven a.m.  They saw the amount of snow we had here when they came for the generator. There is no excuse as to why I heard my son telling the boss minutes ago that we didn't have alot of snow like some areas did. It's bullshit if that's their excuse today.  

   Randy stopped at my insurance company. Two women are doing paperwork in the COLD ...no heat, no phones working which means NO FAX working.  Bottom Line...NO NEW CAR TODAY.

I'm just glad that I am of an age that I can go with the flow and I'm not counting the days until Christmas for Santa to gring me my gifts.  Once we had electricity last night Logan was given A GIFT. XBOX worked. ;0)

The nurse has come and gone. Kathy came and washed hubby and I stripped the bed and made it up. Still need to do more vacuuming in my room. Randy is waiting for me to through some clothes on and go to the bank for a Cashiers Check to get that out of the way. Here I sit typing...... 

    No school today ...Professional Day for the teachers...whatever the hell that is. Trick or Treat was cancelled until Friday 5:30 to 7:30 p.m.  Yeah ...like the kids will stop ringing the doorbell by 7:30 when there is no school the next day.  I was a kid once and we didn't have Time Limits. I don't expect them to adhere to an hour either.  I'm prepared. Some people took their kids Trick or Treating to towns that were not effected by the snow storm. Then they will go again on the rescheduled day. Oh wellllllllll. Some towns did not reschedule it, I have heard. :0(  

I'd like to change my blog design, but am scared to death I'd lose everything back to DAY ONE.  :0(

   I need to remember to call and order hubby's pain meds tonight after 5p.m. Forgot to do it once we got our phones working last night. His nurse told me to ask for Pyridium for hubby's bladder spasms. She thinks that is the cause of his severe stomach pain.

Okay...son Randy is trying to patiently wait for me to get off my ass. He knows the stress I am feeling presently and trust me...him having patience with me ...it must be very hard for him to control his emotions.

Take your time...can only last just so long.with him.   I shit you not! I'll be back.

Back, but not without alot of new stress.  Sooooooooo what's new, huh.

Hubby decides to brush out his electric razor while I'm gone and didn't use a napkin to put his whiskers in. Is more corteous of the nurses aides in a Rest Home or the hospital. Always has done it in the past when he shaves in bed. WTF!  I put clean sheets on the bed and before I can even get the rag/rug vacuumbed, he has the bed a mess. I GIVE! I want to THROW IN THE TOWEL and wave a RED FLAG and GIVE UP!!!!

Part of my loss of patience may be due to the fact that I have been out of my own meds for three days now. WalMart pharmacy inside WalMarts doors has no electricity.  Tracie took me there last night and it was in DARKNESS. 

   Jill is napping.....The eyes of ENVY are boring into my brain.  She hasn't been drinking and I'm still not happy. What the effffff is wrong with me?????? 

Must MUST, MUST look into this new book I heard about on ...I believe it was Anderson Cooper's show.

Key To Peace Of Mind written by Steve Aubman, if I read my scribbled down note correct.
The phone just rang and startled me. Recording from the police department updating us on the power situation in town. Many are still without power here and elsewhere. :0(  Kathy that came to bathe hubby this morning was still without power and she lives in this town. Some of our grandkids and kids in other towns are still without power. Now...I've taken my phone OFF the hook and am going to try to rest.

Son Randy took me to the bank, ( I called before we went to check if it was open) and I have my Cashiers Check.  :0)  One thing out of the way.  My salesman made three calls here yesterday while the phone wasn't working. Seems he is concerned that I may have backed out of buying this Toyota from him.

He should be!  I shit you not!  BUT...I must admit I am getting warmed up to the idea of having a new Toyota. The cashier at the bank told me she has had her for years and loves it.

If I am not careful....and don't learn  NOT to get miffed, pissed off, my spine up, my non balls in an uproar, I am becoming more aware that I won't live to enjoy a car or anything else. Somehow without being STRUCK DOWN... I need to learn HOW TO CALM MY NERVES and if it's more medication I need, I need to make an appointment with my primary doctor and ask for HELP.  It's MY CALL.

I'm getting to where I can't stand myself. I shit you not!

At 2 p.m. I set his meds on his nightstand and told him to take them. Just now spotted them and it 4 p.m. He denied I told him and even sounded accusatory like I intentionally didn't give them to him.  Lord help me.

That's All Folks!

D D You have to be

SHITTING ME!  Another trip to Danvers,MA to finalize the paperwork and pay for my new car and IT DIDN'T HAPPEN!  No one told me they would not accept a personal check or more than 3K cash. They will only take a Certified Cashiers Check. Now I don't buy a effffffin car every or every other year so how the Hell was I to know. I mentioned those two things to the salesman the day before and he didn't say anything. No the guy inside THE NEXT OFFICE we sat in today DID. One would think that someone that claimed he worked there 6 1/2 years would know to tell the buyer their policy on car purchases. sighhhhhhhhhhhh I WAS PISSED. First of all, while I do like that Toyota very much ...it isn't a Do or Die situation that I have to have it. It will do A LOT of driveway sitting in the winter. I DON"T DO ICE AND SNOW. I shit you not! Secondly I lost one of my efffin expensive earrings there somewhere. UPSET...you bet your ass. Not only was I unable to do what I went there to do, but now I lost one of my only nice pair of earrings.  The only pair that I have that are expensive that I was able to buy in St.Thomas where they were cheaper years ago. That was the frosting up my ass ( forget on the cake!!!)
Last, but NOT LEAST even if I had the certified check, I still would have been SHIT OUT OF LUCK...I needed hubby's picture I.D. to register the car in his name.  WASN'T INFORMED THAT yesterday either.   ALL THIS SHIT just to buy a car. Stress, stress STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!  
So let's see if I get this straight now....I bring those things in Monday at ten a.m. The car will be already detailed and kept inside during the snow storm. The have a registry right there and I will drive my car off the lot and home.  Seeing will be believing. I shit you not!
It began to rain on our way back and there were times I had to freeze up and close my eyes. Figured what more could go wrong than me to get killed or injured doing this FOOLS ERRAND!
Second..Last,but NOT Least....I rather have spent that time out dining with a good friend, shopping, other enjoyment in general and made it known. sighhhhhhhhhhhhh
Thirty minutes after we got back I got the phone call that my earring was found. FROM EXPERIENCE with this place I BEST BRING THE MATCHING EARRING TO PROVE THE ONE THEY HAVE...IS MINE!

Once home Jill was on the phone with her son Gil in MS and he is talking of killing himself. She could hear her ex in the background YELLING . Seems as though he promised him $8 an hour and he worked for him 3 weeks now in that ex judges business his dad works for and NOW he tells him he can't afford to pay him as he doesn't make that much pay himself.   WTF!   HE and his WIFE lack for nothing...  Bottom line...HE PROMISED TO PAY HIM. Gilby worked and thought he would be able to buy himself smokes, etc. Unless you have an addition to something, you probably wouldn't understand how much that meant to him and he hasn't been stable mentally since before he left here.
I'll get off that subject as I am nerved up enough about my new non car purchase.

Day ONE we got off to a BAD START. Or let's just say that my son Randy spoke with the general manager via phone and asked him to please have someone that spoke very clear English show us the vehicles and explain the features to us when we went for a TEST DRIVE and it Went To Hell In A Hand Basket from there. Out the front doors he escorts us talking to us as we are walking through them and he said matter of factly...so you want someone "white" to wait on you." There was a black saleman standing within feet of us and he began hollering at us."What's wrong with black people? Why white? He began to call us racists and Randy is saying he is not. NO, then why you only want white, he asked and on and on it went. There was no reasoning with him. Randy asked him politely not to speak to us anymore and that he was upsetting me.  OMG! He would not shut up and kept yelling at us. I started for Randy's car shaking like a leaf. WTF????  Buying a car should have been a Happy Experience. The general manager ran inside and other personel came out trying to calm that guy down and I could still hear him keep going on and on.  Apologies everywhere to us....like okay...I'm still shaking and nerved up and I still am in DISBELIEF. Randy asked for his name before we left there and it was FINALLY given to him. If you are ever at Ira Toyota in Danvers, MA stay clear of Mr.Alemu G-----!   I nor Randy wanted the frustration of repeating ourselves or not understanding and asking someone to repeat themselves.  I'm sorry if that sounds racist. Dealing with it for internet service problems, I have had to hang up sometimes. walking away in frustration would have been rude and Yes that sales manager that walked us outside had no business wording it like he did either.
 I was going to take a picture of the car that keeps getting away from me ;0), but said to myself...screw it. Not worth searching the lot for and the snow storm was quickly approaching us. sighhhhhhhhh
After five...the rain turned to snow and it's falling as I type at 7p.m. and will all night into tomorrow. Already the Police Scanner is busy with chatter of accidents and powerline explosions and downed trees.
 OH MY!!!! Most of the leaves have not fallen from the trees and this heavy wet snow is going to make things brutal.  I shit you not!
Oh before I forget that was a hematoma that was oozing old blood from Tracie's breast. Not to worry. Commonly happens.  She was out and about after she left the hospital. Went out to eat by herself and came here before going on home to see if I needed anything.  That was nice of her. I gave her the keys to the Taurus and we ran to the Dollar Store for baby shower invites. Plates, cups and napkins with baby boy print was purchased as well as plastic botlles with a blue top for centerpieces. They are banks and we will put something in them. $1. each.  One dollar here, one dollar there...and it added up to over $40. LET THERE BE A BABY BOY SHOWER!   :0) 
Grabbed hubby an Italian sub.  Is that Politically Correct anymore? Myself I finished of Logan's cold french fries that his mother made him for supper, then the leftover rice from the chicken dinner the other night and THEN...the meal I fixed for hubby that he would not eat. TOO SALTY, he claimedTwo weeks ago he ate the other half of that Hillshire Farms kielbasa and a can of baked beans when Jill fed him and NOW that same package of kielbasa is TOO SALTY! Cold. Salty.... I ATE IT!  That was my supper. Shouldn't have . I'll groan when I get on the scale again. ohh wellllllllllllllllll
The power went out ... POOF

Right at that time 7:30ish Saturday p.m. . Came on and I no sooner got back online and it went again. heard the transformer blow. POW!
Here it is 48 hours later before we got POWER. :0(  
More on that later...maybe not.  I'm getting punchy.  Insurance company was closed today. They had NO POWER in that town. No new car YET! 
Just heard a transformer blow off in the distance.  Here we go again.

That's All Folks!