D D This is what FIFTY PLUS YEARS can get ya!

You can knock me over....With A Feather!  I shit you not!

Eleven thirty last night I'm sitting at my computer reading blogs and the phone rang.
My first thought...Jill's in jail.  Before I reached for the phone I am willing myself to tell her NO, I will not bail you out.
It was my neice Laurie in FL and she never calls ....................so my thoughts ran to , who died. My brother, my SIL Judy, who????? 
She called to tell me that my brother Larry had left my sweet SIL Judy after 53 or is it 54 years of marriage a few days ago and thought maybe he had called me.
He is with a co-worker that also drives a school bus ...age 54 and has told my SIL that he loves her, BUT isn't in love with her.  sigh!
HIM..the Lothario that has cheated on his wife almost from the beginning of their marriage and HER loving him enough to believe that it wouldn't happen again. sighhhhhhhhhhhh............even with her sister. :0(
Life....IS NOT FAIR!  I shit you not!
My heart is heavy ...for Judy. It is ....like someone has died.
He has cheated ( one hour/night stands ) , but has NEVER left her. 
I will bet my life that Judy has never cheated on him.
My brother had/has that syndrome that Elvis had......once Judy became a mother he couldn't have sex with her .........What ever the Fuck that means.  Not saying that he didn't...cause they have five daughters, but it wasn't him that made the advances and after a while it's an insult. I've talked with my SIL when I have been alone with her when we stayed with them for a week/ a month after I retired or even the last time I saw her this past March when we had the chance to be alone together. 
I still am having a hard time believing this. sighhhhhhhhhhhhh

WHAT NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As for Jill..... no sooner did I post yesterday than Logan called her to ask when she would be coming home.

Was on her way to do a second job. Which i found out this morning that it was a retirement Party for some Jimmy at the VFW.  Which of course meant....once she served and cleaned up and packed the box truck up.... She Stayed . Heard her come in just after midnight not too long after I got off the phone and under the covers.  I had just got hubby on and off the potty and was calling it a night. Then this damned dog or the other needed to go out to pee.  Up, down. Hubby slept til five ish when he had to pee.  Then it was 7.

Since then..........................he HAS SLEPT.  Which has made my morning easy, BUT it can't be good for him. I can't bring myself to wake him for his eight a.m. med's and it's ten after TEN. 

 I am soooooooo enjoying sitting here alone with my thoughts....even if Jill has the washer going. ME BE BAD!

No sooner said...Cash just jumped up on the bed and walked on him. :0(  UNBELIEVABLE....he only stirred. 

Soooooooooooooooo Hurricane Irene is heading my way.  Taking that GIANT Blue Spruce down may have been ESP on my part. That won't be coming down through my roof. :0)

Things do need to be done. That tarp covering Logan's room at the front of the house needs to be secured down better. Lawn furniture to be put away and the likes. 
That's what I have kids for and the Whine Bucket!!!! 
Trish who's blog is This Country Living made me :0) this morning.  She will take me in :0) if the wind takes me away and I happen to land in Australia .
   Grandson Ryan is suppose to move tomorrow. Hired a closed in U HAUL moving truck. We may have a State of Emergency cslled and nothing will be allowed on the roads.  :0(  Mother Nature can screw up the best of plans.
THE NEW POTTY

SHIT, SHIT AND MORE SHIT.

NATURE CALLED. I SHIT YOU NOT!

Hubby woke and needed to use it and one hour later I am back sitting on my ass in front of my computer. What a nightmare!

He wasn't able to assist as good as he has been. Muscles were tight and locked up. 

Oh Happy Day...NOT! 

Jill helped me get him back up on the bed and into a sitting position. Now he has taken his meds and is drinking his first cup of coffee and is munching on Lorna Doone cookies. 

My coffee is cold..I wonder why..................

Son Randy is here......I heard him tell Jill he is tired. This new lady in his life.... is wild........ 

Most helpful info for me was...........If you have Home Owners Insurance call them and put in a claim. 

I called and talked to an answering machine. WHAT....no one in an insurance company works on a Saturday morning at 11 a.m. ???????

This was years of ice build up damage. DUH ME! Why do I pay for Homeowners if not for to USE IT when needed.  I swear if I had a brain I'd be dangerous! I shit you not!

So far my Randy and Jill don't seem to be too worried about that hurricane blowing my shit away. Maybe when the wind starts they will get serious about putting stuff away.

At the moment, Randy is anchoring the second bookcase to a parlor wall so it won't EVER fall over on anyone like I asked him to. :0)  Next project for him is fixing hubby's eyeglasses. A lens fell out last night when he took them off.  Always something..isn't there?

The W.B. is taking this hurricane warning serious as he has been told he will be on call during this storm already.  Not that he is helping to put things away though. 

The wood is so rotted in front of Logan's bedroom that the tarp can't be nailed down, but Randy said he will put our wooden pallets in front of it. They are huge. 

I'm not panicking yet either.  It's beautiful out...even humid.   That's NOW...we'll see about later in the day.

It's called The Calm Before The Storm...isn't it?

For all of you in the path of Hurricane Irene,  STAY SAFE .

I think I did a boo boo. Hubby's legs are in agony.  Too long between time on his pain med. sigh!

He's moaning and groaning..."my legs", "my legs". Nothing like laying a guilt trip on me, but he doesn't even know what time of day it was he woke and when he had meds or what time it is now. .

I've learned my lesson. WAKE HIM UP to give him his pain med on time from now on. I shit you not!

That's All Folks!

D D A little thing

that I forgot to mention .....yesterday.
Hubby slid out of his wheelchair onto the floor again. :0(    He asked me to push him into the bathroom so that he could brush his teeth....which he did. Pulling him out backwards he slid down in slow motion.
NOT TO WORRY....I got a bed pad under him and Logan grabbed one end and I the other and we tugged him slowly into the bedroom. That's as far as we could get though. sigh!
Knew my son Randy was across the street helping Glenn sand his house paint and both came across the street and lifted him back into bed. :0) 
Hubby was up until midnight. Michelle was here still at that time. Her daughter Theresa came with her boyfriend while I was out with Tracie. Jill came home after I left...which was after 8:30 p.m. when Tracie finally came. I did see MY CAR in the Moose parking lot as I passed by there. Earlier I had called her as I figured she was through working.   She was sitting at the Moose with a fresh drink in front of her and didn't want to drink it down fasttttttttt.  No problemo!  Think it was around six o'clock that I talked to her and she said she would come home after she finished her drink.   YEAH...I knew it was BullShit.  
    Soooo the plan was by the ones here to keep hubby awake so He would sleep the rest of the night soooooooooooooo that I could get a good night's sleep.  It didn't happen. :0(
Four fifteen..UP to pee. Five twenty...Up to pee. Six twenty ..UP to pee. Seven thirty..Up to pee. 
I laid back down thinking that I had until 8:45 when the Home Health Aide would be here to bed bath him.     WRONG!
Seven forty five Kathy walks into our bedroom............Jill had let her in.  OOPsie I got the time wrong.
She no sooner left when P.T. Debbie came and  on her TOES came the Visiting Nurse.
Eleven a.m. he falls asleep until one when my oldest son Jay and his wife Kim came as I asked to have her be the KEEPER OF THE OTHER SAFE DEPOSIT KEY and the bank needed her signature.
That done...she took me a few yards further up the street to the grocery store.  
Came home and my daughter Cheryl was here with Trevor.  He's on the computer in the parlor and she is getting sun rays out by the pool.    NO NAP for me. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
It's almost four.   Dang........Jill's been working alot of hours already.  hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Let's see.....it's a funeral that she is serving food for the bereaved.  Hope they tucked that person in the ground already........cause he/she is going to smell soon. These people sure must like to party . Now don't get me wrong...I've gone back to a hall or house after a funeral to partake in some food, but NEVER did I hang around HOURS. Any funeral I have gone to has been in the morning..before noon and maybe at the latest one p.m. left for home.  She left here at 8:30a.m.   
Ohhhh okay....maybe this funeral is anywhere from fifty to one hundred miles away. Cough,cough!
I could call daughter Michelle and ask her what time this went down...but why the hell bother. I know where she is at this hour. I shit you not!
    I'm so tired I'm thinking...silly.   Hope if the Hurricane Irene comes this far in it takes me to A NICE HOME and they take me in.....You know...like an orphaned kitten. :0)

Told Tracie not to come before five as I might get to get a nap in....I still have 50 minutes. Could ask Cheryl not to come in our room and ask Logan,Kenny and Trevor to keep their noise down in the parlor. Something tells me that it would be a lost cause. 
I can DREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's All Folks!

D D One step forward

Slow and steady I go....getting nowhere.
Hunted all over Hell's Creation for hubby's ankle brace. Cleaned out his cabinet and tossed med's that had dates anywhere from 2004 on up OUT. Arranged the shelves in it. Went up on the step stoll to look up on top of the tier wall headboard. Came up EMPTY. :0(
Did that deter me? Hell NO. I ordered one online and also a tray that slides under the wheelchair or a couch so he can SIT UP to eat his meals as the O.T. person Eliza would like him to.
I am still in my pj's and it's after 5 p.m.  :0( 
Helped hubby onto the potty 3xs during the night. Four o'clock was a DOOZY.  Took him a half hour to crap and me to clean him and clean stuff before I could climb back into bed.  
More crap out of him today... the kind that smells...Not words or deeds.  ;0)  Looks like he is doing better in the shitting and peeing department.   Is drinking better now too after that hospital threat yesterday.
   Michelle just arrived so that I can shower and get away a few hours. Jill watched him last night while I shopped at Walmart and went to eat. :0) 
 She went to visit her FIL last night. His poor wife is pretty much doing all his care except for the VNA and Home Health Aide that comes 3xs a week.   Sue is a peach..........and an ANGEL.
I shit you not!
  I'm going to go shower......will take my leave.........................

That's All Folks!

D D Hi and bye

Same shit ....just a different day.
Went to sign my Will and while I was gone a P.T. person came. 
P.T. person didn't want to get him up as his left foot turns over too far and she was afraid it would break, Jill told me.  If you read my diary back in February you know that an AFO was made for that foot, but hubby thought he had been flim flammed when he was in the rehab/resthome in FL and didn't want it from DAY ONE.  It was ALL IN HIS HEAD , but no amount of convincing him changed his mind THEN OR NOW.
I left it in FL and DIL Deb disposed of it. He did not want to get any changes ( needed ) made on it so that he could wear it...so what was the point in keeping it. sigh! 
I have a Dr.Scholl's ankle brace HERE SOMEWHERE,but can't lay my hands on it because I can't remember where I or he PUT IT. :0(  Other P.T. persons have said it's not good enough, but this P.T. person wants to decide that for herself.  Where the EFFFFFF is it?  Like I said I am getting bombarded with shit and information and at times I don't know whether to shit or go blind.  I shit you not!
Huuby didn't rise during the night, which means he did not pee from 10 p.m. to 7 a.m. and then it was only 300 cc's.  Hasn't peed since. :0(  STILL has NOT SHIT since Saturday.:0(  OUCHIE!!!
Beginning this morning,  I gave him only one 5mg oxycodone which I guess is Percocet. . He's been hurting. 
My feelings on this are, we treat our animals better than we treat humans.....but who am I?  Just his wife.
   I got him to lie on his side after I fed him lunch and he's been sleeping. It's 1:45 p.m. I'll lie beside him and if it's meant to be.......I'll nod off. Visiting nurse coming at three.      So much to do............................


That's All Folks!

D D I'm Drowning!

Both in mind and body, I'm working on overload.   

   Hubby sometimes FORGETS what he can and can't do or what he has done.
Trying to strike a chord in his memory gets tiring and is taxing.  This morning he said he was all tangled up and was feeling everywhere to try to figure out what was keeping him from rising to stand to use his potty.
Absolutely nothing was near him or wrapped around him.. "Then why can't I get up" he says to me.  sigh! It took some time with me standing there to get him to CONNECT.
Now he is sitting up and drinking his coffee and eating Lorna Doone cookies. Just asked me who's pictures these are of. WHAT PICTURES?????????  So I ask nicely, what are you looking at. He replied , I can't figure it out. 
A nice lady came to shower him. She was told he could ASSIST. NOT!!!!!!!!!! So she gave him a bed bath.  :0)  Why can't she do this ( meaning me ) he says to her.  I piped up and said I need a break. 
He needed to urinate during this bath and the urinal was appropriately place. Couldn't go.......tick,tick....did not go after a good 5 minutes.  sigh
Last night was the first night that he didn't wake needing to go pee. I'm FULLY aware that  is NOT GOOD. He went before we turned in for the NIGHT around 9:30 and at 7 I had to wake him so he would be wide eyed and bushy tailed for his bed bath.
It just got more bizarre. He wanted to know about the pictures he was seeing. Dog ( Ginger ) on the bed. Told him she WAS on the bed. His eyes have got BAD! I shit you not!
It's time I got my shower and ready to leave here at eleven with him.  I'll be back.

II am beat in mind and spirit. His primary care doctor lowered his pain med to ONE 4x/s a day.
WTF!  He had 2 pain meds at 8a.m. , it was 11:30 and his pain level was 10 from a scale of one to ten .
This arse thinks his confusion is DELIRIUM and the pain med may be causing it. Last visit was ??? and he told me he thought it was his old brain bleeds that have got him to the point he is now. 
What do you want me to do he kept asking and I kept saying , keep him comfortable. Wasted my time and breath. I shit you not!
I'm getting so close to tossing in the towel.  I shit you not!
PLUS I ordered the oxycodone over a week ago to be mailed to the house. Days later I called and asked if they had been sent.  After the party checked it out ......NO. I don't know why Dr. didn't sign off on it. I'll put the order in again. Today I asked the pharmacist in there if it had been mailed. After a search in his computer system, that would ne a resounding NO. WTF! I agreed to wait until Dr.T.  was through seeing the patient he was in with so that the pharmacist could page him and he could fill it.  Forty five minutes of waiting with hubby out in the car with the W.B. and Jill WAITING and him in pain.  Give me a break!
I told the pharmacist that for years hubby suffered in pain as I read the sign on the wall in the doctors office, NOBODY should have to suffer in pain.  For years hubby fought against going on pain meds and SUFFERED. Now that he has asked for pain med he is being made to suffer. 
I don't get it! I shit you not!
    Four p.m. the pomeranian Lady had a groomer appointment.  Where was Jill and the W.B.?
FUCK, if I know. I asked Logan to listen for Papa and ran with the dog.
Randy and a neighbor after working for hours managed to get the old slide on up on his old pickup that he gave to SIL Joe. Randy borrowed it.  They worked their ass off doing it. I haven't asked yet how much it cost to dump it. Dump charges 4 and a half cents a pound and I just handed him a $100 bill and told him to bring me the change back. He's out front now filling in all the deep tire ruts he had to dig to get that rig up on the back of the truck.   I may hand him money from time to time for the work he does, BUT I don't think many people would do what he has done...mostly by himself.
The Prima Dona has been cared for for more years than I care to admit and ......AND.....AND...I don't get no where as much help from her.  She asked me for $50 today until she gets her check later today was what she said. I asked her what the hell she had done with her other paychecks up til yesterdays. 
Ohhhhhhh I hand Gilby money.  I said THAT MUCH incredously.I think he needs to join the service I blurted out.  She and I are not done yet! I shit you not! It's efffin ridiculous to have spent her paychecks already when she has nothing to show for it and I pay her bills.  Yep, I'm sick!!!  Every dog has their day though and my being shit on has it's limits.  When i ask about child support and if she is getting any money.....wellll I got a check 2 ,3weeks ago. Never says for how much. I know sometimes it's $50 instead of $150. Have heard " their trying" in the past. Along with "I know they are not rich." PULEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE.  Like I give a shit.  I AM???????????
They have money for their PRIORITIES and child support isn't one of them, BUT receiving child support from her ex for one child IS. She takes her ex into court when he gets behind. He had a motorcycle accident and couldn't work for awhile so he got behind. She showed NO MERCY!
Different strokes for different folks. 

While I need to vent, I also need to just sit with my eyes closed and try to unwind.  You may not see me every day. It's for a good cause.  CAUSE I'm Fucking WIPED OUT!  Him not getting enough pain med isn't going to be pretty. He is peeing less and less often. Which of course is easier on my body getting him on and off that potty and last night I was the only one waking to use the potty during the night.  Good for me, not for him.  Cheryl and grand daughter Shayla came around 9:30 today to enjoy the yard until it was time for Shay's 2:30 doctor appointment here in my town.  Which of course adds to my edginess.  Then I had to think about leaving them alone here , so I told Cher I was locking the house when I left at eleven.  You know how embarrassing that is to tell you own kid you are locking her out. sigh.
THEN I remembered Logan was here in bed sleeping. Went and told her I forgot Logan was here. Mom, I hope you were not locking the house because you thought I would take something. I wouldn't take so much as an asprin from you she said.   WHAT TO SAY...what the efff did I say back to her.... can't remember.

This morning I went to set my full coffee cup on the counter and misjudged. Hit the end of the counter and coffee flew everywhere which found crying noises but no tears coming from me. 

I got a call from the attorney to come and sign my Will tomorrow.  MY son in FL is like a Philadelphia Lawyer overloading my brain with " what ifs' and other info he thinks is pertinant. I get tired just listening to him or reading his emails. I know he is only thinking of my well being. sigh.
I had told him that hubby's son Michael owed us 35K still for the land we sold him in NH ( where we planned to build one day.) Paid us 15K on the promised date and welllllllllllll SHIT HAPPENS!
IF he pays us before we pass away....all fine and well.  IF NOT , I don't care. So Sonny says, get that put in the Will so the others know my/our intentions and there will be less shit thrown at Michael about him not paying us back.  I called yesterday...and did.   Even before I knew we would get any money, I felt this way and I surprise myself. I would get so aggrevated with Michael as a teenager I would think to myself....he's going to be cut from the Will if I live longer than his dad.  Asking him to do anything was like talking to a WALL. 
Another one...Make a copy of who I hires insurnace. Call their insurance company to see if it's in effect.Copy their license. There was MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Randy just came in asking to speak to me out of hubby's hearing.
"I don't even want to come here anymore." he said. Told him that I didn't want to be here either. sigh
Jill just goes off and does nothing he says.    My reply was when I die and she tells you all the help she was to me...tell her BULL SHIT!  He's ruined his sneakers....he's exhausted from the hard work and when he goes home he has his own work to do.   I HEAR YA!!!!   The shed he worked so hard on is chock a block full of more shit. The second book case I want to bring in when I get the area cleared, a microwave cart I just took out of our bedroom that held what it could of hubby's STUFF, the top of the parlor computer table that we have no where to put up as I have a mirror on my wall there.  Jill will have to do something with it. Nephew stored it as long as he could in his garage and the AXE falls on him 9/3 to be out of his house.
Today was an exceptionally bad day for Randy trying his heart out to get rid of the slide on camper. Glenn across the street worked with him some....both were laboring their hearts out.  While..........Jill and the W.B. LEFT for who knows where, but I can safely assume a bar was part of their destination. You know...just ONE.

   The LOST has returned.  I got paid back. It's time to go get my dog Lady and bring Ginger to get her nails cut.  hmmmmmmmm Jill grabbed her up and asked for the check to pay the groomer.
There are things...that have to be done. Phone call after phone call cuts into my time.
The attorney in Boston that might try to get a settlemet for hubby and be done with the W.C. people called. i couldn't get to the phone. He left a message for me to call him.   Maybe I'll get to it tomorrow. 
 One foot in front of the other.
I also have to think about feeding hubby supper.
It's 6:45. Tracie just came. 


That's All Folks!

D D How apprapo!

The fortune cookie I got last week reads.............Not just live and let live...but live and HELP live.


It's Monday morning.  Hubby woke during the night at least 3x's per usual to urinate and I did the same while I was up.
It's like our bodies are in tune. ;0)

Soooooooooooooooo after his last potty visit at 7:30 a.m. I get him back in bed and he dozes off.
Made our coffee and noticed that the trash had not been put out and it's TRASH PICKUP DAY and one of the trucks comes early. Usually the Prima Dona does this for me.
Just as I am coming in the front door I hear the A/C go on. She is awake......but I digress from what I wanted to say.
Entered our bedroom as hubby is calling out HELP and asked him what he needed. I've fallen, help me get up he said. I'm looking at him lying there on the bed where I last saw him. What? Help me up off the floor, he says. Told him he wasn't on the floor , that he was in bed. He screws up his face and says, "I am?"
More puzzled looks ...then he says, " did the bed break?"  I reply no. More puzzled bewildered looks as he tries to comprehend this and again he say, the bed didn't break?  Told him he must have dreamt it and after more bewilderment on his face he stopped asking and in minutes was back to sleep.  sigh!
   Here I go letting my coffee turn cold ....no different than another day in the past. Just took my first sip and though not HOT..... it was goooooooooooooood,  I shit you not! 
O.T. person Eliza just called. The phone ringing didn't even disturb his sleep. She will be here between 11 and 11:30 a.m.
SHIT! Why didn't I remember to give him his meds while he was awake??? Maybe because it was around  quarter of 8 and it's 8:05 now.  I've been chasing Cash around since she let him out of her room. He is into everything. It's play to him...me trying to get whatever he has in his mouth. Water bottle cap, paper of all kinds, tissue out of hubby's basket, a Depend before i can get hubby back into bed, a flip flop , a shoe. Nothing is sacred. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh   Now he's made himself comfortable on the Lift Chair.
Ha ha at least I can see him and what he is doing and not wondering what the stange sound I'm hearing is.
less footsteps to check on him.  Prima Dona went back to bed.
I called it LIGHTS OUT for hubby and I at 10p.m. and within minutes I heard her come in.
Logan had called her sometime around 6 p.m. and he told me she said she was eating when I asked him if she was still working.  Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... so four hours later she manages to leave her adoring public and come home.  Her voice wasn't slurred as I heard her talking to Logan about the mess he had made of his room and the parlor. BUT rest assured...she had DRINK in her.
Let's see.....she has had roughly NINE hours of undisturbed sleep if I count from 10:30 to 7:30.
While I on the other hand................ let's not go there.  I know hubby isn't her responsibility, but it would have been nice to leave for an hour or so with Tracie. Whom by the way hung around here from 6ish til 9:45.
In one respect...it was good she was here. I had forgot that my nephew was having a yard sale this weekend to sell what he couldn't fit into his new apartment.  Family could have anything they wanted after 4 yesterday.
Son Randy ran me over at 5 ( that's when i remembered ). It was raining....lightly.
OMG!  I am a HOARDER.  He had some very nice STUFF and it will go to the guy that agrees to take everything left behind so that nephew can get 2,500 back.  Two 7 ft tall bookcases that look like brand new.
I will have Randy get them today....DON'T ask me where I am going to put them!!!
I took a laptop case, a brand new pond pump ( need that ) a cheap new computer chair in the box still ( I'll find a use for it ), a new Queen sized blowup mattress and the foot pump to blow it up( Logan's overnight guest as he just has a twin bed now. She took the bunks apart as the ceiling in that room is LOW and  now that he is almost a teenager he or his guest hits the ceiling with their head, arm , as they turn over.
A beautiful Strawberry pie dish with the recipe on it. OKay so maybe I won't be making Strawberry Pie any day soon, but to trash it???  I have an Apple Pie one I have used once.....sigh!
Hmmmmmmmmmmm what other treasures did I take ??????  Better yet, what else would I like to take. He has a huge metal dog kennel (like new), a dog carrier he used in his station wagon ( like new )  two other bookcases ( though smaller and not real wood ), dish set like new ( probably for 4 ), BOOKS Galore, but not my type of reading. He and Patrick are more into History and those kinds of books.
Son Randy kept lifting stuff into the bed of his truck and asking me where I was going to put it. Being smart/cute I said, IN YOUR SHED ( meaning the one he just cleaned out and rebuilt for me. ;0)  )
   Going back a few hours in time ( around 3 ) he told me that shed was ready to USE and to decide what I wanted to keep that was in the slide on camper that has seen better days FOR CAMPING, but made a hellofa catchall. ;0)   While visions of sugarplums ( nap ) was in my head I went out there and began the decision making.  He's looking at the STUFF and saying It's a Joke.....  Some of my cake decorating pans ( novelty cakes ) that I intend to give to grandson Larry's ( wife, girlfriend of over umpteen years, significant other ) a sweetheat Shannon that has got into making these kinds of cakes and does a damned good job of it. Unfortunately.....I only see her in April when it's their daughter's birthday and I missed it this year as I was in FL in April. :0(   Maybe i should hand them to my son Larry and have him deliver them. He goes to their place in NH often.  Ya think???? 
Baby stroller....ex co-worker gave it to me last year.... well I asked her what her daughter wanted for it and she said Take It. This was for that SOMEDAY when a great grand was around HERE to be pushed around the neighborhood.  That SOMEDAY is next year. :0)  A brand new crib mattress from the same person. Me thinks it can be used too.  Chrsitmas lights galore. When Jill took them down she just threw them in black trash bags. Randy's idea is to clean up some milk cases and store them in them.
Styrofoam and plastic coolers x's 7.  Hey! We did have ONE HUGE COOKOUT! We needed every one or close to it. ;0)  BOOKS I've read in boxes.
So much for having a Yard Sale.  Every year was NEXT YEAR.  I shit you not!. 
Must, must, must get these books to my friend Barb amongst others and what she doesn't read can go to the Senior Center orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr into the trash.  Once they are GIVEN, I see NOTHING! ;0)
Bird cages that I used to save baby birds lives.  Kept the tallest one.  Filed the others. ;0( They had no bottoms, I used the carboard from a case of tonic. Easier to get to the bird to feed it, instead of reaching an arm in and scaring it as it tried to huddle away from the arm reaching in.
    Interruption.....hubby woke to pee. Cleaned him up down there ( getting a breakdown  :0( ) and gave him his morning meds, coffee and cookies.  I'm a BAD GIRL.  Late with his pills, but he was sleeping sooooo good and more than likely I was enjoying the peace and quiet as I sat here at the computer.
Another of my FINDS was a wooden tray with mosiac tiles and until I find a lighter one, THIS WILL DO to put hubby's meals, etc. in. Much safer than holding a cup of coffee on your lap. Oh yeahhhhhhhhh! 
   Jill just emerged from her room. 
Cash is aggrevating Lady wanting to play.  Yeah like a 7 pound fourteen year old dog wants to play with a 15 -16 lb pup.  NOT ON YOUR LIFE!  I shit you not!  Oopsie....Jill just asked me if I fed Cash.  Usually I do when I get up .....forgot.  Did give lady her food, but Cash was still in Jill's bedroom when I fed her. Ginger still needs her meal. I feed my two old dogs a cup of food once a day. Then a treat ...when I think of it. sigh!   THE TREAT...that is.
TRAY has to go...too heavy on hubby's lap.    It was back to the carboard box.
   Jill put the second treatment for cash's parasite on him. REEKS to high heaven to some people. I don't mind it, but hubby does. Says his food and coffee taste like the smell and could not finish. sigh!
I had no problem eating my instant oatmeal with fresh stawberries and I'm still nursing my morning coffee.  Making repeated trips to nuke it.
It's almost ten a.m. Will get showered and dressed to be ready for the O.T. person . 
   OHHHHHHHHHH and TV remotes work so much better when they have new batteries in them. Day after day hubby has been saying, " what's wrong with this tv."  New batteries..WALLA!
 Later..................................
10:15 am.  I heard and painful sounding ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh or was that owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Cash had jumped up on the bed and walked across hubby. Wasn't the first time either and I fear it won't be the last. :0( 

 
TA DA..........Randy got the book cases for me and one is in the house and set up.
It's dark wood, but who gives a flying..............................FIG!

Hubby just had to............ask me why I needed that there. And I told him....nicely instead of asking him if he wanted me to put all that shit up his ass. ;0)
I'm pooped....another one to go, but FIRST the dining area needs re-arranging. sigh!  Maybe tomorrow.
O.T. came and she got hubby up into his wheelchair ( it wasn't easy ) and had him to some arm exercizes. Told him if he continues to stay in bed.... pneumpnia and he will have even less strength.  :0(
So while he's sitting there after she was through I asked him if he would like to read the newspaper and put it in his hands.  NO LIE...he sat looking at half of the front page for an hour.  sighhhhhhh
When I tried to get him back in bed...BUT FIRST he needed to be put on the potty he could not figure out how to rise and turn himself around once I sat him on the bed. Now matter how much I explained how he did it to him......nothing  compartmentalized.   Over and over I explained how he always has done it and it got to where he was staring at me blankley and finally said he would just get in bed and piss the bed. 
Suit yourself, I said.  Within minutes he wanted to use the potty and this time he knew what to do.  
P.T. came to evaluate him at 4.  Now it's five.  SURE AS SHIT, Tracie will be walking through the door soon. sighhhhhhhhh
Jill made individual meatloafs for supper and cornbread. He didn't want supper yet, but he's enjoying that cornbread.  :0)  Damned....she hasn't cooked a meal in ages. 
I'll take it!  One less worry for me today.  I shit you not!
He's moaning and groaning. I asked what was wrong and he said it was his legs that hurt all over.
I'll go lie him down now that he's finished his cornbread muffin.


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D D Excuses...EXCUSES

No sooner did I post did I go to make my oatmeal . The sink and microwave happen to be right next to Jill's bedroom. Her opening statement was...I didn't leave him alone long last night.I left right before I knew you would be home because the Hungry Tiger closes at 9:30.   Knew you were not going shopping,blah,blah.  I let her know that I DID SHOP! Over heard you talking about Logan's sneakers being too small and I went into Bob's for a size 9 before I went next door to eat.   Furthermore....why does it take two people to get a pack of cigarettes and why didn't you come right back.  Then the excuses flew....Butchie wanted to go for ONE drink, blah,blah.  To be truthful...I blanked the rest out that she was saying after the One drink.  I did tell her the drink/booze were more important to her than anything else amongst more words. Logan is in the parlor and he hears EVERYTHING NOW.  You know...little pictures have BIG EARS. I asked her what she has been doing with her pay....buying HIM drinks? No reply. Last week he told the bartender at the Moose that she was paying as he had no money and the bartender didn't even embarrass him when he told him that he should be paying.
I couldn't even hold my head up...if it was me.    How sick she has become.  
Of course I got no answer back.   Didn't stop me from saying that it should be SHE that is out buying some little things for her first grandchild after she works instead of hitting the bars.   She hasn't bought a friggin thing and I can remember myself back when my first grandchild was expected.  ONE HUNDRED DEGREES the opposite.    I also touched on  Julie saying that her hubby( EX SIL from HELL ) would not agree to her claiming Logan for this year...next year.
She claims she mentioned going back into court to her if need be. So I asked what she was going to wait for. Him to graduate law school and make it easier for him?????  Noooooooooo...I'll let it cool awhile before I broach it again.  WTF kind of an answer is that?????? 
The W.B. worked at the firestation Saturday.   I have unspoken words STILL for him!  I shit you not!
He's so concerned about hubby...anything I can do for you, just ask he told him Friday.  Yeah RIGHT! Just don't let it interfere with my drinking time, he should have added.
It's only been minutes..a half hour at the most and already I can't remember all that I said to my daughter. sigh!  Hubby has continued to sleep. It's twenty of eleven. I made and ate my Instant Oatmeal.  Banana with fresh banana's and blueberries.  
    Ryan just now came through the front door. Logan is thrilled.  Big brother and him will be spending more hours together today  Football Fantasy begins at 12:30 I think I overheard.    :0)   Young Gill will work this cookout with his mom.  She is unable to get that grille off the truck ALONE no matter what my SIL Joe thinks.  She needs a second person to work these kind of jobs IF NOT for that reason alone.   I can just imagine how Michelle has blown that one disc and ruptured 3 others.  sigh!  Why don't MEN use their heads????
Going to grab my shower while I can.

About eleven forty five I decided to make hubby oatmeal and wake him.  He voided maybe 50 cc's and dug into the oatmeal with sliced up fresh bananas.  Before that Sarah's friend Kara came to set up her Fantasy Football team on her laptop. She and Ryan are at the kitchen table on laptops, him on mine and Logan is on his desktop in the parlor.  The W.B. is online at the firestation setting up his football team.  Such is "modern technology." Ryan doesn't have internet service....his priorities are to pay his rent, utilities and buy food. :0)
Jill and Gil left for work in the W.B.'s second vehicle he let Gil use.  I have the use of my car should I need it.:0)  Not that I expect I can do much, except sit around and eat bon bons. Speaking of which...I just put down 3 of hubby's Russell Stover chocolates....just because he has had them since Fathers Day and hasn't eaten them. Every one else has. Sooooooooooo If you hear me bitch about my weight gain, no ones fault but my own. sigh!  SURE...NOWI have switched to grapes. I shit you not!
Ryan just said to try his chicken wings......so I obliged him. Veryyyyyyyyy good.
I have the HUNGRY HORRORS.  I shit you not!.
  Asked hubby if he wanted to read the newspaper.  That would be a no. Didn't read yesterdays either. Hasn't even asked for his electric razor since he has been home. He shaves every other day or DID !
He asked me the time and how long I had been up when I handed him his oatmeal.  I didn't go into it ( suspect he doesn't remember having coffee ealier ) told him the time and I think it was six thirty or seven when I got out of bed to help him onto his [potty. 
You know what.... I think I'm going to lie down beside him and let what happens HAPPEN zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.  Let the others do their thing and Randy do his outside.  I know I told him I would be out to do some stuff, BUT SHIT HAPPENS! 

Slept....not soundly, but got rested. His brother called to talk to him and I told him I'd call him back when hubby was awake, which I just did. 
They are on the phone as I type. Hubby is telling his younger brother that you start out in diapers and end up in them. Twice in the past ten minutes he has needed to urgently use his potty to pee. Peed some in the Depend and a little in the potty , both times. I set Frank down while I get him on  the potty and then off and they continued to talk.
My DIL Kim came while I was resting and was about to leave when Randy discovered I was up and told her. :0) I would have been sorry to have missed her visit. She's a great DIL . I shit you not!
Told her what's been going down theis past week.  She stays pissed at Jill ( they were best buds ) and told me again...spend your money yourself.  I told her about my will ....all the details as I did Michelle yesterday.
Unlike her step father who  made a new Will out once her mom died and left out her and her brother and her half sister and two half brothers OUT of his Will. Her mom had his two sons in her Will if he went first. 
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh   ....she has been hurt alot and through so much caring for her mom while this heartless bastard wouldn't even give her a cup of cold water like she requested. Tap water or NOTHING was his reply.  Michelle would encourage him to go to the bar and she would care for her. 
Yep, life's a bitch and then you die. Hubby fell asleep on his brother :0) ...I woke him and had him say goodbye, said my own goodbye and hung up.
It's almost 6 now.  Logan called his mom to see if Kenny could sleep over .   He didn't ask and she didn't mention when she would be home.   Tracie came twenty minutes ago and Sarah, her best friend Kara and Ryan have left.
While I was out at the table talking to DIL Kim, hubby called out to me for his coffee. Kim said don't argue with him, meaning don't tell him he had it already and it wasn't morning.  I made his coffee and he asked for his Lorna Doone cookies again.  Drank his 2 cups.  then he ate 3/4 of a hot dog Ryan cooked on the grille. I ate the last bite. His morning came and went, his morning came again followed soon by lunch and it's only 6 p.m. He's sleeping like a baby.  Sometimes he seems and sounds so strong. Not so much in his body though. sigh!
I am giving him his meds and 2 pain pills every 8 hours, more or less.
Randy is leaving for the day and I followed him out so that he could show me all the work he did today. 
ALOT...........Told him if I sound grumpy with him it's because I have alot on my mind and alot going on and all this extra stuff ( although it HAS to be done ) gets me on edge. 
So now I'm down to Tracie, Logan and Kenny. I'd say I'm not good company cause I'm sitting here typing.

Now it's a new day. It's SUNDAY all day;0)
Had a "t r y i n g "time trying to order some school clothing for grandson Trevor online last evening. In the end I had to call my credit card company.  All ended WELL :0)  Got him the velcro closing type athletic/sneakers he needs. Still doesn't know how to tie shoe laces.  :0(  Bought his school stuff last year and he was sooooooooooooooo thrilled with my choices. As it is, I don't know if I bought him the right sizes.  My daughter Cher can exchange them if not.Bought him Mens Medium in underwear as well as in sweatshirts and shirts. Trevor is 11. sighhhhhhh
Obese.  No friends ( that makes him sad ;0( ) ..... bedroom and couch potato.

Hubby ate an entire can of tomato soup for supper and some crackers. :0) He even asked for his electric razor and shaved . :0)
Minutes before nine p.m. I called Jill and my wording to her was, " I know you worked hard all day, but could you please come home so I can go out and eat and look for a better potty chair at the drugstore that's open 24/7." Her words, " sure, let me finish this drink and I'll be right home." She wasn't drunk...YET.
Almost as soon as I made that call a call came from Michelle saying she and Joe would be coming soon to visit. They had just been to visit his dad. He was eating again today. :0)
Jill walked through the door and minutes later they did and I said my goodbyes and headed out with Tracie.
Walked into the OutBack at 9:30 and had clam chowder and a salad. :0) Then it was off to Walgreens.  Saw just one porta potty. It didn't look that much different than my mom's . It does have a t.p. roll hanger though;0)  Took measurements. Didn't purchase it and when I got home AT MIDNIGHT, I discovered that it is 2 inches wider, which hubby could use as he can't wipe his own butt  with the tight space this one has. 
I will look around some more. No where can I find a soft padded thingie to set on top of the toilet seat. :0( 
Hmmmmmmmmmm maybe I should smarten up and LOOK ONLINE. WILL DO! I shit you not!
Hunted down the remote to turn the tv off and had to turn on the lights, which of course woke hubby and it was potty time ...........and I waited and waited.  He woke again at 1:15a.m. to use the potty and again at 2:45.  Again....I didn't look at the time.....and again. It got to where I decided NOT to put a Depend on him as each one he would get urine on AFTER he used the potty. I have a throw rug down in front of his potty. Cheaper to wash than go through Depends like crazy.   Visiting nurse will be here between 1:30 and 3 today.
He is eating good. Drinking  fluids....not as much as he should. He has no strength in his legs:0( They begin to SHAKE as soon as he tries to lift a foot so I can get a Depend on him. This morning he is a different picture. He is sitting up and reading ( as best he can)  the Sunday newspaper. :0)  anddddddddddddd forgot his second cup of coffee was ON HIS NIGHTSTAND.
   Neighbors must think we are going to have a party. Jill took the company van home to head out to do another cookout today. I'll have my car again today.  Hopefully won't need it...BUT IT's THERE!

NOW..........Wasn't that EASY??? Oh yes IT WAS! I shit you not!
Looked online at commodes and Walgreens had one I like. Combination bath chair/commodes and found one with a PADDED SEAT. Killing THREE BIRDS with one stone. ;0)  Didn't get to finish that sentence and he had to urinate.......alllllllllll of about 50cc's. :0( 
Okay now to vac and make this bedroom somewhat presentable and give him a bed bath before the nurse comes. It's minutes away from eleven...tick,tick,tick.

The nurse has come and gone. Feeding hubby some chicken noodle soup and I know he will be snoozing soon because.....he had just fallen to sleep when the visiting nurse came. ;0) 
Looks like we might get some rain.  I'd sure enjoy listening it to fall to sleep by, but something tells me I can sleep WITH OR WITHOUT IT. I shit you not! 

One of Logan's friends accidently let Cash out the front door.  The chase is on, but I'm not getting in it This Time.  This dawg will be the death of me YET. I shit you not!


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