I AM WOMAN! Hear me ROAR! February 2012

I  AM WOMAN! Hear me ROAR!  February 2012
WARNING !! Not for those with a short attention span. ; 0 )

Saturday, July 16, 2011

D D Here we go again !!!!!!

Hubby hasn't been given his pain meds and was in agony with pain this morning when I talked to him.:0(
His voice belied his tough act and he begged me to call the front desk and tell them he needed something for pain. Hurt everywhere....not just the neuropathy in both legs. Nauseas. 
Finally got to speak to his nurse....he hasn't complained of pain to me she tell me.  I TOLD HER he gets pain meds every six hours here at home like clock work. The only thing I ASK HIM is one or two pain pills.
He was assuming that he has been getting it with his other meds and NOW he KNOWS different.
I heard from HIM, " they are killing me ma."    Complaint of stomach pain  still ( which is actually in his bladder area.) Throat hurts. He shit himself again and his ass hurts. sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  
They took his vitals while I was on the phone. 150/90.  Far cry from the 8th of this month at the time of his primary doctor appointment. 100/60.   But...NOT the worst it's ever been.  Pain increases his blood pressure.

I'd like to SKIP completely over my yesterday, but I'll touch on it.
Being that the exit I normally take is closed in the direction I go to get to the hospital, I turned left instead and went over the highway and made a right further up the road and traveled and traveled.  Thank you Lord that he was not moaning and I could keep MY COOL.  Finally came to an intersection, turned right and went over the highway again. Drove some more and eventually spotted a small older Newton Fire Station and I stopped, knocked and got directions. :0) I was traveling in the RIGHT DIRECTION :0). me who can get lost in my own neighborhood! I shit you not! ( Tracie knows the small side streets that will take you to a main street , NOT I. )
Six miles or so more and one turn, I was there. :0)
    FORGOT to mention that I had pulled into a rest area to use my cell to call Jill and ask what exit I should take .  DEAD BATTERY!!!  I shit you not! :0(  So PUNT it was!
   I made some calls before I left the house. His P.T. to cancel her visit. Son Randy to tell him where I would be when he came to work on the shed. Cheryl ( as she planned to come with Trevor to swim. )
Three and four lane highways ARE NOT MY FRIENDS, but you gotta do what you gotta do and it wasn't as bad as I feared.  Actually enjoyed the tie ups when traffic was bumper to bumper . It's merging into one highway from another that scares me the most. :0(
Traveled almost 40 miles going and 29 miles coming back.

I left hubby in the E.R. after noon. It's a battery of tests they perform before he goes to a Floor ,which generally takes a GOOD 6 hours.  I shit you not!
Cat Scan, blood work, more blood work, urine sample. Had to insert the catherter for that. :0( 
I MYSELF can't understand why it takes so long to get him up on a floor and into a bed once they say, " we are admitting him."  BUT IT DOES and we have been down that road more than a few times now.
   Once home....no accident or near accident, :0) Randy was working on the shed and Cher and Trevor were here.  My yakity,yack daughter. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!   Ninety percent is all about HER. sigh!  My mind just wanted some rest before I started the cleanup of the bed, shit pot, etc.
Grandsons wife Sarah came to sit out in the yard and read. She was no problem. Saw her come in...we said hello. Saw her when she left, we hugged and said goodbye. :0) Told me she would tell Ryan to come here Sunday to look at my pool pump. The pressure thingie is acting up.
Tracie came sometime around 6, Cher and Trevor left sometime after and Randy left minutes after her.
I had called the E.R. twice by then. First time they handed him the phone. He was in and out of that cubicle/room so many times for tests that he didn't know if he was on a floor/ward or still in E.R.
They put an IV in him before I left as once again they had trouble finding a vein. He was dehydrated....which makes him CONFUSED.  
After 6 he was on a Floor,but sleeping the nurse that answered said.
Tracie and I went up to the Dollar Store in the Center.  We have only had this store, maybe going on two years now. I love it! I shit you not!   Doggie Poop bags and dryer sheets ...HERE I COME!  :0)
Two stores away is the Burlington Coat Factory.  hmmmmmmmmmmmm let's take a walk through there.
WHAT DID I SEE, but a Pack and Play by Grayco that has even music and a rocking motion and,and and. 
Had an employee get the last box down for me. :0) baby shower gift for Ryan and Sarah.  Heard her say that she wanted one. OMG! OMG!  What beautiful things they make for babies. :0)
   Had a salad and fish chowder at Good Thymes, then back to the house. Talked to hubby's nurse . He was sleeping.  She said something about him having a UTI , but that can't be what is causing
all his problems.  :0( More testing to be done. 
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooo Tracie and I are sitting in my bedroom. It's 9 p.m. The phone rings.
It's my Randy on the other end. He is locked up at the police station in Nashua,NH. Needs bail money.
He had been locked up since 7:30 p.m. 
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm leaves my house after 6p.m. to drive a 40 minute drive maybe . What kind of trouble could he get into????  Long story short, Tracie wouldn't hear of me driving in the dark that distance and drove me. I owe her BIG TIME!  A tank of gas!!! 
Long story short.... He pulled into his driveway and began to clean his truck WITH his radio going and a neighbor called the cops to complain.  Randy admits to me that he used a poor choice of words. He was B.S. at the complaint as this neighbor has called three times before and each time the cop didn't think it was that loud, BUT told him he could lower the base and  if he had to come back on a complaint of loud music again ( they know about his previous convictions and treat him like shit ) ( hey...Shit happens when you get in trouble with the law ) and he told the cop he could bring back his captain, his gun and cuffs and then called him a Fucking Rookie.  With that the cop went to grab him, he got inside his door, the cop tore the screen door off , pepper sprayed him and cuffed and arrested him. So charges are Resisting Arrest, Simple Assault, Disturbing The Peace .....  I can win it in court,ma."  Like how the Fuck can YOU WIN IT???? 
I'd like to know how Tracie and I can get the sleep we missed back.  I shit you not!
Tracie drove all back roads as she too does not like highways either. Then we dropped Randy off . Then backroads back to the house. It was twelve thirty a.m. when I crawled into bed. :0( 
Woke at 6. Let dogs out. Climbed back in. SOB ...Cash has learned to get up on MY BED! 
Thirty minutes later I got up and fed him his 6 o'clock meal at 6:30.  His nose is wet and he kept coming up to my face to nudge me. sigh!  Cute, I don't think so. ;0).  Poor Ginger, my bed is her Safe Harbor from Cash. :0( 
   I'm ( well the washer and dryer0 are doing laundry, have talked with hubby and his nurse and once again I told him he has TO ASK for pain meds. Velma his nurse says he never asked. HE SAYS HE HAS. OVER AND OVER!  He siad he thinks they are trying to kill him and just want him to die. sigh!!!!!!!!!  
After a few attempts to call and cancel his dermatology appointment on Monday I was successful. :0)
RANDY STILL has not shown his face here. It's 10 a.m.  
MUST get busy . Put clothes from washer to dryer, vac, drink a HOT cup of coffee.  Have kept letting my coffee get cold..per usual. 
   Daughter Michelle was in agony when I spoke to her last night to tell her where her dad was. . They won't RX a pain med. because it won't touch the pain. nerve being pinched. Shooting pain in rectum, etc. gave her steroids which she was about to take when I called her.  Hope they give her some relief. sigh!
   I seriously doubt that Tracie knows any back roads to the V.A. Hospital in West Roxbury. 
Must decide when i want to make that drive today orrrrrrrrr IF.
Randy just arrived. I don't know if I got through to him that even if the case is dropped in court, HE WON NOTHING!   Screen door ruined, he was pepper sprayed and spent hours in jail, time in court, $40 to the bondsman. ( I get my money back when he appears in court. 1K    ) 
He needs to learn to kiss cops asses. Talking down to you...is NO CRIME! They can do it !
I shit you not!

That's All Folks!

Friday, July 15, 2011

D D Strike UP The Band!

It's still Thursday , July 14th  ...Tracie found my car keys !!!!!!!!!!! 

Where were they you ask....In my car on the floor where I must have dropped them when I lifted my two dogs to carry them from the car into the house after their grooming appointment. 
How she saw them, I'll never know, but I am grateful she did.  
One PROBLEMO!!!  Keys were in Locked Car!  :0(  
I have AAA. Did I remember that? Hell NO!!!!  My son Randy did. :0) He didn't want to scratch up my car using a coat hanger and reminded me that I had AAA.  They came in less than a half hour.  I thanked the young man for opening it for me. Wanted to grab him and KISS HIM. ;0)

Hubby hasn't been doing well today. 
Hubby has the RUNS......AND I mean THE RUNS!  I shit you not!
I've cleaned shit and emptied the shit pail right up to now.
He hasn't bothered to even turn the TV on today.  Very unusual...can't remember a day that he hasn't reached for the remote control upon awakening.  
It's almost ten p.m. This time when I tried to help him he was swinging his arms and saying, "just get away from me."   Moans and groans and when I ask him what's wrong, he tells me " nothing." 
He just dozed off anddddddddddddd is sitting up on HIS BUTT.  :0(
P.T. came today and worked with him a little. Kept telling him he needed to lie on his sides and shift positions frequently. It went in one ear and out the next. :0(  She had him on his side and as soon as she left he went right back to lying on his back.   That warning of not wanting to get horrific bed sores she gave him has gone unheeded.   He has a bedsore that has scabbed over. He can't feel it he tells her, even when she presses that area.  "Believe us, it's there", she told him.
Today he has been like he isn't even here ...like his mind is miles away.   Worrisome.

Managed to get an hour of rest/sleep myself between one and 2 p.m.  Was laying there looking out and saw a hummimgbird.  Why do I always get so excited when I see a hummingbird?  I DO!  I DO!
Up I got and changed the nectar in it.  It's been up a few days in that hot, humid weather and needed to be dumped and refilled. 

Randy worked up until 6 p.m. today on the shed. It will look like a MIllion Bucks when he gets done with it! :0)  He has caulked every seam and opening.  His idea is to install an animal door instead of just making a cut out. Charlie is going to love his Winter Home this year. :0)

Tracie bought hamburger and buns for our supper tonight. I shaped them and cooked them on the G.Foreman.  I did partake... :0(   Delishous !  Hubby played with his and ate round and round the bun. Left a huge round center.  Don't know what his problem was and I didn't ask.  He would have probably given me his standard answer, " it tastes like shit. " 

Listening to hubby snore quietly is making me want to join him in Dreamland. So...I WILL!
BB in the morning, Lord willing.

Friday July 15th

This is how hubby has been since I retired for night. NO change!  BUT, he did yell at me to get off his arm just about 5 a.m.   It was Ginger who had changed her sleeping position and stepped on his arm.
He insisted it was me, even though my back was to him. sigh!  By then,,,I was wide awake. Well, maybe not WIDE, but awake none the less.  :0(   Time to un-kennel the other two dogs and put them out in the back yard . Cash wanted loving this morning and I could swear he made crying sounds as I petted him. Must miss my daughter who is his surrogate mother.  You see where Ginger sleeps??? That's her pillow. MINE is the one below it.  Much easier to give her a pillow than have her curled around my head. :0)
Now he is curled up in Ginger's bed at my feet...Snoring softly.
   Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm HOT COFFEE!
I'm getting to drink my first morning cup without interruptions, BUT not without foreboding.  Hubby has never gone the entire night without using the urinal or the porta potty. :0( When I realized that he was in the SAME POSITION as he was last night, I looked in both.  NO URINE. Which means NO OUT-PUT!  sigh!  Which means...........NOT GOOD ! I shit you not!    His voice was strong and he seems to be resting quite comfortably.  A soft rythym to his light snoring. I used to listen to it before I could fall asleep at night for years. Call me CRAZY. His light snoring would help me to fall asleep. ;0)  Now I'm getting to where I could fall asleep sitting up like he use to do. Three times I asked yesterday, " do you want the TV on?" last time he said, " do I have to have it on?" 
When I climbed into bed last night I watched him sleep for quite awhile and then told him to remove his glasses ( which he did) , asked for a good night kiss, "okay", said he and  like on cue, he began snorning like he had never been awake in the slightest. No kiss goodnight. Won't be the FIRST. In past years he wouldn't kiss me goodnight when he was pissed at me. My heart would be broken and I would cry for hours while he peacefully snored and would wake with ugly puffy eyes.
THEN there came a time when .....I CRIED NO MORE. :0( sigh!
I lay facing him most of the night on my right side. I have always slept better on my left side. Not that these days ANY POSITION is good. :0(    Dang if those leg cramps weren't back early this morning. THEY sort of made my decision to get out of bed EASIER. I shit you not!
   It's his pill time now. 6 a.m.  I'm going to go pour a second cup of coffee for myself , drink some and then wake him up ( if only just to take his pills.)

It's another efffin NIGHTMARE. Shit his pullup before he could turn around to sit on the porta potty. 
BRIGHT RED BLOOD. No urine. Just soupy shit and BLOOD. His stomach is killing him. Looks like another Foley Catherter is needed to get the urine he has retained out of him.
Taking a quick rinse and getting him to the hospital.

That's All Folks!!!!!!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

D D More,more,MORE

Days with less Drama and confusion. Pullllllllllllllleeeeeze!
A self portrait of MOI!!!!

On the whole yesterday wasn't bad. On a scale of 1 to 10, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm  maybe a 3.
Most of my irratation was with the dang puppy.  He just WON'T MIND!
Won't come when he is called. Picks up things I drop and runs off with them. I chase him all over the yard and guess what??? I never catch him. Go Figure!  Now the little lamb ( cough,cough ) just went into Ginger's bed under my desktop and is preparing to nap at my feet.  What an angel. NOT!!!! ;0)
I have never had a dog this head strong and stubborn to the point of seeming brain dead. I shit you not!
Scolding does me no good.  If I can catch him...key word is IF ....I am going to give him Time Out in his kennel after he misbehaves.  Won't hurt to try it...eh???
That cartoon is one of his expressions when I scold him.  Like: Who ? MOI???

The most upsetting part of my day yesterday was when I couldn't locate my car keys....and I still can't.
Tracie and I have searched High and Low.   :0(
Yeah...she didn't miss a day coming. Used the phone to call her doctor for pain meds and hung around waiting for a call back until 6:30 p.m.  By then I had fed hubby and there was no time to go to Khols ( senior day ). Ryan had come to walk Cash around the block/BLOCKS and we headed to GoodThymes.
Made a quick stop on the way home to get hubby's Lorna Doone cookies and some fruit for me.  When Tracie left she said she would be back today around 3....sigh!
I called my Cheryl to see if she picked them up off the kitchen table by mistake. Noooooooooooooooo.  Now I'm wondering if my Randy did.  I don't even want to think that somehow Cash got ahold of them and they are God Knows Where. :0( 
Randy did some more work on the shed after he spent an hour yesterday morning purchasing the supplies.
Hey! Guess what? Building materials COST. I shit you not!
Another way to look at this is....when he is here, I know he isn't possibly getting IN TROUBLE.
He worked until 4p.m. when the rain began to fall and his wood got wet, so he couldn't prime the pieces.

Hallelujah !!!! I have learned how to get my Voice Messages from the phone.  AND same with my cell phone.  Only took me over ten years to even try to get a message from my cell phone. They all were from when I was in Florida.  Was nice to hear some of my grands calling to wish me a Happy Birthday. :0)
I had both phones to my ears yesterday ...listening and deleting. Picturing myself....I wanted to laugh OUT LOUD.   These are some funny times we live in.  I shit you not!

Cash just drug in a dead branch off one of my rhodendruns. NOW...did he break this off  a day or days before or????  He does like to chew on wood and goes to those plants to chew on them.  sigh!

The rain wasn't steady after it began to fall. BUT after eleven p.m. the sky opened up. We needed the rain.
   I had the house locked up and at ten p.m. a knock came at the door. Daughter Michelle to visit her dad and I.        L5 thru L1 are herniated. She was given some meds, but none have touched the pain. :0( 
I read online that 90% of herniated discs can be healed without surgery.  She hopes all five of hers can be. Can't blame her there.  Has an appointment at some ? Clinic today.  Primary is still on vacation. :0(

Haven't heard a word from Jill.  I'll ASSUME that she is having a good time !!!

Cher and Trevor may or may not come over today. 

I keep getting up to do things and keep my eyes peeled for my car keys.  So far...nada.    :0(
making out bills, calling the V.A. to get med charges removed and now I need to call another number....the Fee Basis department  to see if the balance on bills from  FL hospitals will be paid.
Cher, just called. Not coming.  maybe tomorrow. 
I've showered and hubby wanted in to take his shower before I dried my hair.  Now he's out and after I cream his ass and scrotum I can dry my hair. Did I tell you that he has a sore with a scab on it on his ass?????  Thankfully it's scabbed over.  He never remembers to lie on his side. sigh!!!!!

Nice day, no humidity. :0) Cher said it's a good day for me to work in the yard....  maybe in my next life. ;0)
DID get the pans scrubbed with brillo before ten yesterday.  :0) YAY ME!!!
Even arranged them nicely...for the MILLIONTH TIME.  Just like the fridge...nothing gets put back where it was taken from.   I'm GUILTY of it too. 

Roses for you Pearl.
Another blogger ( Pearl ) sent me info on where to order GOOD Zinc and Vitamin D5000. She's a PEARL and a PEACH. :0)    If these work to quell my night pains, I'M GOING TO MARRY HER!!!   



As you might be able to tell, I feel more relaxed today being ( as you can see ) I am playing around with these thumbnails I have stored away. 
P.T. coming between 11 and twelve.
Grandson Ryan just called. He asked Logan's friend Kenny to come walk Cash. He should be coming around 2 and Ryan will come again after work to walk him.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS  Life is GOOD!!!

NOW if I could only find my car keys. :0( Won't find them sitting here on my ass in front of the computer.
I shit you not!


That's All Folks!






Wednesday, July 13, 2011

D D Who's NEXT ?????

One after the other they come.
Visiting nurse was suppose to come at ten.  Lo and Behold  as I was ready to step into the shower at 9:30, who but apprears???? YOU GOT IT!  The nurse.
I turned the water off and threw on my housecoat.  :0(
One half hour or so later, she leaves and I hustle into the shower. Dry off and dress and go to dry my hair.
Physical Therapist is at the door.  I didn't even know she was coming. That's what YOU GET when you don't listen to your phone messages.  :0( Jill AGAIN before she left...showed me how to do it. 
I was home all day yesterday, except for when I took hubby to the V.A. for his appointment and figured there were NO MESSAGES.  THATS WHAT FIGURED....Gets Ya! 
   Randy has been IN and OUT asking for things.. Radio, black trash bags...and I stopped what I  was doing to go get them for him. sigh!
It's now eleven ten a.m.  P.T. is still here and I just remembered I hadn't eaten.  Nuked my oatmeal, threw in some blueberries and now that should keep me awhile.  Will have a LATE LUNCH.
It's now 85 and the A/C still doesn't seem to have cooled the house off as it was at 6a.m. 
I am entertaining the thought of cleaning the broom closet out. It's SMALL and CROWDED and also taking my old Faberware pots and pans out and scrubbing the bottoms with a GOOD cleaning solutions. Brillo and ????  One would think those two things that can't be seen by anyone but Jill and myself are the only things that are needed to be done.   ONE would be WRONG!  I shit you not!
It's just what is bugging me at the moment as of yesterday and today.  Opened closet to get Randy a bag and had to DIG and DIG around.  Washed the pots I used to cook supper in out last night and noticed for the MILLIONTH TIME that they needed a good scrubbing.   Did I do it 99,999 times ago.  GUILTY as charged! Will I do it today........ DON'T BET ON IT!!!
   Eleven fourty P.T. leaves. Hubby dozes off before she makes her entries in her computer. I see her out and I open the broom closet and take a few things out.  Randy needs disposable gloves to prime all the wood where it slides together so I STOP what I am doing to bring him those and look as he leads me around to see what he is doing and what he has done already.  I should have taken a before picture. The ground wasn't level around the shed and now it is . :0)  He has done alot of prep work and after he is done ( which won't be today ) he will run PPC pipe from under the house to the shed and run electricity out there. :0) :0)  Not that I have to go in there often....BUT when I do :0).
Chery called the minute I stepped back into the house. Will be here in a half hour.  MORE FUN begins around 12:30.   BACK to the broom closet...maybe I will get the bottom of that done before she and Trevor get here.   87 degrees now.  Hot and HUMID!!!  I shit you not!

No sooner than I get the broom closet organized the best I could , Cher and Trevor came through the door. Ten minutes later while Trevor is happily ensconced in the living room computer in me in MINE ... THE POWER WENT!  I shit you not!
HOLY SHIT!!! What a revolting developement!  Trevor is autistic and he is imagining all kinds of things. Two many extensions, electricity shut off, etc.  He was dead set on using that computer that he had to be torn away from last night and THIS HAPPENED.  sigh! Cher finally got him calmed down and he went out to swim. I promised him he would be the FIRST ONE after ME to know when the power came on. ;0)
Hubby was still snoozing away.  Oh how I envy him!  I shit you not!
Sat up in a chair and watched him sleep and said to myself.....SELF...what the Hell. Went to the door and told Cher that I was going to lie down and hoped to fall asleep. Please use the other door.  Just once...she opened it to show me a pool pillow that she brought from her old pool and I thanked her and finally dozed off. Right around 2 the electricity came back on and Trevor knew it before I did.  He must have heard the radio that Randy is using come on.  My eyes flew open to the clock. Was it a hal hour ago that i lay down???  Hubby decided that he needed to get up and pee in his porta potty and Trevor could not get online and needed my help. He read the warning that we no longer have Norton security on that computer and thought it was broke. sigh!   I go in to help him and I hear MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA    MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA   MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA  
WTF???????????????? I run back to my bedroom and there hubby is down on the floor with his pants down.  I saw he wasn't hurt. I saw that the porta potty didn't tip completely over and the bucket spill.  I knew I had to pee, so I ran to the bathroom.  Then I helped hubby up.  Righted the porta potty.  The transport chair along side of it was what stopped it from tipping completely over.  :0) 
Back to help Trevor get online and back to my computer where I presently sit. It's 2:45 p.m. 
Cher has to leave to go get Dana at 3:30. I have to have Lady to the groomers for 4.  She will be back with Dana to relax, swim and cook on the grille.  
I fed Cash around 6:30 a.m. and got side tracked and didn't remember mine needed to be fed around noon time. Haven't seen Hide nor Hair of Charlie today. Opened his package of wet food when I fed Cash and called for him.  Randy hasn't seen him around since he has been working out there either. :0( sigh!
Tracie should be around any time now too.  :0( Yesterday she was having a heart attack watching the new owners of her parents house throw things out into one of those huge dumpsters you rent. . Washer, dryer, you name it.  Yes, I can only imagine that it was hard to watch. :0(   People want new or their own appliances.  There was moocho stuff left in the house to be thrown out and the owners are at it again today.

I want to F'N SCREAM!!!  V.A. in Boston called. Apparently there was a mix up in his meds and one that his Primary said he could do without was MAILED OUT yesterday. Do Not Give Him!  ...  I would have known that, but okay. Then she goes on about what I do give him and how their list hadn't been updated as to what the FL V.A. RX'd him.  One by one I took them out of the carring case I keep them in and went over them with her. It was at THIS TIME that the efffin puppy decides to take Ginger's pee pad and tear it to smithereens.   From one end of my bedroom into the diningroom. :0( I grabbed a broom, chased Cash out and with one arm I am trying to sweep up the big and medium tatters before I use the vacuum all the while talking on the phone about the meds and can't I find the time to come into the Pill Clinic to show them what I have and get everything on the list updated and also what he still has a supply of from Florida.
I JUST DID THAT on the phone with her!  WTF!!!! 
Told her what I would be doing while Jill runs him there to his dermatology appointment ( it's not getting my nails done, I shit you not! ) and if Jill has the time to run to their end of the building, I will send along his carrying case with his meds.  Someone was trying to call in. Must have been Dana to be picked up. sigh!
Then I grabbed the vacuum and swore the entire time I ran it. My right arm got aggrevated more and hubby slept through the damn noise just inches away from me. 
I GIVE UP!!!!  No rest for the weary and it's only 4:04 p.m.
In minutes I will get to hear Dana and Cheryl squabble.  She is forever yelling and telling him to shut the fuck up. He yells back, don't tell me to shut up. 
Ut Oh...Groomer called.  I'm late, I'm late for a very important date.  Got to get Lady over there.

4:29 p.m. I'm back.  Before I left I set Lady on the back lawn to do her business. Cash thinks she is his play toy and won't leave her alone. Either wants to HUMP her or drag her around.:0(  Wrestled her away from him and with a FULL BLADDER ( myself ),  drove the mile and a half to drop her off.  NOW I only need to remember to pick her up at 6:30 at which time I bring Ginger to get her nails cut ONLY.  On the way home I prayed for RAIN.  Then had second thoughts as Randy wouldn't be able to do the work he is doing for me. I rather pass him some bucks for doing the work to supplement what I can than to give it to another rpeairman. Randy works CHEAPER! I shit you not!   It's only times that he needs to pay car insurance and the likes that I hand him money for his work. Otherwise ...it's just gas money to and from New Hampshire.
Hubby is still dozing. Comes to every once in awhile when there is a disturbance and dozes off again. 
Must be nice. I wouldn't know.  sigh!
Here's the pics I promised.

Jill before her flight
Randy my RUG DOCTOR ;0)

Cheryl and Dana
What the F is he looking at?
suns in her eyes
New pics today
Cher again

and Cher and Dana again .   I spy Trevor in the pool. :0)


The shed and Randy. Look at the bottom of that shed. U G L Y ROT!

Randy's work area he set up.
4:55 Tracie is here. BRB

Boards he is putting primer on.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

D D Me, myself and

I had a miserable night. The afternoon was just a little better.
The pain in my arms woke me several times and the pains/cramping/spasming in my legs was Excruisiating!
I shit you not!
So you ask...when am I going to do something about it.... I don't make time for me ! 
Yesterday was hubby's time to see his Primary and get his meds straightened out. It appears I have done just fine ( P/P was 110/60 and pulse was 88 ) at the time of his visit.
No more fuss about the dropped med by the V.A. in FL as that is most likely what kept his pulse LOW and why he felt dizzy all the time. 
Ahem....it appeared yesterday that no one from the V.A. during his last hospital stay put in for a urology appointment. :0(  His Primary doctor will. :0)
Today the visiting nurse will be here at ten and sometime this morning a P.T. person will call and tell me what time she will be here today. 

My son Randy called me in the morning and asked what I'd like done. I MENTIONED THE RUG.
After much talking ( from him ) about the machine I bought not doing the job that was needed THIS TIME, I gave him the go ahead to rent an industrial rug cleaner at Home Depot. " The RUG DOCTOR."
I kind of liked their TV ads. :0) " I could have saved that one."  While mine is beyond saving, it will always show the OLD STAINS ...the SMELL and DIRT/GRIME are out of it. :0)
Not only did he spend hours cleaning my bedroom rug, but he did the section in the livingroom where everyone comes through from the back yard and Jill's bedroom rug. :0)
Came at ten...left at 4...which meant confusion and upheaval with things being stacked and moved out of rooms. Some to the back yard.  Whatever it took ... I WAS FOR IT!
He went through 3 jugs of rug shampoo !!!!   Money well worth spending. I shit you not!!!
Had to leave to take hubby for his appointment and leave him here alone...which I don't like to do. 
Hid hubby's pain med.......ain't that a Hell of a Note!!!!  
Randy has them RX'd for himself, BUT I'm sure you can always use MORE. 
Told him that Cheryl and Trevor would be coming soon and he helped me get hubby out and into the car.

UT OH !!!!!!!!!! I hear W.B.

Went to the door and there stood a trembling broken man. She sent him a text while he was at work last night telling him she would not be home. ( I'm guessing thats all she said as). Asked me where she went. Told him FL and he put two and two together that she went to see Chris. Like I have said before, he has known Chris for many years as young adults when they lived in the same neighborhood in B.
Jill has know Chris since they were kids when Chris and his mom lived up the street from us in this part of  B.
He was her first puppy love.  She looked after his mother after he married and moved and was the one that found her dead on her bed after coming home to get a ladder to look through windows.
They go back a long way....Chris was free with his hands back then and readily admits it. 
They will always be FRIENDS , maybe more some day after Logan is grown as he bought a house in FL and maybe it's just wishful thinking on my part.  WE and her 3 sons LIKE Chris very much.
As I said before, Ryan invited him to his wedding and he did come.
   So Butch stood and bled his heart out to me......and I had to agree with him on some of the things he said.
Once again I had to remind him that she does things to me too, but I'm her mother and she will always be my daughter.  Hint..Hint... he can walk away, like he should have done LONG AGO.
Repeatedly he said she has not taken to his 7 year old daughter ( oops,I thought she was 8 ).
 Instead of agreeing with him that she would rather be in a bar than doing something with him and his daughter I should have told him HE was the fool to have stayed around this long.  If someone doesn't want to be around you when you have your child for visitations....Fuck them!
She has told him repeatedly they were not going to be married.  So what the Hell is the sense???? 
You CAN'T make someone love you.   These 6 words I have told him before.  sigh!
Told me he loved us like family and if I need anything this week to call him as he has the week off.
Ouch! He mentioned his birthday is this week too. 
Hell...I know the pain he is in, BUT...... while I feel for him...I can't quite reach him. 
;0) That last line was something we teens used back in MY DAY.  :0)

SO Cher and Trevor came while I was gone. While admiring the cleaner rug she mentioned that I should make it a new rule that no one goes through my bedroom.  GUESS WHO came in through my bedroom the most while she was here. ;0)  Yakkity Yak Yak the entire time she was here.
Do what you have to do mom. Don't let us stop you. Who did I have to stop what I was doing the most and talk to? You Got It!!!  She left to go pick up her hubby from work at 3:30 and was back by 4;30. Asked if she could leave Trevor here and by this time he was at the livingroom computer playing games.  No problem.
Stopped what I was doing to give him a snack and juice and to answer his questions. No biggie. 
THEN the parents were back and Dana was still furious over their daughter Shayla and what she tried to pull.  No boys in while they are gone rule and she calls him to ask what he was doing. Did you go to nana's , she asks him..
Shayla isn't TOO BRIGHT!   I say this because....she NEVER calls him. Right away he knew what she was up to.  She might as well have called and asked if THE COAST WAS CLEAR.  I shit you not!
The boyfriend just stopped by and why can't we just sit on the couch and watch TV and, and, and. It's hot outside.....blah,blah,blah.  He told her NO, and he was sending her brother to the house to make sure he wasn't there. Dana was FUMING!  I shit you not!
Cher on the other hand was.....not.  Making excuses for her..  Isn't that what us mothers do for our kids????
If dana wasn't in the house telling me his woes and how badly my daughter treats him because of his MISTAKE on selling their lottery ticket to a flim flam artist and his PAYING BIG TIME with her mean mouth.  Oh how well I know THAT MEAN MOUTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Poor SOB works for $12 an hour to pay rent of a thousand a month and put food on the table and pay utilities, and, and, and.   THEN gets HER SHIT on top of it!    sigh!
Twenty years they have been together.  He needs a MEDAL , I shit you not!
   When Dana wasn't inside CHERYL WAS !!!  YAKKING. Most of her talk was RAT TRAP!!!
....per USUAL !!!!  I shit you not!
NOW.......TOP THIS OFF with Tracie showing up !!!!   She hung around for the COMEDY SHOW.
Better entertainment than an apartment with No TV.  Well she does have a huge new flat screen TV that she bought with the bonds her parents bought for her, but hasn't bothered to get it hooked up to a cable company. sigh!!!  Eventually she went out in the back yard  for some of the time where ONE or The OTHER of them were. :0) 
I made hubby and I Shrimp Cacciatore. It was a planned meal.  Tracie does not like this, so that worked out to my advantage. She left at 7:45 as i told her I was watching the Batchelor and Cher,Dana and Trevor left after they managed to PRY HIM AWAY from the computer around 7. 
They had brought back McDonalds food for Trevor and some DRINKS for themselves at 4;30 and were having their supper later. 
It all begins OVER AGAIN today! Sigh!!!!!!!  They will be back!!!!! ...Cher and Trev early afternoon and Dana after work and will bring foods for a cookout. 
Excuse me plz if I don't sound thrilled. ......sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
   Randy is already here. He came about 15 minutes ago.  Picked up most of the stuff he needs to repair and re-inforce my wooden shed.  I gave him $300  The entire bottom is rotting out of it because I had cement blocks up against it all around it to keep critters out from under it and the wood couldn't dry. It's cheap stuff that hubby used to build it and Randy is going to go over it with the same stuff...SANS the cinder blocks around it. . It's what we had for money at the time. You know how that goes.... PLUS I never gave the area under the ramp in front of the door any thought. Critters have been COMING AND GOING over the years under it. :0)  It's where the skunks hybernate and have their young. :0)
Sooooooooooo he is busy out there taking stuff off the shed, ladders and hooks, bird nesting boxes ( empty except for an old nest :0) ) and removing cinder blocks to restack them elsewhere. His truck is loaded with materials to unload. 
The nurse will be here in less than an hour. Neither of us is showered. :0( 
Another FUN DAY onboard.  I'm as happy as a Pig In Shit!   NOT!!!!!!  So much for some quiet days while Jill and Logan are away.
Today is already feeling like a SCORCHER! 82 already. ... Need to turn the A/C back on. I was chilly when I woke at 6 and turned it OFF. 
Took pics of Cher and Dana and Randy and Jill yesterday.  No time to upload them. Tomorrow....IF I REMEMBER!!!
 I shit you not!       MUST GO !!!!!


That's All Folks!

Monday, July 11, 2011

D D Welllllllllllllllllll after Saturday, SUNDAY wasn't bad.:0)

Reflecting back on my Sunday... this morning....................  
The front door opening and shutting. The side door in the parlor being used to come in from the back yard and occasionally my bedroom sliding door as well. All to be expected.   I shit you not!
Dogs WOOF EVERY SINGLE TIME someone comes through the front door. Dogs are yelled at to HUSH!  CONFUSION ! CONFUSION!
We never used the words Shut Up when grands lived here or with grands around, but I may have been guilty with my kids. Can't remember back that far. 
Hubby tells the grands that I was a waitress at the Last Supper. ;0)
So....nothing out of the usual .  That's the way I like it! uh huh! uh huh! 
W.B. came with his daughter. Then they were gone. Well.....as soon as Jill made it clear that how he wanted to spend the day was not like she wanted to spend her day.  Don't make plans for me without asking me first, is what she told him. He left..... pissed off. 
Ryan came shortly after noon time and just relaxed out in the yard reading and swimming. Sometimes Jill joined him and they chatted ( mother and son to mother and son ). 
Daughter Michelle was suppose to take her dad to his friends wake.  THAT didn't happen. Her back was hurting too badly and she couldn't get out of bed.  HMMMmmmmmmmmmm mmmmm , but not too badly the night before that she and Jill went drinking after they were through work at 10 p.m.  
I got him dressed ( for a wake ) and myself and Jill and Ryan got him to the car and back into the house when we came back.  He got to see his friend Joe ( the deceased's brother ) amd give him his condolances on his wife's passing away a few weeks ago.   In the beginning of the day hubby had said that he didn't feel like going out today and make a comment that he felt like he would be back in the hospital in a day or two. When I told him he looked fine and why he felt that way, he told me looks mean nothing, It's how he feels with what is going on inside him.   :0(    Glad to report that he is still HOME. :0)
Made him a lobster roll for a late lunch and I DID IT AGAIN..........broke down and cooked him oatmeal on the stove for a late breakfast. He had asked me to put the stuff out and he was going to stand at the stove and cook it himself.   Soooooooooooooo in that case......possible broken hip....I conceeded! arrrrrrrrg!
   Ryan's best man and his wife and year old daughter came after 3p.m. Sarah his wife got out of work at five and she came.  They cooked on the grille and seemed to be enjoying themselves. :0) 
W.B. and Alex came back. They swam.  W.B. was told he and his daughter were welcome to partake in the foods.  He tells Jill ( like we don't know it ) my daughter is picky. Apparently chicken and steak on the grille she doesn't eat. :0(  Jill didn't offer to make her something else.  HE LEFT. Probably took her for her adult sized meal of fried haddock that she only takes a few bites of just like he always does, because that is what she wants to eat. . Alex doesn't want the kiddie size meal.    She's what???  ALL of 8 ?   Oh yeah, that makes her AN ADULT! 

Tracie came after 7.  I changed into a skort ( size 14 Sonama label ) ( lub that label  ;0)  ) and we went out to eat.  I  intended to ONLY order a salad and something light.  Didn't happen . Steak tips and rice pilaf with THAT SALAD and even at that I forgot to ask for the Select Portion.  :0(  So one would think that I wouldn't eat everything on my plate...Right?  WRONG!!!!  So if I bitch about the weight I've gained or haven't lost......Well, you know!!!!  :0)
   Made it clear (  as I have on past occasions ) that I wasn't up to any company once home . THIS TIME Tracie didn't need to come in to use the bathroom and LINGER and LINGER.  Yessssssssssssssss!
Told her I was going to watch the Jaycee Dugart story with Diane Sawyer sitting down to talk with her.......I DID for a whole half hour and AWOKE at 10:45.  :0(  Hubby asked me how I liked it.  DIG...DIG. :0(
Must have been exhausted...ya think!  Now I'm mad at myself, because I really,really wanted to watch it.
 I will buy the book she wrote when it's in paperback.  I can't begin to imagine Logan at twelve being abducted and all that was thrust on Jaycee , thrust on him and she was eleven then.  EVIL PEOPLE are in this world. I shit you not!
Speaking of Logan, Jill called him after I told her to call him tomorrow. :0) Okay I admit ...it was tomorrow, because it was after midnight. Maybe that was what she was thinking. ;0) ;0)  He was awake and babysitting Erzi.   Gil and Julie went to a friends house to a party and were staying out all night. 
Nice. FUCKING NICE!  They took him along to babysit Erzi is what THEY DID!  A twelve year old boy watching a nine year old boy.  :0(  grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!   Mother and son chatted and he kept calling her back to chat some more for the next few hours. 
Once I heard THAT...I went to the computer. Jackson,MS is 100 miles from a lake and a  3 to 4 hours drive from a decent beach since Hurricane Katrina came through and ruined the beaches.
So much for him going to the beach every day............oh yeah, dad has to work and Julie said it wouldn't be fair to go to the beach without dad. Logan bought it!  You throw him a skooter and a few bucks and he thinks he has it made.  Being taken advantage of , not to mention the responsibilty being put on him isn't even on his mind. Dollars and a skooter is!    SHE Julie...is doing exactly what the Ex SIL from Hell wanted Jill to do. Leave Ryan ( her son from her first marriage ) at age eleven to care for his baby brother Gilby age 2 to join him in his FUN recreational things. Jill wouldn't hear of it. Therefore she was NO FUN!  He found a PLAYMATE and for five years Sandy put her kids aside for him and finally LEFT.  Now we have JULIE ( going on 6 years now?)
Anyone that would give up an 80K job to be with that ASSHOLE will always be a Lost Cause.
 Dumb and DUMBER!!!!!  The amount of education you have, MEANS NADDA!  I shit you not!
Okay... got that of my chest. Feel better Pat????????  

Here is something that I read earlier today. I'll pass it on.
Enjoy life NOW- It has an expiration date!
Maybe the EX SIL from HELL could have wrote it.........hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm  Yeah, BUT at who's expense???
Hubby has a 1 p.m. appointment today with his Primary doctor.  Just a short drive. No highway.
Jill leaves here around noon and will be back next Sunday. Just in time to drive hubby into Boston Monday for an appointment with dermatology.  Every six months or less he needs pre cancerous things removed.
Working out in the HOT SUN has not been KIND TO HIM.  I shit you not!
Hot topping is a miserable job. Someone has to do it and he did in between his seasonal job of heavy oil deliveries.  Another out in the sun job getting up on those big oil tankers to fill them with thick tar like oil that factories and hospitals heat with.

W.B. does not know that Jill is going to Florida.  This ought to be interesting. I shit you not!

Hopefully my Cheryl and her family will get out here today to use the pool and grille and have a nice day.
I'm just as hopeful that she will be pleasant and not BITE OFF hateful words about anyone or anything.
Time will tell.  sigh! Her husband Dana tries to calm her down, but that tends to get her more irratated. sigh!

Okay...I'm agitated !!  Hubby was just now making audible commentation about something on tv. She is not 165 pounds he is saying in a few octaves louder than general conversation OVER and OVER.  WHO, I asked.
That woman on TV. She weighs more than 165 pounds, he says.  
Okay...here's the Real Deal. A woman was raped on the River Walk in a town near us.  Assailant was identified as Andrew B.  6'2" and weighing 165 pounds.  They are looking for him. 
Trying to make hubby understand what he perceived and what was true was different ...took some explanation.  Did he accept what I told him?  He has dropped it. What more can I ask for.
Except for the News on TV ...quiet prevails. :0)

Must take my leave and circulate the blood in my body. I shit you not!

That's All Folks!