D D Please bear with me

I'll be all over the place and hoping that I make sense.
   Thursday....I got nothing done! Drove myself to the hospital in W.Roxbury to visit hubby. Truthfully...I'd rather have stayed home...BUT GUILT got the best of me. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
He had a johnny on that was driving him crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. It kept fall down off his shoulders, so I retied that . Then it was too tight on his neck.  You get the picture................
Lunch came ......room food delivery person has been the same one for yearssssssssss and he offered me a tray of food. :0)  Hubby did not want his burger on the wheat bun, so I cut it up for him. Did not like the O'Brien potatoes....took a bite of the burger and wouldn't eat any more of it. Yuck, yuck and YUCK! Gave him my diced pears and he ate his and mine.  In between getting up and down to open milk, tea , catsup package, etc. , I slapped my burger on the bun and added catsup, the lettuce and tomato and onion and ATE.  Not bad.....NOT GREAT, I prefer mayo on my bun, BUT it was edible. Believe me when I say, " I wouldn't starve to death in a hospital." If anything ....I'd want MORE on my tray. I shit you not!
I had brought with me a banana, his Lorna Doone cookies and a container of Tirimisu. NEITHER WOULD HE! ;0) I shit you not!
No sooner did he finish what he was eating.....I hadn't ....he wanted to get into the bathroom to shit.
What a WORK OUT getting him in there using a walker and trying to get him seated on the throne. 
No sooner did In get him seated, he had me running to go find the pajamas the V.A. provides.  A nurse pointed me in the direction of the storage closet and I grabbed up a pair. The bottoms and tops are rolled together and held together with an elastic. Got the top on him...too big.   L  Wrong size.
Live and Learn. After all the admissions he has had, you would think I would know that maroon pj's are a Large, Brown pj's are a Medium and the Navy blue????  Opened the Brown standing there . WALLA!
Get him dressed on the throne and back to bed.  Wore the Hell out of me. All the while I kept looking out the window at the gray sky and prayinggggggggggggggg. Please don't rain before I get home.
Once Michelle arrived to visit, I SPLIT for home and only hit a fine mist just before my exit. :0)
   I had got tickets to the meal my SIL Joe ( Michelle's husband ) cooks for the seniors every year at this time and after Michelle got back in town she went up to the shop and got our dinners for us and delivered them here.  Tracie took hers home last night and I will nuke ours for lunch today. :0)

Soooooooooooooo here's the" skinnie" on hubby. He has a UTI and is on medication for it until Wednesday morning when he takes his last pill.  ( Linezolid )  This is a different med from past UTI's.
He just got me "worked up." grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr All over a fuckin cord that he can't figure out what it belongs to. First he couldn't find his 2 electric razors and he insisted I moved them while he was gone.
Nooooooo, I didn't! They were in the open headboard behind him. I'd prefer he kept them in his nightstand  and IF I was going to move them...that's where they would be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The fuckin cord he has probably went to a razor that has long ago "bought the farm." He saves EVERYTHING :0(  Like why the F does he have to play with this obsolete cord now....he says ...cause I want to. Now he's asking if his toothbrush is in the bathroom.  yep...that's where it be! Guess he figured out  that cord is USELESS. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, BUT will he TOSS IT?
Here he comes.....I can hear him grunting and groaning as he makes his way to the bathroom with the walker.  I've learned to keep my distance.....all I get is " get the Fuck away from me." So farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr he has done very well getting himself in there to brush his teeth or shit or BOTH!
Now he's relating to me how the V.A.'s toilets are just as low as ours.   Did it " click " that our toilet is STANDARD and we never had one "taller." ???  I asked for a " raised toilet seat" to be send home with him. They sent a porta potty and it was MADE WRONG. Brand New in a box and one of the legs was welded approximately an inch shorter than the others. sighhhhhhhhhh It does fit over the toilet :0), BUT it's wobbly as all hell and where he is unsteady........oh boy!  NOT GOOD!
Maybe they are mailing a raised toilet seat....when I am inclined to, I will look up his History at the V.A. and check if it was ordered. 
Right now....he is tying  the bathroom up brushing his teeth. It's no quick procedure with him. Gil has to use it and soooooooooooooo DO I.  I'm squeezing my butt cheeks together. :0( 
He's done and I am going to HELP HIM OUT! :0)
I was sitting on the throne and he is collapsing and yelling for help. Jill and Gil rushed to his AID and got a chair under his ass. Then had to drag it away from the doorway so his wheelchair could be brought out. I came out of the bathroom and the three of us got him in his wheelchair and back to bed. He is upset with himself that he could not make it back to bed like he had been doing as of late. Two days in the hospital is a SET BACK . Assured him he will get stronger.....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
   It's 10:30 and son Randy HAS ARRIVED. Tells me the contractor and siding for the house is on the way here. :0) 
Yesterday his girlfriend Debbie came with him and kept asking me what she could do to help me out .
I was KNEE DEEP in crap in my closet .HOW I manage to make such a mess of things in there is beyond me, BUT every two months or less I try to straighten it out.  WHEN THE BED IS EMPTY I take advantage of it. :0) Out come the clothes and I pile them on the bed. Clothes hangers, shoe boxes, shoes...you name it! My back yard needed a good raking. It hadn't been done, so Deb raked it  and I was very pleased. She kept asking if I was happy with her work. I WAS!  Gave her some money. She is a sweet person. One can tell she has developement problems when they first hear her speak.   I HOPE SHE IS IN MY SON'S AND OUR LIVES FOREVER! One can tell she yearns for acceptance and compliments and has probably lacked for those for a long time. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
She filled FOUR LEAF BAGS ....More than likely they would have stayed on the ground until Spring OR BEYOND................ I shit you not!  Too much on my plate and Jill is NOT HERSELF PHYSICALLY.  She was sound asleep before 9 p.m. last night and Butch left for his own bed. :0) She must have made it clear that he was to GO HOME before she fell asleep.
He had Gil working on a side job with him ALL DAY. Money in Gil's pocket and today he is coming for him at eleven to have him help him move more stuff from his house into his new place. More "pocket $."

Earlier this morning I began the task of clearing off my bureau of everything that got piled there from when Randy cleared off my PC desk and other stuff that was just easier to DROP THERE  :0( and I'm still KNEE DEEP there. Had to refill hubby's med container for the week and mine needs refilling. Which reminds me...I haven't taken my meds today. BRB.
Got side tracked. Took my pills, made another attempt on my bureau, felt naseaus and even though it wasn't noon , I nuked our dinners. Maybe I'm suppose to take one of my new meds with food. ??? Haven't read the labels yet. :0(  Washed up our coffee cups and dinner plates and I'm sitting here taking another " break."
Feel no improvement.....on " That Note", I'm going to hit the bed for awhile.  BBL

Woke close to two p.m. Another DAY IS GONE  sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Feel better physically. :0)  
Made a pact with myself to continue clearing off my dresser and clean the mirrors and put some Old English on it before I touched this Post again. It's 3:22 p.m. .

Hubby's doctors at the V.A. convinced/ persuaded him to NOT TAKE the methadone any more. They told him that may have contributed to him getting a UTI as well as some of his confusion,
I have got that impression from them and it's the same behavior I have seen about chiropractors and physicians. YET when I worked for a chiropractor WE had some doctors as patients. There are some that can see the benefits of it and others that just won't accept the chiropractic profession.   YOU yourself would be surprised at the more hours of schooling they have over a G.P.
I made tracks for my old boss' office and got adjusted as soon as I got back from W.Roxbury Thursday P.M. I shit you not! Shooting pain in my left hip area has quieted down.   Here I am doing stupid shit to aggrevate it again. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Sooooooooooooooooooo Bottom Line...if hubby doesn't want the meth it's his call.  He says he rather deal with the pain and be back on oxycodone. It's a DONE DEAL.   I say,  CASE CLOSED !

   The siding is being put on as I type. Can't see the entire job being done today, but it's a beginning. :0)
It's time I took my shower and my next big decision will be a clean pair of pj's or street clothes.
Tracie called me from a Christmas Fair being held some where and asked if I wanted to be picked up. I PASSED!
Slowly....ever so slowly at that, I am trying to read all of your posts and comment . Trust me when I say that it's not because I am not interested in what is going on in your lives.  I AM  I shit you not!
Time...Time...Time....is what I lack!
Hubby just wanted me to look at his throat and asked for MY flashlight. He had MOVED HIS to the headboard behind his head and couldn't find it. GEE WHIZ. NO SHIT! I had it in his nightstand where it can be seen.  MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As common sense would tell you, the 3 pillows he uses behind his head blocks anything from view he puts in the headboard . sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
   Still have pictures that I want to post. Downloaded some in this laptop and can't find the friggin things for the life of me.  DUH! ?????  Looks like we both have issues. ;0)
Oh forgot to mention that hubby's discharge time kept getting changed. Noon, one, two, three thirty, four.  Michelle went and got him which saved me from driving in the dark and I got to do more to prepare for his home coming. :0) AMEN!


That's All Folks!

D D Hubby is Home!

Worked my hiney off all day before daughter Michelle brought her dad through the doo at 4:30p.m..
He's being treated for a UTI.    AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so beat from being on my feet all day.  yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Just wanted to stop in and let you know that I'm still kicken. ;0)
We both are ! :0)
See you tomorrow. Lord willing.

That;s All Folks!

D D I'm LOST this morning

It's the first time I've felt this way.  Hubby was admitted to the hospital around 6 last night.
 Moocho to do and if I had the desire to begin...I wouldn't know where to...................sighhhhhhhhhhh
The doctor in ER suspects the confusion is from the methadone and acted baffled as to why I am giving him it so often. Had the med bottle with me and showed it to him. Hubby ( after hours of not producing urine ) had to be cathed and it takes two days to do a culture on it. Seeing his confusion and some blood in the Depend and in his urine, they thought it was best to keep him a few days.  You get some rest, I was told.
Traffic was horrific and it was pouring. There is NO WAY, NO HOW that I could have made that drive myself. Thank God Jill still can, BUT for how long . We'll have to cross that bridge when we come to in wen she goes to renew her drivers license.
   Called hubby....talk about confused. Who's this? me. me wh?. your wife. Who? Pat where are you, I can't see you?  He thought he had been wherever he was for days. It got crazier and crazier. I IN TURN am feeling just a NUTTY and OVERWHELMED. I shit you not! There is no beginning and no end in whatever I do. Phone calls to make to his Home Health people to cancel their visits for now. . Today was our Seniors turkey day meal at the Elks. Our SIL Joe is the caterer.  Now I had to call the old time Van on the next street and remind him I had a ticket for him and I have been trying to call and wake Tracie to let her know I have her a ticket. Come and GET IT!  So  much to do in my bedroom to take some  stress off me and I'm making stress for myself. sighhhhhhhhhhh
   Randy worked until 11 p.m. installing insullation, etc in Logan's bedroom. Not quite done for the inspector to see and approve it at noon today. 
Daughter Michelle is going to go up and see her dad this morning. Leaving around ten and I want to drive with her. Logan leaves for FL when he ges out of school at 2 p.m. today and I want to be here to say goodbye and I love you.
Did manage to sleep some from 11 to 6. Had some leg cramping that made me wake and get up and put a hot pack on it. 
It's 9a.m. Hopping in the shower and dressing. 

That's All Folks!

D D Methadone= crazy pills

It's nearly 8 a.m. Wednesday and hubby is in the same position as he was at 2 a.m. At 2 a.m. it was a "FUNNY FARM<" I shit you not!
So much so....that if we didn't wake Jill then she had risen to use the bathroom and heard the scene going on in our bedroom. She came in and was EVER SO PATIENT with him.  All he kept saying to me was " shut the fuck up ms " or leave me the fuck alone ma."  He had insisted on using his walker to get into the bathroom to go pee and he could not stay up on his legs and kept falling back down on the his side of the bed. OVER AND OVER.  Whenever I'd ask what he was trying to do, I could one of the answers above. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I wanted to fling that walker out the door, but instead.....moved it across the room out of his reach.
There HIS POT sits inches away from his side of the bed. I kept telling him ( octaves were rising ) to use HIS POT or his URINAL. Fell on deaf ears.  He just kept getting more confused and yelling back at me. Jill walked in the room, helped him stand and steadied him onto his pot all the while talking to him calmly, picked up all the shit ( rolls and Q-tips ) even though I told her they could wait to morning so that she didn't wake herself entirely. He never peed, she got him back in bed and situated and he IS STILL IN THAT SAME POSITION some SIX HOURS LATER. Whats' with that????  Cash has jumped up onto and off the bed. No movement. He is breathing though and I really, really DO NOT want to wake him and begin another day like yesterday. :0(   Jill finally after question after question made him understand THE QUESTION. What is your pain level ? She got anything, BUT A NUMBER ...awful, up there, were a few I remember. Finally I heard 8 and told her to give him a half a pill, because it was the MAGIC TIME of 4 hours since his last full meth dose.
Cash saw a cat outside and is whining and howling racing back and forth to the window and door. Hubby still sleeps on undisturbed by it.

OH, by the way.................a lightbulb went off in my head after hubby threw that stuff around at ten p.m. Take a Zoloft .....I ran for that bottle and read those directions again. In my mind somewhere ( what I have left of it ) I wondered why Jill takes her med everyday ( even if it is a different one ) and I should only take a pill as needed. Okay..........I admit ....I AM A BLONDE and I AM POLISH!   Directions read Take 1 daily as needed.  Something clicked. Just yesterday that nurse asked to see and record the new med hubby was on and when i asked abo. ut the ( as needed ) on his med she told me she herself did not understand why it is written that way. It is on all meds. I won BINGO at 10 p.m. last night.
I should have been taking ONE every day since I filled the RX and NOT AS NEEDED.
Do I ever feel stupid...................OH YEAH!
   I TRIED >>> I REALLY TRIED. Woke him and all I'm getting is BAT SHIT out of him.
Told me that he isn't pissing anymore.  I got everything BUT a number on his leg pain. sighhhhh Asked Jill to intervene and she is still trying to get something definate and SANE out of him . Asked if he wanted to be cathetered. UH HUH. No you don't she is saying. What do you want to do...pee, have coffee, take your meds.  FINALLY HE SAYS PEE. Then he changed it to MEDS. Heard him say he has NO PAIN, but what can WE BELIEVE with him being so OFF THE WALL. I wish a nurse was here to witness this. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh He is shaking his med cup to mix his pills up. Over and over. NEVER EVER has he done this. I shit you not!
She is explaining every step of what she wants from him. Put meds in mouth, taske some water, swallow. He is acting like a child. OMG! I pray this isn't going to be HIM every day for the rest of his life. .She is continuing to try to get a CLEAR answer as to his pain.  Hasn't happened yet. What patience she has with him. :0) She always did have a way with seniors and did work when she was in her early twenties as an overnight sitter with an elderly woman for a few years before she passed away. The family loved her and we ran into one or the other over the years until they too passed away. She attended their wakes. Their little girls had grown up into women.
Then she cared for an elderly man. THIS is her Forte. I shit you not!
It's 9:10 and now she put his coffe in an enclosed coffee mug and is explaining to him how to use it. before that she was putting a cream on his sore elbows that he had been leaning on all night as he sat up, instead of laying down like I asked him to. Pressure sores. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
She now is bringing the cup up to his mouth for each sip.  oboyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Should Zoloft be taken morning, afternoon or at night?  I'm questioning myself as to just who's mind is OUT TO LUNCH ....about now.

Thought just crossed my mind that maybe I should ring this new doctor and let him see if he can get an answer out of him. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I just did....I'm no clearer on what's transpiring with hubby. It could be because he is retaining urine, he said, Also..it could be becuae of the methadone.  Call him this afternoon.  While I'm on the phone ...hubby had to pee. Before Jill couod get him on the potty, he pissed the bed.  While he sat on the pot we made the bed with fresh bedding. Then she tried to get him back in bed and he was very unsteady. Thankfully son Randy came through the front door and she called out to him to help her before she lost her grip on him.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Safe and back in bed ................sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I took the Zoloft right then and there. I shit you not! 
What a WILD DREAM I had before I woke this morning . It's still so fresh in my mind. Randy says I was "tripping."  If I have never ever been in a house laid out in design and all flooring was tile and the guy across the street lived in it ALONE and parrots of every description, size AND COLOR ( even a blue and gold macaw ) were loose in a room when I opened one of the doors and much more that I will omit...I WAS TRIPPING! The other dream SAME THING.  A tow headed grandson around the age of 6 came to me crying that his coach said he couldn't play because his coach thought he was a girl and it was a boy's team. I chased that SOB all over the football field ( boy could I RUN ) with the grandson behind me all the way and when I caught the guy I confronted him and had the grandson pull his pants down to show him what he had there. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo THAT is what TRIPPING IS. WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I still am pissed and want to hit that coach square in the jaw. :0)
Word for word, this is what is written on the Zoloft bottle. Take one tablet by mouth every day as needed for anxiety. SO I FIGURED if I didn't feel anxiety I didn't need to take one. Dum DEE DUM , DUMB!
   Jill is in the shower, Randy and John are installing insullation ( inspection for that is tomorrow ) and it's quiet in my bedroom. Do I dare enter it. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Do I really need to yet.  The answer was YEP and he was not drinking his coffee as the covered cup was too hard for him to use ( figure out ). Put his coffee in a coffee cup, nuked it and pray it goes down his throat and not all over the clean dry sheets.
I'm feelin jumpy. NO SMALL wonder, HUH!
I'm also feeling STUPID! 
Think I will try to relax in bed beside him and watch something boring on tv that will make me nod off.    BBL with hopefully GOOD NEWS!


tried to lie beside him and he was restless. kept twisting his bottle of water and looking for two fingers. On the top of his covers and under. Nothing made sense. Lots of moaning and confusion. Somehow I managed to nod off and next thing I knew he was trying to get up. had to pee. Grabbed his urinal and got it under him. Small amount of urine...and the BLOOD. Jill has run for gas while I dressed. We are taking him to the VA Hospital In Boston. sighhhhhhhhhh

That's All Folks!

D D Old dogs learning new tricks question

Do you think that I have enough brain cells left in my head to learn how to use the new iMac?

So far it's intimidating me and I walk away and use my " Tried and Trusty " laptop. . sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Food for thought ;0)

After loosing sleep 1 a.m. to 4a.m., I slept til 7a.m. yesterday and thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn a long nap/night's sleep from 8:30 til 11a.m. and thennnnnnnnnnnnn again from 1:30 to 4p.m.

It's what I call a "LOST DAY". I shit you not!

Hubby slept right along side me. :0)

I'm still waiting for my pictures to be downloaded. The ones my son Randy took of my car and I.

The baby shower pics .. are in my camera and when he downloads his, I should WATCH HIM.  Ya,think?

   Birthdays are coming up....cards to sign and mail....SHIT! Just thought/ remembered that Lady goes to the groomers at 4 p.m. PHEW!  Got up and posted the appointment card on the kitchen table beside me.

I've been known to forget it. I shit you not!

It's looking like RAIN is going to happen some time today. Not much has been getting done on my house or in that room, BUT son Randy called and got the electrical inspector here yesterday and son Michael did a GREAT JOB on wiring that room.:0) Now we can have the insullation and sheetrock work done.  That's ther next step.  I am always in the dark as to who is doing this work. One day Randy fires the contractor and the next??????   The efffin skylight that he ( the contractor ) installed is leaking and the one his helper did ISN'T!  Right now....my mind questions if that room will be done before the snow flies and for sure the siding should be done before then ...one would think. I see no materials laying in the yard to side the house and Randy will get upset with me if i question him about it.  Too fuckin bad, I say. Today is the day ....just let me see the whites of his eyes. I shit you not! A trench was dug yesterday to lay a pipe in to catch the rain as it comes off the roof ( gutter) and takes it away from the foundation.  Whoopdedoo! Whatever they did out there didn't keep me awake. No noise. No complaints from me yesterday, but I'm feeling rested up today. LOOK OUT!!!!!

The W.B. worked at the fire station. He will be here at any moment. It's just past 8 a.m.

She has been having him stay at his own place. Told him that she is well enough to be alone in her room and of course that wasn't taken good. I'm forever seeing him down on his knees at her bedside....pleading with her. She had a doctor appointment yesterday and she was pleased that her doctor spent close to an hour with her. Glad I wasn't the next patient waiting to see her. :0)  As it was, i waited a half hour the other day. Appointment was 11:30 and it was noon when she walked in the room. :0( 

Asked her if she and the doctor talked about Butchie and she said they did. :0) She told her not to let him drag her down with him.  After two drinks in him...HE GETS NASTY,Jill told her.

8:10 a.m. Speak of the Devil............. he's here.

   My oldest (38) grandchild Larry,Jr came here to visit for awhile with his only child Jessica, Sunday morning.

She is in Kindergarten now. WOW! It's been over a year since I last saw them. Usually I go to her birthday party in April, but we were in FL this year. My son and DIL Sombay ALWAYS pick me up and one time hubby was well enough to go. :0) It's a drive to Goffstown,NH . Highway driving. :0(

He has a nice place in a rural area. Lots of land and a brook running alongside and behind their property. Hubby and I would enjoy living there and watching deer and other wildlife. 

GIVE ME LAND LOTS OF LAND UNDER STARRY SKIES ABOVE....

Looked at the clock and saw it waas 8:30 a.m.

It went against the grain in my body, but I had to wake hubby so he could get his meds, coffee and cookies in him before the Home Health Aide, Kathy came to give him a sponge bath in the bathroom.

Then....shamefully I admit I showered and dressed.....( which I didn't do yesterday. )

Did I mention before that I got a pedicure one day last week???? Jill made the 3 p.m. appointment for me and watched hubby. It's a mile and a half away and raining or not I drove there.

These roads I KNOW like the back of my hands, PLUS it was still light out. It was the beginning of summer that I had my last one ( that nail polish held up impeccably ) :0), but my toe nails were a hole waiting to happen in my stockings. I shit you not!

In twenty minutes I'll be racing to change my bedding while Kathy does " her thing."

Butchie went to change and go to his painting job. He just came back in. Thought he was my son Randy....like WHERE IS RANDY TODAY?  I want to SEE ACTION!

The new doctor called yesterday. Hubby had moocho trouble understanding him. He's a Fast Talker.

I picked up another phone to see where I could help. Seems as though I should have been giving him a half of a pill in between the whole pills if his pain level was over 5. IT WAS.! Back to the "drawing board."

Gave him two halves since. No change. Which means...still no break through or whatever this doctor calls it. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Hubby did lots of moaning and groaning all evening long and was ANTSY.Too Antsy to even be able to concentrate or watch Dancing With The Stars, which he does enjoy watching.  Gave him an anxiety pill and he quieted down. Only woke once during the night :0)

Minutes to go and Gil just woke and went in to shower. sheeshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

The bathroom will be like an oven when Kathy gets here.sighhhhhhhhhhh

It's now after 4 p.m.  Hubby has been terribly confused....WHEN he hasn't been sleeping. My anxiety level was UP THERE and I laid beside him and dozed off until the nurse came at two. Felt good when I awoke, but it wasn't long before I felt shitty again. He insisted on getting into the bathroom right before she left and all he did was piss. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Claimed later he didn't know who she was , YET when she came into our room and I woke him he said, I've seen you before." Hell I didn't even remember that she had been here once before.  Every little thing today is driving me up a wall.....and I want to jump out of my skin.

Tracie called and when I mentioned I was going to the grocery store....she INSISTED that I wait twenty minutes for her to take me. WTF???  Even nuttier...I listened to her. I shit you not! When she came I let her know that I wasn't an invalid. She was concerned because I was so keyed up when I was talking to her on the phone, she said. TRUE!

We grocery shopped, came home, unloaded and put things away. Jill and the WB helped. :0)  Then they went to get Lady and bring Ginger to get her nails cut at 6. Tracie and I headed out to eat. Jill had fed hubby while we grocery shopped. :0) 

It's now 10 p.m. I just walked into our bedroom and hubby has his Q tips and change rolls all over the bed and floor. Asked him why and he says it's what I wanted him to do...didn't I.  OMG!

I told him if he could get out of bed to get in his upper night stand shelves and get that stuff out, he can get off the bed and pick it up.  Which of course he can't. He'd fall on his ass walking on those cardboard penny,nickle,dime,quarter rolls.  I just felt like venting.  I GIVE!  

Tracie left just minutes before that.   I sat at the kitchen table with her doing my own thing while we talked.  

 Jill went to bed at 9 after she and the W.B. grabbed some supper in town.  He took her middle son back to his dad's house and then went to his own abode.:0)  It's time for me to growl at Logan to turn his tv off. School tomorrow.  He reminded me he leaves for FL Thursday with his step mom and will fly back the Friday after Thanksgiving.  Missing school days. :0(  Got B's,B+s,one A and a D in Spanish.  Effort in everything but Spanish was Excellent as was Conduct in EVERY CLASS.  Let's hope next Report Card is as good or BETTER. He is capable of better than a B in some subjects.

Okay, I've stalled long enough. Time to pick up after hubby and get us both in bed for the night.

I damned sure hope hubby is not in this confused state tomorrow. I shit you not!

That's All Folks!

D D Uppers and Downers

Thought I had written about my return trip to my doctor.  Clearly, I can see that I didn't. sighhhhhhhhhhh

IF ONLY walls could talk.   I shit you not!
Five stabs later the doctor was able to draw my blood. Top of my hand near my wrist where I directed her ( bingo )  is where the labs are successful in drawing blood from me. Many times since my first pregnancy, I have been told that IF I ever have to have major surgery, I will have to have a " cut down." sighhhhh :0(
Rolling, inbedded, fine, are some of the descriptions given of my arm veins and while I'm NOT A WUSS  any longer....those words sound ominus. 
Soooooooooooooo now WE ( dr and I ) are relieved that is over and she wants a urine sample. ( No problem ), said I and off I trot to the bathroom with my little plastic jar and I sit and I sit and I sit.  With No exaggeration , minute after minute ticked by. Not even a drop. sighhhhhhhhhhhhh Up and down to the sink I was....running cold water over my hands. Then I would sit on the throne listening to the running water and kept telling myself over and over how ridiculus this was. Twenty minutes or so later I pulled my pants up, grabbed up my cup and went out to the front desk and said, "I lied." :0)  " How long are you open?" You have two hours, RELAX... I was told. Asked for and was given a 16oz. bottle of water. Sat out front...read mags and drank . Went outside into the cold air for added measure and  back to the throne. I swear.... another 40 minutes went by and no way, no how, could I pee even a drop. Gave myself lots of pep talks. Told myself I would be driving in the dark ( no like )... nothing worked. Feeling a bit embarrassed I gave up and asked for a " to go cup". ;0)  Which...I will use today and drop off at the lab just down the street.  
Before my " sling surgery "  May 5th of this year, I could tinkle at any given minute of any given day. I shit you not! In tyhe past my doctor has always sent me to a lab miles away for lab work and urine testing. She was trying to make things easier for me and I AM SO HAPPY with this change in her. She and I use to go round and round....you go here ....and I went where I wanted to.  Faster results for her she would tell me. Less driving and stress for me....always WON OUT. :0)
I'm happy to report she wrote me 2 RX's . One for anxiety to take daily beginning with 1/2 pill for 4 days and then a full pill.    Zoloft to take AS NEEDED and so far I haven't had to take one. :0) Tracie and I went out to Walmart and I filled my RX's and hubby's RX for methadone that night. 
Soooooooooooooooo that is the UPPER and my DOWNER was.............. after son Randy brought my car back he decided to set up my computer . Jill was out somewhere...already I've forgotten. WAS GOOD though...isn't drinking. :0)  Tracie came in plenty of time for us to go to the Castleberry Fair. :0)
Hubby did not want to be left with Randy ( he drives him nuts too ;0)  ) and I waited for Jill.
She pulled in the driveway at 3 and off Tracie and I went, with her driving the back roads to Salem,NH. :0(
A 25 minute or less drive using highways....we pulled into the parkinglot 50 minutes later.  sighhhhhhhhhh
Then I read the $1 off coupon I printed for the two of us ....closes at 5p.m.  The first 25 minutes or so, I tried to be NICE and stayed with Tracie as she chatted with all the vendors she has made friends with over the years .....and THEN , I took off to hunt down that red glass sconce in the booth that was there last year.
BUMMER!   DOWNER............the vendor wasn't there this year.  In a few weeks there is another one. Here's hoping!  On the bright side, I found a jam maker that made blueberry jam/jelly ?( no seeds ) for hubby. Different vendor that I bought from than last year, but it looks just as good
TWO stained glass iris' to hang on my bedroom sliding door. Have two already and can ALWAYS USE MORE!  :0) Now I have to wash those darn windows.....BUT what an incentive. :0)  The house looks like a " shit house in distress ", but it will have cleaned sliding doors. ;0)anddddddddddddd 4 iris' hanging on it!

The Baby Shower is a thing of the past now.  More about that in a different post. Maybe I'll learn a few basics on my new desktop p.c. to download pics, etc. My oldest son Jay sat with hubby while we were all at the baby shower..... as was Randy here ( driving them both nuts ) showing Jay the new toys capabilities. It was Jay that showed me how to get my keyboard to work when I came home. Randy had left 5 minutes earlier.  . Try as I might yesterday...NOTHING I did would put a word on the screen. :0(  It was the trusty laptop to the rescue and guess where I am sitting at nearly 3 a.m.
Woke minutes before 1 a.m. and COULD NOT fall back to sleep. I AM SUCH A "Daf". I shit you not!
Hubby is sound asleep and has been since we turned in....well we both nodded off with the Patriots game score 6 Pats, 2 other team ( CRS moment ) and when I woke it was still on and I could hear highlights of the game being said as I hit the OFF button on the remote. Then I climbed back in bed and laid there....and laid there.  Like I said, " what a Daf I am." Coffee and no interruptions sounded better than falling back to SLEEP to me. After the longgggggggggg day I had .....hey I can't even figure myself out , sooooooooo don't try. ;0)
My intention is...after I finish this second cup of Hazelnut Creme coffee ( black ) to give SLEEP another shot at it. ;0) It's now minutes after three a.m.  It wasn't that many years ago that I could operate on just a few hours of sleep. What...five/six years back for the previous five years ( approx ) I could not sleep past midnight , one, two ( even after falling to sleep at ten and eleven. )  I NEEDED MY QUIET / ALONE TIME!!!!! Well...that's what I told myself or my mind did.  Told you I was 'Daffy" . Yeah , fucked up too! ;0)  Now I have a Golden Opportunity to sleep ( a good /GREAT night for hubby anddddddddddd.

That's All Folks!