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Tuesday stillall day too:0)

ONE !!!
Just ONE show a week on Dr.Phil that I want to watch and it's on Tuesdays .  Dr Phil's Housewives.
Today at 2:55 p.m., five minutes before the show began our insurance agent made his semi annually call to the house. This was a social call.
George has been our insurance agent since before there was an OUR.
He was hubby's life and car insurance agent before I met him.
He knows just about everyone around this neighborhood and stops to see how we and our family are doing.
If you need him for anything ( paperwork for a new car to get put on the road or other insurance buisiness) , he is just a call away.
Not having to run to a insurance office was a convenience all these long years.
Sniff, sniff, I missed almost all the the first half hour and was ready to scream.
When the program was pre-emted for a report on a mill fire in Fall River,MA I had all I could do to keep myself from falling to the floor and having a tantrum. :0)
About that same time Mary the neighbor who has been borrowing money from others in my neighborhood pulled up out front and could see me through the new glass door.
She has never come to our house. I have been in hers a few times in years past to give her tomatoes and cukes and when her hubby Mario was alive I would give him fresh cod that my son Larry caught.
This has to be humiliating for her.
Right away hubby is saying loudly "don't give her any money."
Left him sitting at the table with George and stepped out the front door as she made her way to the door with her cane.
Had all but $20 to pay her car insurance bill.  Could I help her out.
My Randy had stepped outside to go measure another door and I asked him to give her a twenty dollar bill and I'd give it back to him when I went inside.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
She told me she thought things would be easier once her son David graduated from college.
He graduated and now he can't find a job. Years back he was my paperboy paper person.
I have heard from other neighbors that she told them he was doing drugs. Oxycodone.  sigh!
She told me she went to the food pantry for the first time today.
I feel so bad for her.
The visiting nurse still comes to care for her leg ulcers.    I asked her.
She told me she would try to pay me back as soon as she could.
If she does....she does.   I just don't have more to give.
Charity begins at home and I have a few kids that still need helping out here and there.
It all adds up. Can't take it with me, but dang I'd like to do more than what I do for pleasuring myself.  
Another twenty minutes of Dr.Phil was spent on the door steps and only caught the last ten minutes of the show.
Not really.......Randy was telling us what repairs he will do next and it's hard to hear over him. sighhhhhhhhhh

  I am pissed about missing my program and I am getting pissed at myself for not having any ambition and just wanting to sleep.
I did take a nap from close to one until two. Didn't feel refreshed. :0(
Would have liked to have fallen back to sleep.  Logan's friends came in at 2.
 Jill was out grocery shopping.  Butch called looking for her.
Told him where she was and I don't know if she called him back like I told her to.
She is making supper. I can smell onions sauteeing and she adds mushrooms to them for Logan's taste.
He loves mushrooms. Mushrooms in subs, mushroom pizza, stuffed mushrooms. 
Come to think of it...so do I. :0)
Just spied 4 steaks. That means it's just the four of us at the table tonight. No Butch.
He's probably working.

  Some days I look around at what needs to be done and it looks insurmountable. 
Excuses, excuses.  That vitamin pill I began taking a month or more ago has done Jack Shit.
Think I need a Miracle Pill.  I shit you not!

Beautiful weather . It's 75 degrees now at 4:30 p.m.
I could have worked out in the yard today and my supper would have been cooked for me.
Kicking my ass now!
Soon it will be too dark to see the keyboard.
Unless I get myself dressed and out to a store to replace the one I broke...I don't expect one will fall in my lap. Ya think..........

Feeling useless and hopeless. 
Tomorrow....always tomorrow.
Hubby just asked me what's burning.
I am in the same room as he is.
I surmise it's the grille, so I told him.  To be fair, I did see steaks, so I had a clue. :0)
He went to check the grille out on the deck and yelled for Jill.   The steaks are charcoal.  P U!!!!  
The gease from whatever was cooked last on the grille flared up and the steaks were almost well done in five minutes.
$35 for the four steaks. Only Logan had an aversion to eating charcoal on some of his steak.
Soooooooooooooooooooo we are sitting there eating and hubby asked me how much money Mary wanted.
Told him $20.
You didn't give it to her, did you he bellowed.  I hesitated ............." Did you", he yells again.
Told him yes and she said she will pay me back.
He begins hollering at me..... just like she did this one, just like she did that one.
I asked him how he knew whom she paid back and didn't.
Of course he knows nothing about this...the same as I do.
I haven't bothered to ask Jane next door if she was paid back.

  Next he says to Jill while I am washing dishes and she is cleaning off plates and making a pan of food for the skunks, guess what your mother asked me last night when I was having a stroke."
I had completely forgot he had another TIA.
She said, " guess you don't want sex tonight." " Real nice  !"
I did....oh yes I did say that, but I was joking with him. Trying to make light of what was happening.
We have been told there is nothing that can be done and he has always come out of these.
Begins with numbness in his left hand and continues up the arm into his face.
Last night it was his hand he complained of and it was twisted up. Then and now again he said the pain was worst this time.
What should I have done, I wanted to ask. Throw myself across your body and beg you not to die?
I was concerned. I shut my computer down and went and laid down beside him showing concern.
Once he was coming out of it..I made that joke.
Next time should I say.....promises, promises???????
Last year around this time he had at least 10 TIA's up through December.

   When he first sat down to eat he was telling Jill how Randy is always talking to him about Hi Def.
No difference in regular tv or Hi Definition.
Logan says " yes there is."
I said the same thing and told him with his bad eyesight maybe there isn't.
Everytime Randy comes here, he notices he isn't watching the program in Hi Def.
We pay for it.
Forced to stop writing. Have my face inches from the keyboard. 

Wednesday. October 27
Left our bedroom sliding door open all night. It was THAT warm!
We had some showers during the night.
It's raining now and the temp is 69. WOW! Love it! :0)
   Just made a trip out to the kitchen for a refill on my coffee. Then purposefully walked to the front door.
Yepper....Butch's truck is parked in the driveway. It's 8:15 a.m. and he gets out of work at  8 a.m.
The firestation he is assigned to is in this town, not his .
   Was thinking of taking a picture of the new storm door. Rain is too heavy.

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh! Tracie didn't come or call here last night.
How could I forget that!

It's now 11:10 a.m. 
Went back to bed and slept.
The rain made me do it!
That's my story and I'm sticking to it. ;0)
Left the screen open enough for the dogs to get in and out.
If I can sleep through hubby having the tv going and Jill moving about, I'm going for the GUSTO!
Only the fact that I made a chiropractic appointment for hubby at noon has got me up and moving.
Shame, shame on moi.
A thought just crept into my mind. .....................that can be dangerous....I shit you not!
If I ever end up in the hospital I will request No Company and hang a Do Not Disturb sign on my Private Room door.
Shit! I should have been making the bed while hubby was in the shower.
He has my top corner of the fitted bottom sheet pulled up with his wiggling about to get up to a sitting  position.
Like he says, "it gives you something to do."
That's All Folks!