Here's that picture of Ed and I as promised.

May 3,2013

It's still Monday. One would think I had nothing to do but park my arse in front of a computer.
Wrote in my Diary for at the very least...3 hours, earlier today.
Must admit, I do miss the extra time I had on my hands while hubby slept during the day to allow myself to kick back and write from the heart. Time waits for no one and nothing remains... The Same.
I see change everywhere I travel and with everyone I know. Some good, some bad. Some ...never to be understood. Life...waits for no one! I shit you not!

Yesterday Jill was visibly and verbally upset in the fact that Ed and I did not come together and she could feel my inner turmoil. "You brought him into my life", she said. She also said it took her a long while to get over the fact that I was no longer at home even though she was glad to see me happy. Now....??????
Well of course I can understand where she is coming from now.
   Son Randy came during the day and he too could sense my inner conflict . HE who can get on my nerves by just being around him and his anal attentive dysfunction.

Ed called me around 11:15a.m. In talking to him last night I mentioned I did not have my phone charger, so if he calls it and can't reach me to please call the house.
Todays call was....what do you think about me coming to the house and bringing you your charger and taking you to lunch. After telling him that I did not want to imposition him and his day, etc. he told me I was worth it and it's what he would like to do. Then I told him to bring his night meds in case he wanted to spend the night. "I'd like that", he said.
Frankly, I wasn't getting a damn thing done here.  Haven't even made my bed ( he makes his up first thing) and only took a shower after his call in order to be presentable to go out to lunch with him.
AND, here I sit......and look around me.
Things look so hopeless. It's...where do I begin and will it make a difference. ????????????
Since Jill's bedroom floor was torn up and she had to displace all her clothes, etc. so that a new floor could be put down, she has had bags and bags ( large black trash ones) piled in the living room and on her bureaus. She has had no interest in re-organizing her things. Seems as though she has just enough things not thrown into a bag to wear and that's good enough for her. When I think of all the dollars I spent on those clothes..... :0(.   She just doesn't take the care of her appearance as she once did. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
She confided in me last night that she is going to begin seeing someone. She has known Jimmy for years and so have I. I knew his mother soon after Mike and I met and also the man she later married when her two sons were young. He owned my favorite Chinese restaurant back then and now.  She was a waitress there. Later she became the one that did the business end of everything. Died of Cancer in her 50's. :0(
Jimmy has been through a couple of divorces. He has shown an interest in her for some time, but knew she was with the Whine Bucket whom he knew also as they were friends as kids and young men. From what I have seen and known of him...Jimmy is a hard worker. Will they be good for each other?????
She tells me that she too doesn't want to care so deeply for a man and be hurt again. Her ex husband ( the SIL from Hell) was her King and she was HIS QUEEN. He may not have been much to look at, but he was everything to her. It destroyed her when he left her for another woman.
HELL, I could see that! I shit you not!
As others have told me, she should have quickly picked up the pieces and moved on, but she continued to have a Pity Party for all these 13 years since. Some do....some don't! Who am I to judge.
As I would say to my own kids, "when you have lived your life...then come back and tell me what I did wrong in mine."  We all march to the beat of a different drummer.

It's Tuesday morning. Ed left for home and I'm taking time to write in my Diary before I head out into my back yard to look around at what drives me the most crazy. THAT...is where I will begin !
It was a good day yesterday. We at out in the yard most of the day and watched the birds feeding their young in many of the bird houses that I have in my yard.
 Jill made a fabulous supper for us. One thick pork chop each, onions sautéed in butter, turnip, carrots and whipped potatoes and applesauce. YUM! Jill drank a tall glass of milk with her supper. Grandson Gil....didn't eat much. Out of his mouth I heard, "one pork chop is too much meat." HUH????
Jill retired to her room after 8 with a glass of ice with coke in it. ???????????????????????  I knew she had the rum bottle somewhere where we could not see her add it to the coke. Like DUH, I'm not stupid.  I shit you not!
We watched tv until after ten. Isn't that Kellie Pickler and Derek Hough something to watch/behold!!!
Not only can she sing...but she has become a great dancer!
   This morning we went out for breakfast....so I have no excuse not to get my ass moving. A good nights sleep, a full belly and my spirits are better. It's time to throw on my old yard work duds and sneakers that have seen better days, remove my watch and slap on some gardening gloves.
I told Ed he could stay and sit and watch me, but he needed to let me do my own thing. He's from the old school mentality where you don't let a woman do heavy work while you sit and watch. Sure...I could have found something for him to do, but I know he would have been stopping me from lifting, using a pitch fork, etc. and taking over. Too, THIS SPACE/TIME APART, will be good for the two of us. I shit you not! 

I must be some kind of fool. It's 83 degrees and I'm filthy , hot and sweaty trying to reclaim my vegetable garden plot. The wire fence has Shit The Bed and needed to come down. Son Randy will bring  the stuff to put up a new one tomorrow, plus manure, etc. .  Meantime, I will clear the shit out that has tried ( and done a good job of it, I might add) OUT.  Tomatoes can be put outdoors May 31st. Maybe, just maybe, I will have  the ground ready by then. Tomorrow we are suppose to get rain, so I will shop for them and other things. Tonight I get my hair dyed. Tomorrow I will get a cortisone injection in my right hip for the bursa and hopefully my left knee too. Injured it at work over 15 years ago and got an injection back then and it WORKED. No pain til now. :0)
I sound like I am falling apart.    I am! ;0)

It's now Saturday May 25th.
Went to the bone doctor and he wouldn't give me a cortisone injection in either my left knee or my right hip. :0(    Four xrays of my left knee and three of my right hip later I get the DX... bursitis and arthritis.   Like tell me something new. One of his brilliant statements was, "I can't give you two shots on one visit. DUH! Like ask me which hurts worst and get me out of my pain.
Gave me an RX and told me to come back in three weeks. if the meds don't work, he will give me the shots. SURE....one visit at a time. So for what he could have done in just two visits, it will now take THREE. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ 
The pain med price almost gave me a heart attack. $60.69 for a thirty day supply. Gimmee a break!
Got through to his office and requested a generic. $4. Of course it took two hours for the doctor to call the pharmacist  and I wandered all over Walmart filling my cart during that WAIT Time. :0) :0(
Happy to report that the med seems to be working...orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr the pain is in remission. I shit you not! ;0)

Went back to Ed's Thursday. Friday we had monsoon rains and came back to his house in the evening to more monsoon rains all evening. Today we are catching up on shows I taped and just vegging out. It's rained off and on most of the day.
I'll be going back to my house Monday and staying home Tuesday and Wednesday as well.  Moocho back yard work and vegetable garden planting, weather permitting.

Ed and I may have come to an understanding.  ????????? Time apart will tell. 

Talked to Jill on the phone today. Jimmy hasn't called her yet to invite her to dinner at his place and she said she is not going to chase him. Good for her!!!! 

Wishing you all a happy and safe Memorial day weekend. (((hugs)))

That's All Folks!