You have to be shitting me!

Last night ( which was Monday ) to be exact , I was really into Ed and the pleasure was all  mine when the effffin phone rang. It was my Jill and she was sobbing her heart out as Showtime was her only entertainment of late and she was watching some old series (I forget the name of.) and couldn't get it last night.  Bottom line...her mind has been very fragile as of late and losing Showtime on our cable due to what she thought was her brother Randy's fault seemed to have tipped her almost to THE EDGE . He had called Comcast to order cable in my name as it was a special promo for $150 plus tax and my bill was in my husband's name and I was paying $274 a month presently for the cable, phone and internet. Again long story short, it wasn't due to his cancelling the service in my husbands name and after she called Comcast they shot a ? through the cable box or to it...whatever they do and she got Showtime back. I was shocked at just how fragile Jill's mind is at present. She has had her second visit with a therapist and sees her again the 16th. Meantime someone is supposed to contact her in regards to her medications (one being Zoloff) and see what they can do/change to help her better with her depression and anxiety.  I hope this is done soon. I shit you not! Her sobs about tore me apart listening to her.

Again...a fly in the ointment in our love making department....THIS could only happen to moi! Holy Shit...does it ever end? Once a mother, always a mother...so the saying goes. sighhhhhhhhhhhh

I'm back in my own home for tonight. Daughter Michelle came and we talked for about an hour. All good. We did have our teary eyed moments remembering him. She too is feeling her dads loss on the heels of losing her mother and FAMILY does not seem the same. Yep, a fly is in the ointment there too.
Life never stays the same and things change quickly, it seems moreso after the loss of someone special in your life. We all like continuity in our lives. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I've made calls to loved ones today, visited an old friend/ex coworker who is in bad health for a few hours and in general made time for people that are special to me and that I want to keep in my life.
No shopping today...tomorrow is time enough. Tracie called around 8. She came down with a cold on Sunday. While I'm sorry she isn't feeling well, I am thankful that Michelle and I had some alone time and that I didn't have to send Tracie away to have this one on one with Michelle.
About now ...I wish there were a dozen of ME!
Sounds crazy,huh! 
Here it is 9:20p.m. and I'm missing Ed.  Sounds crazy,huh! Have I told you that I'm Daffy....Oh I did, didn't I. ;0)
We'd like to leave here after the 7th of November ( we rather vote than do an absentee ballot) for Florida. If possible...rent my son and his wife's double wide that they hardly ever use in a senior retirement park. I've posted pictures of it before. They are going to be holding Open House on it soon in hopes of selling it as the cost of the park isn't worth the amount of time that they can enjoy it.

Grandson Gil has been at his dads house. Presently he is on pills that will make him very, very ill if he uses hard drugs and next week he will begin getting a shot once a month that will do that same thing. I know not the name of this stuff, but our hopes are that THIS will be just what the doctor ordered. Where he hasn't used hard drugs in weeks and IS NOT threatening to kill himself, he has been told that no facility will admit him for treatment. What a hellofa note! sighhhhhhhhhh

So...LIFE has been anything BUT DULL for me.  I wish...I wish!
I'm thinking that once I post this....I need to go look at sex toys to buy. NEVER in my right mind did I ever think I'd be doing this, BUT...when push comes to shove......YESSSSSSSSSSSSS I CAN!
(((hugs))) Gotta run.................

That's All Folks!