D D I'm spitting nails!

Last night I passed up the spaghetti dinner that Jill cooked so I could get the Hell away from these four walls.   Daughter Michelle has been coming regularly to visit her dad on Wednesdays to watch American Idol with him. . Sometimes I leave, sometimes I don't. Jill's son. his wife and baby were coming over to eat mom's cooking and visit.   Felt bad missing out on seeing the baby and how he has grown :0( , but knew hubby would be making waves about Tracie being there.  She showed at five and we headed to Walmart and spent a good hour or more there. Then we headed to The Outback, but as we neared the closer place Good Tymes, I said, " what the Hell, lets eat there." Had the teryaki chicken salad on my mind but that idea went out the window after I looked at the menu. Baked haddock, topped with tomatoes,onions and peppers along with a light coating on top, sounded good.   Even by getting the portion they offer ," the Perfect Portion " less food at a much lower price, I know I blew my POINTS. The carrots were fine....it was the Rice Florentine I couldn't keep my lips off of it. . sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Before we left there I made a call home. Reminded Jill that it was 8p.m.   Before I left I told her where I had hid hubby's night pills. Her last words to me were, " Butchie and I are going out for a few hours. Don't worry', I'm not going to be drinking."
Then it was off to Kohls for more shopping. Lately I have tried to control the shopping. Last night, I was not good. Not that we can't use what I bought... WE JUST DON'T NEED IT!
It is now 7:50 a.m. and I still haven't seen Jill. Got all of maybe 2 1/2 hours sleep last night. The wheels in my brain  turned until 2:30 a.m.  Hubby has that condition called Restless Legs and it was about this time his legs were over my side and no matter how close to the edge of the bed I got, I was getting nudged . sighhhhhhh  FINALLY I woke him with my complaining, which made him come to and go into a long tirade that his legs were nowhere near me. When I finally inquired as to why I would wake him if his legs were not touching me, he told me just to be mean to him. OMG!  Gimmee a break!

I have one question for Jill when I lay eyes on her. Who and what was more important than your son's education and health.

Began to leave messages on her cell phone. the last one being the question above and telling her if I didn't hear from her soon, i was going to the police station and reporting her missing.
Then I called the W.B.'s cell phone and left him the same message.

An hour later , W.B. called. We are in CT. We are fine. Didn't have a drop of booze, blah,blah. I told him she had no business being in CT. She had a minor son here at home. He tells me he thought she straightened that all out before they left. NOT WITH ME, I told him and no one told me she wouldn't be home last night or this morning. Told him it was time that she moved in with him. I have had enough of the stress she brings me. He tells me he will have her call me.  Why the fuck didn't she talk to me THEN!
Jill has no business being in a casino even if  it was a weekend and Logan was at his dads.
SHE HIT BOTTOM GAMBLING. Begged, borrowed from family and stole money out of my checking account. MORE THAN ONCE.  Was barred from a few casinos because she supposedly turned herself into them.  Then she went to G.A.   Maybe for a year...maybe longer and pronounced herself WELL and stopped going because she had met and dated a recovering gambler there that became a REAL PSYCHO in OUR LIVES. He stalked her and put our phone numbers everywhere on the internet. We had every Tom, Dick and Harry outfit calling us for over a year.  She avoided him by not going to the meetings anymore.   It's not like there aren't other G.A.Meetings somewhere. He,(Paul ) still every once in awhile lets her know he is watching her.


I AM SICK OVER THIS!
She has told me more than once that he wanted to take her to the casinos in CT and she told him she was not interested.  WTF happened NOW that she agreed to go.!   If  I remember his words correctly, he said that SHE WANTED TO GO! The two of them DESERVE EACH OTHER! I shit you not!
There is NO EXCUSE she can give me that WILL FLY with me!

My day was going to be stressful as it is with hubby learning he is seeing a psyche at the last moment at 3 p.m.  .  NOW THIS!

That's All Folks!