D D Day 4...........Long Day

Even longer night. I shit you not!

I have not laid eyes on Jill or Whine Bucket since they left here yesterday morning.
Nor has she called here.
When she left yesterday the last thing I spoke was ...will you be home at two when Logan gets home from school. 
To which I heard...maybe not quite that early and something about many errands to do.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I have called her cell phone only to get that message that her mailbox is FULL.
I WILL NOT call whine buckets cell phone.
Have made many trips to the front door to check the driveway and it always remained the same.
Just his truck parked there.

Woke at 4 a.m. and checked her room. EMPTY!
Why I bothered to go to the front door and look out I DO NOT KNOW.
Oh yes... I DO!  Was thinking maybe her car would be there and they were in the trailer.
Not to be.
Had trouble falling back to sleep and when I did had crazy dreams.
Woke again at 6:20 a.m. and repeated my steps. Her room...front door. EMPTY
Hubby woke at 7:30 and asked if she came home.  That would be a NO!

Of course I have had all kinds of thoughts running htrough my mind.
#1  Dead  ...he killed her.
#2 Both dead...went off the road somewhere.
#3 Eloped
She has stayed out all night, but not often in the past  five years and I have told her how worried I was and that a phone call would have been appreciated.  sigh!
I am sooooooooooo ANGRY with her.
One minute it's anger I feel and the next it's concern as to her well being.
My vision is hazy from lack of sleep and my ears are tuned to car doors and the front door.
Every time I heard a car door shut last night I was up and checking a n d ....HOPING.
   Just remembered that she has to work today and writes where and when on a calender on her bedroom wall.
Up I got to check........2:30 p.m. in the next town over from us.
Wishing it was an earlier time.
If she is alive she will have to come home and get her unifrom and work shoes.
Each time she has done this I have always thought the worst.
Each time she has come home.

WE NEED TO HAVE A TALK.
I DON'T NEED THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE!
IT'S NOT FAIR TO ME.

That's All Folks!