I haven't had anyone knock on my door asking to shovel......ever!
Jill and Gil left for work at four and a few more inches had built up on the ground in those few hours. She did so well, I gave her another ten to do the back so that we could get hubby out in his wheelchair.
She lives quite a few streets away and said she hasn't been able to find a part time job. Seemed like a real sweetheart. She's a fast worker and ambitious.
Logan slept from the time his mom left until 7:30 p.m.:0) Then kept himself amused with XBOX LIVE. I gave him his meds at nine.
In the mail today was a notice of a concillatory hearing for hubby and work comp on February 1st at 9 a.m. This new attorney I hired wants them to make an offer of a lump sum. Also I see some writing in there about the many years they did not pay him a COLA . Will have to call the attorney tomorrow and have him explain in laymans terms what is what. I'll tell hubby about it tomorrow. I have my reasons. Number one being....I need it explained to me what this day in court is all about. Stressed thinking about what the weather will be like that day, how hubby will feel that day, what kind of a mood will he be in, ( in the past few years he has wanted to settle thinking it would be best for me if something happens to him as that income WOULD END0 and now I'm not so sure what he wants for me. He could probably not give a shit about what monies he provides for me at this time. I'm okay with the weekly check if he decides against settling, but cleaning his ass is going to be a lot harder to do after I went to this trouble of getting a lawyer to work on his behalf. Then again.....we will probably be offered some RIDICULOUS SUM as we were in the early years of his injury. IXNAY on that!
Stressing about where we have to be Lawrence that day even though I'm sure that Jill will do the driving and we do have the GPS built into the Toyota ( that I have no idea how to use.) Jill does as I got her one a few years back so that she could find her way to function halls in distant towns to work.
Sunday
Last night the pains in my legs returned. :0( Had a bad night trying to fall back to sleep every time the pain woke me. Hubby was up a few times too to pee and sometime around 4:30 I gave him his pain meds. This time ( having to get out of bed ), I really had a hard time falling back to sleep. :0(
When we kissed goodnight he asked me for a BJ and instantly the word NO came out of my mouth.
Just as quickly he replied, I wouldn't do that to you. It wouldn't be too safe with me having this infection. ...................... should I be flattered that he thought of me....................................
Infection or NO INFECTION ...IT AIN"T HAPPENING! Too much info?????
BTW this was his first mention of sex to me in a year or better.
I haven't confronted him for a few reasons. One being that I want to get him to a Mental Health person. If he has any idea what this is about..................horses won't be able to drag him there. I can lie and tell him this visit is to see if the pain med he is taking is .............what word am I searching for here? How about they want to check up ....................................How about they want to measure the long term effects of being on oxy. Hell, I don't know what stupid thing to say. More stress!
If I thought that confronting him would be the with all to end all I'd JUMP ON IT! To be truthful...I don't know which way to turn. Is there ever a right way in this situation????? My mind goes in fifty directions. I shit you not!
In my gut, I'm doubting this is Dementia if he knows right from wrong. His reaction when he saw Butch in Jill's bedroom after HE SPOKE tells me that he knows he DONE WRONG!
This sciatica pain today is for The Pits! Looking forward to having a body held together by CORTISONE.
Finally!!! Checked the spelling and have it right. This Time!
Gil took a shower this morning and used 3 efffin bath towels. WTF!
Every day we have a FULL LOAD of towels to wash. I hear the towels are as big as a blanket at his dads and they were used more than once or twice. I suppose if they are hung up to dry ...twice is okay. I have been guilty of that in the past, but knowing what I know, that isn't the case. ewwwwwwwwwwwww
Jill has told him to knock that shit off. Apparently he has forgot already. sighhhhhhhhhhhh
It's a new day. Sitting in front of a computer won't get much done.
Spent too much time yesterday napping or watching the birds. Had to chase a darned sparrow hawk away ...shoo...shoo.... no lunch here. It missed it's mark and was sitting feet away on the fence.
I'm not purchasing good bird food to fatten up the doves, sparrows, finches, snow birds, chickadees, titmouses,woodpeckers, cardinals and blue jays to feed a hawk.
Keeping my mind on any one thing...has been difficult, if not impossible.
I roam from room to room, then sit on my butt.
Think I'll go sit where I can see the birds feeding ( which is on my bed. )
I'm watching mothers deliver high risk babies. The miracle of birth never gets old to me. Hubby usually grumbles and wants to watch something else. So far...he hasn't made waves. :0)
Oh my gosh! First baby and married twenty years. The baby is breach. I'm haappy for her. :0)
It's another "Kickback" day and I'll get nothing done and whine about it another day.
The mind and spirit need rest. This is becoming my manta! I shit you not!
That's All Folks!
